MEN DO CRY
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"What the hell is this Faith?" I asked banging the table
"Chard calm down please"
"You bring me a pregnancy result and you expect me to fucking calm down, are you for real?"
"But this is good news we are going to be parents"
"Fuck Faith, I don't want to be a parent how could you allow this to happen?"
"Chard this is not my fault okay, we have been sex and now I am pregnant deal with this"
"So you planned this? So you could trap me?"
"Trap you? Unbelievable did I force you to sleep with me?"
"You planned all this can't you see this relationship has been nothing but a sham?"
"Chard I love you but I won't stand here and let you insult me okay"
"Please leave, I need time to process this"
"You are kicking me out?"
"Just leave Faith" I yelled
She grabbed the paper off my hand and walked out of my office with tears in her eyes. I was confused how could Faith get so careless as to allow herself get pregnant.
I remembered that one night that we didn't and she promised to get pills but nop she didn't, she must have planned all this? I couldn't concentrate after receiving the pregnancy news so I left the office in a rush I didn't something to relive the stress I was feeling.
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I was by the door eaves dropping on the conversation, so the stupid girl had gone as far as getting pregnant for Chard so he could marry her? I smiled knowing Chard didn't want the pregnancy as well, this could work in my favor. I went back to my desk after Chard threw Faith out. She walked out with tears in her eyes.
"What's wrong babe?" I asked as I stood up to hug her
"I just don't know what to do, I thought Chard would be happy to receive this news but he treated me like trash"
"What news?"
"I am pregnant babe" she said in between sobs
"Oh my, this is big news but worry not love, he will come around, men are just like that" I said patting her back
"Let me not keep you from work"
"I will come and see you after work, love please be strong and take good care of our little one" I said touching her belly
"Aright babe, I will be waiting" she walked out to the elevator I got back to work feeling so happy because now I could my plan into action. Minutes after Faith drove off Chard also walked out of the office looking disturbed, he locked his office gave me the keys and walked out.
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"What do I do with a baby? Where do I even begin from" Yes I love babies, I love my sister's child but having my own wasn't part of my plan. I drove in circles till I received mum's call, I didn't want to answer because I wasn't in my right mind but she persisted so I had no option than to pick up.
"Mummy"
"Don't mummy me Chard where are you?"
"At the office"
"Okay drop whatever you are doing and drive here right now"
"But mummy
She didn't even allow me finish my sentence "Chard if you know what's good for, you will come here in the next thirty minutes" she said and hung up
I drove to mum's house knowing very well what she wanted to talk about, it was obvious Faith had called and told her about the pregnancy.
I got to mum's house about 45 minutes later I walked into the house and found her soothing Faith who was crying hysterically.
"Look what you have done to this poor girl" she said the minute she saw me enter
"But mummy this is between me and her"
"Hell no Chard, you impregnate her and have the decency to refuse the pregnancy, I didn't raise you this way"
"Mummy I didn't refuse I just needed more time to think"
"Think about what? You knew exactly what you were doing when you slept with her and now you will take responsibility for your actions"
"I hear you"
"Better, now apologize to this young lady here"
"I am sorry for speaking to you in that manner Faith I didn't know what entered me"
"Its fine baby" she replied wiping the tears off her eyes.
"So now we have to plan the wedding, at least get married before the baby is born"
"Can't we wait for the baby to born?"
"No Chard I want my grandchild to be born in a stable home, we need to do this the right way"
"Whatever you say mum"
"I am so happy about this, you don't know how happy you have made me, let me call your sisters and tell them about this news"
I didn't have the guts to say no to mum, all my life she was the only woman I could ever do anything for, when it came to mum I had to put my feelings aside, she always came first so even if I was still feeling distressed about the pregnancy I guess I had to do the right thing, even if I didn't love Faith, I had to do it for my child.
I spent the day at mum's house and only left in the evening after ensuring that Faith had calm down. When I left mum's house I drove to one of the clubs near my house to have one or two bottles just to get my mind of things.
I got there and sat by the corner before one slim beautiful girl came to join me, I didn't mind so we sat and started drinking together, after a while I told her I wanted to go and she said she didn't mind going with me so I paid my bill and instead of driving her to my house we drove off to hers, I didn't want her knowing my house because I didn't want her clinging to me or following me around like Nora did.
We got to her house and had sex, after that I gave her some money and drove off, I didn't even bother to get her name because I knew I would never meet her again.
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It's been two months since Faith told me about the pregnancy and just to make things right I had proposed to her a month ago at mum's birthday party, my sisters weren't too happy about my decision but I had to man up and take responsibility over my actions. I didn't feel anything for Faith but for the sake of my child I had decided to just try and work out things with her. We were set to wed in the next five months so she was all over the place planning the wedding.
I might not have wanted the child in the beginning but I was really looking forward to holding him or her, I wasn't going to punish my child over our own mistakes and I vowed not be an absent father like my father was.
Growing up, my father provided us with almost everything that we needed, financially we never lacked anything, he would spoil us rotten with money, take us to the best schools and so forth but he was just never there. My sisters and I yearned for love and attention from him but he just didn't care to give it to us, he was always too busy doing God knows what.
I respect mum because she is one of the strongest women I have ever known despite my father's absence she managed to fill our house with love and warmth, until now I still wonder where my father disappears too because most times no one gets to see him even for a week and mum stays put waiting for him to come back each time he goes.
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I had patiently been waiting for the right time to get my revenge on Faith, her pregnancy and upcoming marriage to Chard was making her grow wings and I needed to act before things went too far because Chard was beginning to treat her better.
"Boi how are things with Chard now?" I asked as I sipped on some juice one afternoon when I visited her
"Mmmmmmm my friend Chard is in his own world, he doesn't care for me at all he cares about the baby though"
"Men are just like that ka, I am sure he will come around when the baby is born"
"I hope so but the good part is that I have his mother's support and Chard always listens to her so no matter how much he can hate me we will get married"
"And his sisters?"
"Ah those are silly I tell you but I don't even care whether they like me or not, it's not like I am getting married to them"
"I haven't met his other sister personally but I have met his twin and I know she is one silly bitch, she has too much attitude"
"I tell you it's not things she thinks she is Miss world"
"And how are the preparations going?"
"Just fine, planning a wedding in five months is tricky but I am glad mum hired me a wedding planner"
"I can only imagine"
"I wanted to ask you something Nora"
"Go ahead, you now you can ask me anything"
"Can you be my maid of honor I don't have many friends here in Zambia"
"Awwww really? Of course I will be, I can't wait" I faked a smile
I went home feeling so annoyed what guts did Faith have to ask me to be her maid of honor, did she think I would stand by her as I watched the love of my life marry her?
When I got home I fried myself some chips as I brainstormed on ways I could eliminate the baby she was carrying, I had to do it in a way that would leave no traces to me.
I thought so hard till an idea came to mind "Why didn't I think of this earlier" I chuckled as I got my phone to dial Jacob's number, I told him what I was planning to do and he advised me accordingly and with the way he explained I knew it would never backfire on me.
"Okay ba Jacob can you manage to find it by tomorrow?" I asked after he finished explaining
"Yes I have connections I will bring it by the end of the day tomorrow"
"I really appreciate I will reward you handsomely for this"
"You don't have to"
"I know but I will, you don't know how much this will help me"
"Okay let me get to work then"
After I finished eating and I went to bed happy knowing I would manage to separate the love beds in the next 48 hours.
"By the time I am done with you, you won't know what hit you, you will regret ever messing with me" I said as I stared at a photo of Faith in my phone. We had gotten a lot of us photos together over the months, she didn't have friends no wonder she held on so tight to me, if only she knew what I had planned for her.
I dozed off amidst my thoughts, I woke up very early in the morning and took a short bath, it was Sunday and I wanted to spend some time with Nicole. As I was getting dressed I got a call from Jacob and I hoped he would give me some good news.
"I managed to make a few calls last night and I will be picking it up in a few hours time, should I bring it home?"
"Thanks Jacob I will pick it up later, will call you when I am free"
"I am not just lucky" I asked myself in the mirror, "time to get the little brat out of the way" I drove to Nicole's house playing loud music, I was that happy.
