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After kissing for a while, I slowly withdrew.
"Take me back" I said clearing my throat
He didn't argue but just silently walked behind me to his car, when we both got in he started driving, this time around slowly. The drive back was awkwardly quiet, I didn't have the strength to utter any word I was disappointed in myself for allowing him to kiss me. When we got back to my work place, I got out of the car without saying anything to Chard.
"Nicole" he called out as he ran after me
"Chard stay away, I never want to set my eyes on you never okay"
"I know you felt what I felt during that kiss, tell me you didn't feel anything and I will never bother you"
I looked deeply in his eyes and for a minute I was getting lost but I had to do what had to be done.
"Chard, that kiss meant nothing, I felt absolutely nothing it was a mistake that I will never want to repeat" I said getting into my car
"And one last thing" I called out before driving out
"Yes"
"Working on your kissing skills your kissing is pathetic" I said and drove out leaving him standing with confusion written all over his face.
I was feeling so much guilty how I was I even going to face Carlos, Carlos is the only man I have ever kissed in the last three years, I vowed to be committed to him for eternity and now I had broken that vow, the bad part is I enjoyed the kiss and I felt no regrets about it even if it was so wrong.
When I got into the house, I found the lights on indicating that Carlos was back already. I got out of the car and walked into the house found Carlos watching wrestling.
"Hey" I said
"Hey" Sorry I didn't reply to your text my phone was off just put it on the charger
"Oh okay" I said avoiding eye contact with him, I rushed to the bedroom and changed into a vest and a bum short so I could get our supper ready.
"You don't look fine what's wrong" Carlos asked as I searched for my slippers under the bed
"Nothing I am just tired"
"Your text said you had something important to talk about, is it about last night?"
"No, let's talk after supper I am hungry" I said trying to walk out but he wouldn't let me.
"I am sorry about last night Nicole I love you so much just that I get carried away sometimes"
"Its fine Carlos I understand"
"You do?"
"Yes" I replied nodding my head
He started stroking my face and then tried to kiss me but I pulled away.
"What now?"
"Nothing" let me get our food ready
"No Nicole, something is definitely up, let's forget about the food and talk now"
"You know you can tell me just anything right?" he asked directing me to the bed, I sat on the bed and he pulled a stool so we could face each other.
"I, uhm, ah"
"Nicole, what is it?"
"There is this man who has been pestering me for a while"
"What man, go on"
I stood up and looked the other way "I met him at the conference I had the previous week, so he started following me around, he came here once and I didn't know how to tell you about it because I wanted to deal with him myself"
"So this man, does he know you have someone and how did he know this place?"
"I tried telling him but he wouldn't listen and I think he had me followed"
"Give me his name, his address everything you know about him"
"Carlos, what will you do?"
"Demit Nicole, just do as I say"
"He won't bother me anymore, I told him I would get a restraining order" I lied
"Did anything happen between you guys?"
"No Carlos, why would I tell you if something happened?" I sad avoiding eye contact
"Are you sure?"
"Yes" I nodded my head
"If he gets close to you again, let me know he won't leave to tell the tale" he said hugging me.
"You are not mad?"
"I am mad, not at you but at him, thank you for being honest with me about this" he said kissing my forehead
I thought Carlos would get very mad but he was relaxed, I thanked my stars for this lucky day because under different circumstances he would have gone crazy.
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I was home sipping on some wine after a tiresome day, Chard didn't stay at the office as usual, I had to stand in for him at his meetings, he was slacking at his work and I had to call his mother to let her know so she could intervene.
My mind was deep in thoughts as I drank my wine, what didn't I have that other women had? Why was it so hard for Chard to love me even just a little bit? To him I was only good enough for sex. Despite this I was determined to make him fall in love with me or else I would never allow him to be happy with anyone else. My phone rang disturbing me from my thoughts, it was Ba Jacob, I quickly picked up knowing he always calls me with good news.
"Ba Jaco" I answered
"Nora baby"
"Atishani bakamba"
"So so, I know the two weeks isn't over but I thought what I found out today about lover boy could interest you"
"Oh what have you found?"
"I would rather you see for yourself, uliku n'ganda?"
"Ehe, ndifye bond, if you think I need to see whatever you have found then come over"
"Okay, let me start off, ndeisa nomu guys, akabwali atishani?"
"Lekeni ndjipike, I was feeling lazy"
"Ok sharp sharp"
After the call my mood lightened up a bit, I couldn't wait to see what he had on Chard I smiled as I stood up to go to the kitchen to prepare Nshima for Jacob. I was so excited at the thought of spilling some blood of some bitch.
