MEN DO CRY
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I was anxiously waiting to see Nicole again I couldn't think straight, my mind and body was craving to see her and I drove at high speed. When I got to there I called and told her I was outside she told me to enter because she was getting dressed. I opened the gate and walked to her door which was slightly opened.
"Make yourself comfortable" she screamed from the other room
I looked around and admired her house, it was stylish and elegant I made myself comfortable on one of the couches as I pressed on my phone. She walked out a few minutes later and I couldn't believe it was actually her, she looked more beautiful than the previous days I had seen her
She wore a long purple strapless dress that dropped past her toes slightly drifting from her legs, it molded her torso wonderfully, complimenting her curves and her curly weave fell on her shoulders, on her neck was a silver necklace complimented by little silver studs on her ears.
"Are you gonna stare at me all night?" she said breaking the silence that had taken over
"You look amazing" I managed to say
"You don't look bad either"
"Let's get going"
I tried holding her hand as we walked to the car but she pulled away, she had this serious face on and that scared me a bit.
"Who would believe that me Chard would be intimidated by a woman" I thought as I opened her car door, something I had never done for any woman.
We drove in silence till we got to Lafe Hotel, I helped her out of the car and we got in looking great together, I couldn't stop admiring her, she was exactly what I needed in my life.
As soon as we got in the waitress got our order,
"What's actually your full name?" she asked when we had started eating
"Chard Kapambwe"
She almost choked on her food.
"Are you okay?"
"Chard Kapambwe oh my God" she exclaimed
"What? I asked confused
"You are Chard Kapambwe as in Wood Media Consultancy Manager?" she asked
"Yes I nodded"
"Oh God, I can't" she said standing up
"What?"
"I am sorry Chard let's pretend this dinner never happened"
"But why?" I asked confused
"I actually came here to tell you to back off from me because my husband is a very temperamental man and I wouldn't want to have your blood in my hands. Please stay away from me" she said as she grabbed her purse and walked out
"Nicole wait"
"Mr. K, its Miss Kabuswe to you, this whole thing is a mistake that is never happening again, let's pretend we never met"
I quickly paid the bill and rushed out, I tried reasoning with her but she just wouldn't listen to anything I had to say.
"Nicole okay let me take you home"
"No Chard" she said getting into a taxi. I hopelessly watched it drive away.
I drove back home feeling very annoyed, how could she just walk out on me in public like that, what sort of woman was she. When I reached home I got in and immediately started getting drank, I couldn't understand what I was feeling but I wanted it to vanish, I wanted to go back to being me and not this thing I had become following a lady around as if she was the only one in the world.
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"Chard Kapambwe, oh God how could I have not remembered his face?" I thought as I prepared myself for bed, I have never imagined myself being found in the same place with Chard, I wonder what Nora would think if she heard her Mr. Perfect man was pestering me.
I picked up my phone and dialed Nora's line so I could hear what she would have to say about this development, I really hoped this could finally open her eyes to forgetting about her obsession with him because it was getting out of hand.
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I woke up the next day feeling exhausted, I had a terrible hangover, my head was spinning but I had to prepare myself for work, I had spent my evening drinking because I was hurt at the fact that Chard had been giving me a cold shoulder, I couldn't take it anymore I had to do something about it, I had to find out who was taking him away from me, I had a strong feeling there was a new woman in his life.
I had been ignoring Faith lately because of her tantrums but she had told me the other day she would be leaving for South Africa and I was really hoping she would go so she could completely be out of our lives.
I checked my phone and found calls from Nicole and I promised to call her later. I drank some red bull and rushed off. I wore a very short dress because I wanted to entice Chard it showed a lot of cleavage and I knew he would enjoy the view. When I got to the office all eyes were on me but I just ignored everyone and rushed to the office. I was lucky Chard wasn't in because he hated late coming. I opened his office so the cleaner could sweep as I settled down.
I waited and waited for Chard to walk in but no avail, it was now almost lunch time and I hadn't heard anything from him, his phone was off and no one seemed to know where he was. I was getting worried because it was unlike him to miss work without letting anyone know about his way about.
After my last meeting for the day, I drove straight to Chard's house. I parked outside and walked in because the gate was open.
"Mwasebenza bwanji ba jimmy?" I greeted his garden boy who was about to knock off
"Bwino bwanji"
"Balimo?" I asked
"Balimo ehe but sibamachokeko panja lelo mwe"
I walked to the house calling his name but he wasn't responding, I opened his bedroom and almost puked at the bad stench that filled the room. There were wine bottles all over and Chard was passed out, he must have spent the whole day drinking.
"My God Chard what is this?" I asked as I opened his windows. I removed my shoes and picked up all the bottles before helping him to the bathroom. Taking him to the bathroom was a struggle but I eventually managed to pull him in and opened the shower on him.
He opened his eyes after he felt the cold water on his body. He didn't say anything to me but just let the water pour all over his body, he looked sorrowful like someone had hurt him. I let him take his bath as I cleaned up the house. When I was done I started cooking him some food, I cooked Nshima with roasted Chicken.
I walked up to his room and found him staring at his phone.
"Hey supper is ready"
"I don't feel like eating" he responded
"Chard what is wrong?"
"Nothing Nora just let me be"
"You have been drinking almost the whole day, you need something to eat"
"I don't want to eat Nora"
"Let me help you" I said moving closer to the bed
"Fuck Nora, not everything can be solved through sex, leave me alone you are so annoying" he yelled
"I was just trying to help"
"I don't want your help, I don't want anyone's help okay"
"Chard please" I pleaded
"Leave Nora" he yelled
"You can't be serious"
"I am dead serious, leave"
I bite my tongue trying to hold back the tears that threatened to escape my eyes as I picked up my bag and shoes. I walked out of his house feeling hopeless and when I got into my car I couldn't hold back the tears, I felt them slide down my cheeks rolling off my chin. I drove to Nicole's place hysterically crying I didn't know love could hurt this badly.
********************************************** I was preparing supper for myself when I heard a car hooting at the gate, I was hesitant to open it but when the person got persistent, I walked out and peeped only to find Nora's car. I pushed the door open and she drove in.
When she got out she couldn't hold back her tears, they fell one after another flooding her eyes.
"Babe what's wrong?" I asked feeling scared
"Babe you are scaring me" I said as I hugged her tightly, I let her cry on my shoulder for a good five minutes till I smelt something burning.
"Gosh my food" I said as I let go of her and rushed inside to switch off the stove.
I found her sitting in the living room facing down, so I sat next to her and waited for an explanation but she didn't say anything.
"What happened?" I managed to ask after sometime
"It's Chard" she said and my heart skipped fast at the mention of his name.
"What about him?"
"His behavior is bad babe, we had been getting along after his baby mama aborted the child and suddenly he has changed"
"That's sad, maybe there is another woman?" I asked feeling guilty
"I suspect so and I feel this time around he really loves the woman, I have never seen him get all worked up like that"
"Babe, let go of Chard, he is bad for you ever since you knew him you keep getting hurt"
"I love him Nicole, I just can't let him go, I have done so much for him to just let go"
"Nora this is an obsession, this not love"
"Obsession or not I want Chard to myself and I won't rest till he is mine and if I can't have him no one will"
"Nora that's dangerous, please get over him, he doesn't want you can't you see you are losing yourself in the process"
"No Nora, I swear I will find out who this woman is and when I do, she will just have to back down" she said
I managed to calm Nora down and we had supper together, she spent the night at my place and I kept feeling guilty for not telling her about what transpired with Chard, I was scared she would take it the wrong way knowing how hot her temper could get so I decided to keep quiet about the whole thing since I was not going to see Chard again.
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