MEN DO CRY
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I still couldn't believe that we had lost our baby, I did care deeply for him even when I hadn't set my eyes on him, I always dreamt of having a little boy but now that chance was snatched away, Faith had killed the one thing that could have made me truly whole, I was willing to marry her and give her a stable home for the sake of the baby but now there was nothing more left to do with each other, I needed to move on to something else. She had tried calling me a number of times but I completely ignored her, nothing she would say would justify her actions.
I walked into the office on Monday still frustrated about the events of the previous week because I felt guilt about what Faith had done, maybe I didn't give her enough support or maybe I gave her mixed signals about wanting the baby so she resorted to eliminating him. I didn't feel like seeing anyone or having a meetings but I had to attend to one or two things at the office.
"Morning Chard" Nora greeted as I walked in
"Hey morning" I said as I walked into my office and she stood up and followed me.
"You don't look well" she said
"I am fine Nora, anything come up for me today?"
"Oh yes, Mr. Chalo from JZM Marketing called to remind you of the conference that will take place next week"
"Oh how long is that one going to last?"
"Just three days, from Monday through Wednesday"
"Okay please put that one on my schedule for next week, as I will be attending the conference you will be in charge of the office"
"Okay"
"Anything else?" I asked when I saw she was still standing
"Let me help you Chard?"
"With what?" I asked confused
"I know you are hurting over the loss of the baby, you just can't show it but I can feel your pain"
"Thank you Nora but I have my ways of dealing with this"
"Don't push me away please" Chard she said moving closer to me
I stood up and faced her then I started I playing with her hair as I inhaled her scent, she smelt heavenly, it had been a week since I had last had sex and I was craving some. So I dug my tongue into her mouth and kissed her passionately.
"I know this is wrong Nora, but I badly want you" I whispered in between kisses
"Then have me" she whispered back
I run my fingers just down the long place where the insides if her thighs touch and all the way to her knees, she let out a soft moan, then I yanked off her clothes and laid her on my office table as I roughly had sex with her. I buried myself deep in her and when I was done, I just lay still thinking of what I had just gotten myself into.
"Get dressed" I told her after a few minutes, she got dressed and walked out of the office smiling.
The week went by so fast Nora and I continued having sex, in the office at home and anywhere else, we couldn't get our hands off each other but I made it clear it was just sex so she wouldn't get her hopes high about the whole thing, I was so careful so use protection with her all the time, I didn't want any drama.
The next Monday, I didn't go to the office because I was attending a conference at Pamodzi Hotel so I woke up very early and prepared myself then I drove there because the meeting was scheduled to start at 08:00. The aim of the meeting was to come up with one project that we could all work on together with the view of empowering the girl child.
I got to the venue early and mingled with quite a few people before the meeting proceeded. As the meeting began I noticed one seat was empty meaning one more person was still coming.
"Shall we get started with introductions and the companies we are representing since majority is of us are here.
The meeting was already underway when someone abruptly entered.
"Sorry I am late" she said breathing heavily before sitting on the empty seat.
She was wearing loose black pants with a white blouse and heels, her weave flawed in waves to adorn her glowing skin, her eyes were framed by short lashes she had a straight nose and full lips, I couldn't stop staring at her as she unpacked her laptop and placed it on the table alongside her notebook and pen.
After people were done making presentations she raised up her hand"
"Yes Miss......"
"Miss Kabuswe" she quickly responded
"You can go ahead with your contribution" the moderator told her
"Pardon me for being late, but can I also be given a chance to present what I had prepared before we start with the discussion?"
The moderator shook his head before allowing her to speak, she got her laptop and connected it to the projector and as she was trying to reach for her notebook on the table she almost tripped over the cable, typical of women to be clumsy, she was the only lady so I doubted if she would have anything worth working on to say.
"My apologies once more for coming late, I am
Before she could finish introducing herself, her phone started ringing. "Oh shit" she cursed causing everyone to stare at her.
She rushed back to her seat and got her bag so she could look for her phone, all eyes were on her as she searched and finally she pulled it out and smiled."I need to take this, I won't be long" she said hurrying out before anyone could respond to her , under normal circumstances I would have gotten mad but I found her amusing so I smiled to myself when I saw how impatient everyone in the room was.
"Oh gosh women" The moderator commented and everyone laughed.
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"Sorry for that" she said as she got back
"Can you stop apologizing and get to business" someone told her
"Oh yes, once again allow me to apologize for" and everyone chuckled before she could go on.
"I am Nicole Kabuswe Public Relations Manager for Airtel Zambia"
I couldn't concentrate on anything she was saying, her voice captivated my mind I kept imagining what it would be like to have her wrapped in my arms, kissing her softly while exploring her body.
I was so lost in thought I didn't notice everyone was up standing clapping, so I also stood up and did my share of clapping for what I didn't know.
"Tremendous job Miss Kabuswe that was awesome and well researched, who would have known you could have presented something as amazing as this" The moderator said
"Thank you so much" she responded before sitting down, after the presentations finished we walked outside for a tea break, I couldn't get Nicole off my mind I just wanted to talk to her so when I saw her standing by the corner sipping her coffee, I walked over to her.
"Hey"
"Hey" she responded
"Great presentation you made out there"
"Thanks" she answered paying more attention to her coffee than me
"I can see you are not only beautiful but brainy as well"
"Oh" she faked a smile
"Why is a pretty woman like you single?"I asked when I noticed she had neither an engagement nor marriage ring on her finger
"Oh what makes you think I am single?"
"Well you have no ring indicating that you are taken"
"Not all you see is as it is, what if my husband can't afford a ring or perhaps I lost it" she said in an angry tone
"If you were mine, I wouldn't allow you move the streets without a ring on"
She looked at me from head to toe as if examining me "Well thank God I am not your s" she clicked her tongue and went back to the board room.
I felt like someone had hit me so hard in the head, did she just walk out on me, Chard Kapambwe" Gosh the woman had guts bet she didn't know who I was. We went back in to discuss the presentations later and I kept stealing short glances at her but she paid no attention to me.
It was hard deciding one idea because all of them seemed good but the everyone finally settled for the one Miss Kabuswe had made, her presentation focused on improving Literacy levels among the girl child to make them more assertive, the project would focus on building schools for girls in two rural communities and enrolling as many girls as possible, it would also come with a school feeding program so as to raise interest in education. The project would also include providing the school necessities for the children to encourage them to take and extra interest in school thereby reducing early marriage rates and pregnancies.
We all clapped hands for her and continued brainstorming on how we would work around the winning project in the next two years. We had lunch in between the continued, I still couldn't keep my mind of Nicole , when we got done at around 18 we all said our goodbyes, took a few photos for our company yearly magazine then promised to meet the next day to talk more on the budget and other things.
I watched Miss Kabuswe walk outside and I quickly packed my suitcase and followed her, we got in the same elevator but didn't say a word to each other as she was busy pressing her phone. When the elevator opened she rushed out quickly as if running away from someone. It was a bit chilly and dark outside. She got to her car and placed her bags at the back seat before opening her driver's seat.
"Hey wait" I called out
"What do you want?" she asked when I got closer
"Can we talk, at least get to know each other over dinner"
"Mr. K I have no time for such nonsense, I know my way around town if I wanted dinner I know where to find it?"
"Don't be like this Nicole"
"Miss Kabuswe to you" Excuse me, she said trying to get into her car
I pulled her back to me and just kissed her, I don't know what I was thinking but I just felt an urge to taste her lips, she didn't respond to the kiss but pulled away and gave me one hot slap.
"That will teach you to respect women, stupid man" she said and got into her car. I watched her drive out while holding the side of the cheek she had slapped. I couldn't believe she had just slapped me. I went back to my car and drove off, when I got home I found Nora waiting for me.
"What are you doing here?" I asked irritated
"You said I could come over remember"
"Oh come in"
We got into the house and she started preparing supper, I wasn't in the mood to eat so I let her eat on her own, I took a shower and sat down to watch some soccer, then Nora walked over to me wearing barely nothing, she tried to touch me but I pushed her off me. All I could think of was Nicole.
"What?" she asked angrily
"I am not in the mood, put some clothes on"
"Chard, are you being for real?"
"Put some clothes on and let me drive you home"
"You must be serious"
"No I am not"
"Gosh Chard you are so annoying, I am not going anywhere, even If i wanted to go home I can always drive myself" she said heeding to the bedroom
"Suit yourself" I shouted..
