MEN DO CRY
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"Mmmmmmmbabe you look happy, has Chard finally proposed?" Nicole asked
"He hasn't but soon he will"
"Nora you like dreaming eh, how can he propose when he is about to marry another ai?"
"Just wait and see he will be all mine soon"
"Awe boi naiwe find yourself another man, they are so many eligible bachelors who would love to date you"
"That's just it Nicole I want no one else, I just want Chard, have you taken a close look at Chard even? Do you see the potential he posses?"
"You know I have no time to master faces in my head even if I have seen him twice I would still not recognize him in the streets"
"Oh Chard is hunk, you haven't just paid attention to him, I want him all to myself If I can't have him no one will"
"Eh don't end up killing people because of a dick ka"
"Did you just say the d word out loud, what happened to the Nicole I know?"
"I am still me eh" she laughed
"So tell me has Carlos already tapped on the honey pot?"
"Stop it Nora"
"I am your friend it's my duty to know weh"
"No he hasn't I told you I am waiting till our wedding night"
"Let me not say much but you need to get laid iwe loosen up a bit"
"I will when the time gets right"
"I wonder why Carlos hasn't left you already"
"Carlos loves me we will tie the knot soon"
"Eh let me not say much, least I am accused of being jealous"
I spent the day with Nicole it's always fun bonding with her, among all the friends I have had Nicole was the best I loved the fact that she was truthful and honest and I knew no matter what she would never turn her back on me, she had stood by me in some of my darkest moments, yes I do have some dark moments as well but that's a story for another day.
I left Nicole's house in the evening and drove to Melsim Lodge that's where I was meeting up with Jacob, when I reached I called him and he said he would meet me outside. Minutes later he walked outside and got in my car.
"So there about five pills in here and you can only use one because they are deadly and likely to damage the womb and please dispose them off well once you are done using them"
"Thank you so much ba Jacob, awe namubomba mwe" I said as I handed him an envelope with money
One week later, I hadn't yet found a perfect opportunity to work on my plan so I patiently waited for it to present itself and it sure did one Saturday afternoon when Nora invited me for one of her old friend's kitchen party and as I dressed up I thought of the many ways I was going to make her take the pills. I quickly got dressed and she picked me up at exactly 14:00. She was telling me all about the baby and how happy Chard was cheerfully counting down to when they would find out the sex of the baby.
"You see I told you he would come around" I smiled touching her belly imagining how happy it would make me to carry Chard's child.
"You did say my friend I can't explain how happy I am to know that he loves the baby and I am hopping it's a little boy, a cute little handsome boy like Chard"
"I can't wait to see him too"
When we got to the venue we quickly found a spot and sat as some ladies served us some drinks and bottled water by the time the event started the venue was packed we couldn't even clearly see what was happening in front of us, there was too much noise as everyone was struggling to get to the front so they could see the bride, I excused myself from where we sat, I told Faith I needed to use the loo she just nodded her head as I stood up and made my way to where the drinks where being served.
"Excuse me can I please have another drink, I spilled mine by accident" I pleaded
The ladies wanted to refuse but they gave me eventually, I took it and walked a bit to the crowd then threw it in my bag and proceeded to the loo, when I got there I opened it and put three pills then I shook and neatly closed it as though it hadn't been opened. According to what I found out, the pill wasn't bitter, it dissolved so well it drinks making the person drinking not to notice it.
When I got to our table almost everyone had rushed to the front to take videos, I smiled because that meant I would swap the drinks without anyone noticing. Faith hadn't yet touched her drink so I got the one on the table and replaced it with the one in my bag.
A few minutes' later people were back in their sits and the event was progressing just fine.
"This place has too many people, I don't want my event to be this packed" Faith said as she sipped on her drink
"Yes an event can't be enjoyed if it has a lot of people" I watched her gulp half of the drink as I engaged her in conversations, it would take a few hours before the medicine could actually do its job and at that time I would be home in my bed awaiting news of her miscarriage.
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After the kitchen party finished I drove Nora home before going to my place, I didn't like how packed the place was if Joan wasn't an old friend I wouldn't have stayed till the end, I was feeling a little tired the pregnancy wasn't doing me any justice I knew I would sleep the moment got home.
I got home and undressed, it was warm and I just wanted to be in my undies, so I lay on my bed and massaged my belly, it was something I had gotten used to doing before sleeping. I was happy at how things were moving in my life I was pregnant for the man I loved and I would be his wife in the next five months. I genuinely loved Chard and I was willing to do anything to have him by my side.
I slept after a while and was only awoken by sharp pains in my abdomen, the pain was so intense I couldn't even stand from the bed, I held on to my tummy as I tried to reach for my phone which was on the table across the bed.
"Awwwww" I screamed out as the pain escalated. As I tried to roll down I realized I was also bleeding, I had to save my baby so I tried hard to roll over till I fell down then I started crawling to the table, after struggling I managed to get to the table and I got my phone, I dialed Chard's number but he didn't pick up so I called mum instead.
"Mummy, I am dying please rush up here"
"Faith what's happening?"
I couldn't respond because it was getting more painful by the minute, I just dropped the phone in hope mum would arrive in time to save my baby.
"Hold on little baby please hold on" I whispered through the pain, I had grown to love my baby I couldn't afford to lose him.
I had lost so much blood and I was gasping for air, few minutes later my vision became blurry and I don't remember what happened next.
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I was having some drinks with the guys when my phone rang, it was Faith calling, "Why would she be calling at this time of the night" I thought as I ignored the call, then minutes later my phone vibrated in my pocket, it was a text message this time, I was hesitant about opening it but eventually I did.
"Please drive over to Mum's hospital now, your wife to be is in a critical condition" I got scared because I didn't want to lose the baby so I quickly sobered up, called mum and Maya then drove to the hospital.
When I got to the hospital I found her mum pacing up and down at the reception.
"What happened?" I asked
"She just called me saying she was dying, by the time I got to her house I found her in a pool of blood unconscious"
"Has the doctor said anything yet?"
"No, they are attending to her right now"
We patiently waited for the Doctor, mum and Maya walked in later, I could see mum was worried because she had really been looking forward to carrying this baby.
When we saw the doctor coming out we all hurried to him.
"Doctor how is she?" Her mum asked
"Yes Doctor and the baby?" I asked
He shook his head before replying. "I am sorry she lost the baby"
"She what?" I asked shocked
"She lost the baby" he said again
"How is my daughter doing?" he mother asked as tears feel of her eyes
"Your daughter is in a critical condition, from the test conducted she tried aborting the baby, she consumed some dangerous abortion pills in excess"
"She what?" I yelled
"Calm down Chard" mum said
"Calm down mummy? That girl killed my child"
"It can't be, my daughter loved that child there has to be a mistake somewhere"
"I am sorry that's how it is" The Doctor said
I felt so much pain, I might not have loved Faith but I loved the child that was growing inside of her, I had so many plans for him, how could she have been so heartless as to kill her own child? I walked out of the hospital feeling disturbed.
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I woke up later in a hospital bed, I felt so weak and there was a drip of blood connected to my hand, I held my tummy but felt no life in it, just then I realized I had lost my baby, the pain I felt was unimaginable why didn't God let my baby live, was I being punished for deliberately getting pregnant? I cried
I started weeping at the thought of never having to see my baby, mum walked in followed by Mrs. Kapambwe when I screamed.
"Calm down Faith" mum said
"I can't mummy where is my baby?"
"I am sorry your baby didn't make it"
'How mummy, what happened?"
"Take it easy please"
"No mummy, no" I cried
Mum soothed me till I calmed down, I was expecting to see Chard walk through the door because I needed him by my side but he didn't enter. The doctor came in shortly and checked on me, then he said they needed to do a D & C to clean my tummy then do more tests to ascertain the damaged I had done to my womb, I didn't understand what he meant by saying "ascertain the done to my womb"
"Mum what was the doctor talking about?" just before she could reply Chard barged in
"I need to talk to her" He said and mum and his mother walked out
"Chard, we lost our baby?" I cried hoping he would hug me or tell me it was going to be alright
"Isn't that what you wanted? Cut the crap and stop the crocodile tears"
"What do you mean Chard?"
"Don't play damn with me, you killed that baby to punish me, they found abortion pills in your system"
"No I didn't Chard I would never do that, I loved this baby"
"You know what? You disgust me, I just came here to search for answers but right now nothing you say will justify your evil act"
"Chard please you have to believe me"
"So pathetic, just know that the wedding is canceled I never want to see your face" he said walking out
When mum walked in, she confirmed they had truly found the abortion pills in my system, I didn't know how to explain how I took the pills and nothing I said seemed to make sense to Chard but at least mum gave me the benefit of the doubt, she said she said someone might have set me up or I ate food that wasn't supposed to be mine.
That night I cried myself to sleep, I just didn't know how I could have been so carless as to lose the baby, I have felt pain before but nothing compared to the pain I felt at that moment ,my baby was gone, I couldn't believe it, it was too much for me to bare.
I spent one more week in the hospital, after cleaning my tummy the doctor told me my womb had been severely damaged and I would never be able to conceive again. I felt weak I didn't know what to do, how could life get twisted for someone in a split of a second. How was I going to vindicate myself, who would believe I didn't drink the abortion pills when all evidence was pointing towards me, I let the tears of pain stream down my eyes as mum drove us home.
