MEN DO CRY
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One Month later
"After evaluating and analyzing the evidence presented, this court finds Miss Nora Munanga guilty of the following charges: Murder of Miss Maria Maplanga, attempted Murder of Miss Nicole Kabuswe and causing the miscarriage of Miss Faith Kasonde's pregnancy."
"Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm" The people murmured
"Silence in court" The judge said and everyone immediately kept quiet
"With this said I hereby sentence you to death by hanging until pronounced dead, this is my verdict"
"No, no, nooooooooooooooo" Nora screamed
"Court rise"
We all stood up and the judge walked out, I watched Nora break down, she wept hysterically before being taken away. I somehow felt bad for her but as they say for every action you take be sure to face consequences later.
Maya and Chiwila had accompanied me to court that day. Nicole had also walked in during the court session I didn't know she would be attending because she had made it clear she would not come.
She looked as beautiful as usual and she still had that so much effect on me. It had been a month since I had last seen her after she got better she went back to Livingstone with her mum and was now working for the Airtel branch that side.
As soon as the judge was out of sight, Nicole rushed out.
"Go on, go and talk to her" Maya said and I followed her to the car park.
"Nicole" I called out just before she could get into her car
"Hey Chard sorry for rushing out like that I needed some air"
"I understand, do you mind if we talk?"
"What do we need to talk about Chard?"
"I just need a few minutes please"
"Like right now?"
"How about lunch?" I asked
"Fine meet me at Levy later in the afternoon, I will be getting a few things for my sister I can spare some time to talk before I leave"
"Okay thank you very much" I smiled
I went back home and spent some time with my best friend before driving to Levy to meet up with Nicole.
"Hey there" I said when I finally located her
"Hey Chard"
"You look good"
"Thank you" she responded then there was silence for a bit until she cleared her throat.
"Sorry for the silence" I said
"What did you want to talk about?"
"Us" I said softly
"Us?" she asked astonished
"Yes Nicole, nothing has changed about how I feel about you, please give us a chance, I swear I have changed"
"Chard I can't, so much has happened, because of you I almost lost of my life, I want some peace, there is no us, there was never us"
"Please Nicole"
"I am sorry Chard, I can't and I hope this time you can really stay away from me"
"Please don't hold my past against me"
"It's not about that I just don't feel the same way"
"But when we kissed, there was the connection"
"It was just a moment of weakness on my part, I am sorry this can't happen" she said standing up. I held her hand before she walked out she looked at me before pulling her hand off my grip and walked away. At that moment I felt broken, I watched her walk just like that I knew I had lost her forever.
I drove home in tears and when I got there I found Chiwila watching soccer, I bypassed him because I didn't have the strength to talk to him.
"What happened man?" he asked when he followed me to my room
I couldn't answer him, my eyes felt a slight sting and my lips started to quiver, then the tears fell down my face, I threw myself on the bed and griped onto the pillow and began to cry uncontrollably.
"I lost her" I said in between sobs
"Come on dude, you are a man, men don't cry you need to find other ways of dealing with this, it can't be that bad, you will get over it" My best friend Chiwala said
Till that moment I didn't know I would ever cry over a woman, my whole life I had been taught men didn't cry but here I was in my apartment weeping like a little boy. At that point weeping was the only way of dealing with the pain I was feeling.
As Chiwala was trying to reason with me not to cry, I got my phone and dialed mum's number, she picked up instantly.
"Ma" I cried at the end of the line
"Baby don't tell me you are crying please don't, what happened?"
"Ma she left, she left me for good"
"Hush my love, hush please don't cry"
"She left mummy Nicole left me"
"Hush baby hush, it's going to be okay"
As much as I tried to hold back the pain I was feeling I just couldn't, I kept hitting the bed. Tears rolled down my cheeks as my hands clenched into fist balls in a desperate battle against my grief. I cried for the loss of the one woman I ever loved and at that point I realized that indeed men do cry.
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The END
