MEN DO CRY
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"There is no such thing as someone sweeping me off my feet, such things are not for me" I remember telling Maya that several times.
I grew up not believing in love, for me the only ones that genuinely needed my love where my sisters and mum. I used girls like toys and most times it was because they threw themselves at me, they practically undressed themselves in my presence and hence it was a trend to just have sex with them and move on to the next.
I always made my intentions clear with the girls that all I needed was sex till I set my eyes on Nicole, when I saw her I felt something no other woman has ever made me feel, it was something pure and unique hence I made it a point to pursue her till she became mine, I liked the fact that she was both brainy and beautiful. Unlike all the other women she challenged me she didn't throw herself at me but instead showed me that I could be resisted and the more she pulled away from me, the more I got attracted to her.
And now that very woman was hanging between a thread, how would I leave with myself knowing I might have been the reason for her being in that state, maybe her boyfriend did that to her. My thoughts were disturbed by Maya tapping my shoulder.
"We are here" she said, the doctor handed us the gowns, the mask and gloves to wear before entering the ward. The minute I saw her laying in that hospital bed connected to all the tubes and pipes I couldn't hold it together, I bite my tongue trying to hold back the tears that threatened to fall from my eyes and that's when I couldn't hold them back. The tears rolled down my cheeks like rainfall.
"Shhhhhhh" Maya said patting my back
For the first time in my life, I felt broken, I pain like no other, my whole body was shaking for fear of losing the one woman that dared to challenge me, the one woman that made me feel different, I felt weak in my knees so I clasped onto the chair for support to avoid falling.
"It's time up" The doctor said a few minutes later, we left the ICU feeling devastated
"Is there anything that can be done Doctor?" Maya asked
"At this point nothing can be done, pray to God he is the only one that can heal her now, we have done our best we leave the rest to him"
"Pray?" I asked in shock, because I couldn't remember when last I had said a prayer
"Yes pray" He responded before walking out
When we got to the reception we found some police officers that wanted to have a word with us, I was in no state to talk but they insisted so we walk outside so they could ask us a few questions.
"We wanted to get some information about the victim that could lead us to the criminals I hope you will tell us all you know"
"We will try our best to tell you all we know" I replied
"Okay so you said you are somewhat related to the Miss Kabuswe, does she have enemies? Did she argue with anyone?"
"I don't know if she has any enemies but I think she had an argument with her boyfriend"
"Okay can you tell us more?"
I narrated all that happened and the officers thanked us for being cooperative before going their way, they said they would update us on any information about the named boyfriend.
"How will we inform her family?" Maya asked as she drove us home
"Well I don't know anything about her family but her best friend Nora could "I responded
"Nora the clingy girl? How come they are friends?"
"I wonder also but ya maybe we could pass by her place and get information" I suggested
"You know what let's pass Nicole's place if the police are still there we can request for her phone if it fails then we can go ahead and pass by Nora's place, I don't like that Nora girl she is too obsessed with you.
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I spent the whole night drinking then went home in the early hours of the morning I had a terrible hangover so when I got home I took a bath and slept. I woke up later in the afternoon and decided to go to Nicole's house, I was still upset with her for allowing another guy to kiss her but I just had to visit her so we could talk and see the way forward for our relationship, I couldn't back down now after three years of being with her.
When I got to her house I pushed the gate open and was received by two men who were dressed in blue jeans and black T-shirts surveying the place.
"Hello who are you?" one of the asked
"I should be asking you that" I responded
"Well we asked you first"
"Where is Nicole?" I asked heeding into the house
"Hold on" one of the said holding my hand
"I am inspector Kabanda and this is my colleague inspector Zulu, we are guarding this house for the next few hours so we can get some leads to the attempted murder that took place"
"Murder?" I asked shocked
"Yes some criminals broke in and shot Miss Kabuswe on her Chest"
"That's my girlfriend, how is she? What exactly happened?"
"You said you are her boyfriend?"
"Yes" I nodded
"Just the man we have been looking for"
"What do you mean?"
"You are under arrest for the attempted Murder of Miss Kabuswe, you have the right to remain silent anything you say can be used against you in court"
"But there is a misunderstanding somewhere" I tried reasoning with them
"What ever you have to say will be said at the station" one of them said handcuffing my hands
After some time two more police officers came and took me with them, I was so confused to even say anything, first Nicole was shot and I was the major suspect could life get any worse?"
When we got to Central Police station they took me to the interrogation room, they first took my details and started questioning me. The other officer took a tape recorder and placed it on the table.
"Where were you last night?"
"Well I spent the whole night drinking I only went back home in the morning"
"What sort of man drinks the whole night? Is this something you do often?"
"No I was upset hence I needed to cool off"
"About what?"
"Personal stuff"
"Where you perhaps upset that your girlfriend Miss Kabuswe was allegedly seeing another man?"
"Well could be one of the reasons" I answered surprised they knew about the argument
"Can you tell us more about the relationship you share with Miss Kabuswe"
"She is my girlfriend, we have been dating for the past three years and it's normal that I got upset that she cheated"
"So you went as far as attacking the man she was seeing?"
"I was acting out of anger"
"Can we say you got too upset and followed Miss Kabsuwe home and out of anger shot her?"
"No officer I loved Nicole I could never want to harm her"
"You see this is a serious case, if she dies you are likely to be charged with murder, you are the only suspect here"
"But officer this is absurd, why would I kill her?"
"Well because you saw these?" Showing me the photos I had left at Nicole's house when I went to beat up Chard
"I loved Nicole I couldn't have wanted her dead no matter what she did"
"We will leave that to the court to decide, for now we shall lock you up until we find something else if not the case will go to court where you will have to prove you didn't actually do it. Remember you are innocent until proven guilty
I was dumbfounded, how could I get entangled in all this and how was I going to prove my innocence I thought as I handed over my shoes and belts to the police officers ready to be taken to a cell. I was given a chance to call one person so I called my Uncle hoping he would get me out of the mess.
