MEN DO CRY
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I walked into Chard's room feeling so frustrated because of his sour mood, we had been getting along for a while, even though he said it was just sex I knew it was more because I felt the depth of our connection each time we had sex. I wasn't a fool to have just accepted to be having sex with him, I had other plans in mind plus I still had hope he would soon realize how much he needed me in his life then he would have no excuse but to marry me.
I removed my undies and slept on the bed uncovered hoping to arouse when he walked in. I read a magazine and browsed my phone as I waited for him, I must have dozed off waiting for Chard because when I opened my eyes it was morning and he wasn't on his side of the bed.
He walked into the room a few minutes later stretching himself he didn't bother to greet me but just started selecting his clothes for work.
"Where did you sleep?"
"In the spare room why do you ask?"
"No I am just surprised you didn't come to bed"
"Nora you are not my wife huh" he said that walked to the bathroom
I got of his bed and spread it then went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast, when I was done I took a bath too and waited for him to walk out.
"Breakfast is ready" I said the minute he walked out
"I am not hungry eat up fast so I can lock up before we leave"
"You still don't trust me about locking up your place?"
"Nora trust is a big thing it's not given out anyhow"
I felt hurt that Chard was still treating me like a stranger and now when I thought we were heeding in the right direction he was drawing us back to square one. I didn't feel like eating too so I packed something to eat at the office before walking out. We got into our separate cars and immediately drove off without saying a word to each other.
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I drove at high speed I was anxious to see Nicole, I had been up all night thinking about her no woman had ever dominated my thoughts for the whole night, what was it with her?
I got to the board room and this time around she was already sited, I smiled at her but received no response. When she stood up to talk I couldn't help admire her curves. She was wearing a purple pencil skirt with a silk white top accompanied by purple wedges, this time around she had tied her weave behind she wore a bit of make up with purple lipstick.
"Hey Nicole" I called as I rushed behind her when we finished up with the conference that day
"You again?" she said opening her car door
"Yes me, I am sorry about last evening I don't know what got into me"
"Okay I have heard"
"Let me make to up to you over dinner" I insisted
"I might not have a ring on finger but that doesn't mean I am free to mingle with just any Jim and jack that comes my way"
"I am not just any Jim and Jack, I am exception?"
"Good night' she waved at me and drove off
I was left there feeling like trash, I was used to women being at my back and call but this one was playing hard to get and I hated such stupid games.
I drove home feeling defeated and thinking about what Nicole that I couldn't get her off my mind. When I got home I was glad Nora wasn't around because I couldn't deal with her. I took a shower and started drinking some beer my heart kept bumping fast at the thought of Nicole.
"What are you doing to me woman" I smiled as I remembered how she had slapped me, she proved to be a challenge to me, a woman capable of bringing up winning ideas, a woman capable of walking away from me, I had to know more about her.
I got my phone and logged on to face book and tried searching "Nicole Kabuswe" but found nothing matching to her, I got up in frustration and went to sleep. I couldn't sleep I kept tossing and turning.
It was now 03:00 and I was still wide awake staring at my ceiling Nicole was hunting me because even with my eyes closed the only thing I saw was her.
I woke up late the next day because I slept in the morning, I quickly showered and rushed out, there was too much traffic and I ended up getting to the conference late. When I reached discussions were underway so I quietly walked in and sat as I listened to what the others were saying.
At lunch time Nicole grabbed her food and sat by the corner pressing her phone, this time around she was wearing a pink jumpsuit with yellow heels she looked extremely beautiful, I couldn't resist the urge to talk to her.
"May I?" I asked when I walked over to her table
She didn't look up but just nodded her head and continued pressing her phone
"You look good"
"I always do"
"Are you always this rude?"
"To stupid men that feel they can kiss any woman they see, yes"
"But I just want us to be friends"
"I don't mix business with pleasure besides I have enough friends"
"Come on, Nicole"
"Miss Kabuswe"
"Gosh you can be big headed"
"And you can be persistent"
"Allow me to introduce myself to you since you came late and didn't get my full names"
Before she could respond her phone rang.
"Okay ya I am finishing early today so dinner is fine by me"
"Oh okay, I love you too" she said before hanging up
"Boyfriend" I asked feeling annoyed
"Husband" she responded before getting up
I hit the table in frustration causing the people around to stare at me.
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The conference ended on a good note and we were to start working on the project in six months time. We agreed to be meeting from time to time to discuss the project.
This time around Nicole walked out unnoticed when I walked out of the elevator her car was gone too.
"Shit" I cursed
I drove back home and called a friend who was good with investigations and tracking people down, I gave him Nicole's details then sent him one of the group photos we got and he said he would get back to me the following day.
Two days later, Kaiza had managed to track down Nicole he gave me her address and I made it a point to visit her the next day, Nora was on my back during this time because I gave her zero attention, my whole being was over taken by Nicole, I couldn't function properly, I just had to see her.
On Saturday I spent the day at home just relaxing and going through some documents then later in the evening I took a bath and wore a blue ripped jean with a black T-shirt and a black hood.
I drove to her house and when I got there I didn't have the courage to knock at her gate, what if she was truly married? All sorts of thoughts ran through my mind till I finally managed to gather my courage and got out of my car I knocked twice before I heard some footsteps.
"You? How did you find me?" she asked in an angry tone when she found me leaning by her gate.
"I am sorry for coming here unannounced I had to see you" She was wearing a black wrapper and a vest this time around but even that couldn't conceal her beauty.
"You can't be following me around what if my husband sees you?"
"I don't believe you are married"
"Mr. K I am a married woman, I don't want any trouble"
"Then let me talk to your husband"
"Oh I didn't imagine you are this crazy, what do you want from me?"
"Dinner, no strings attached, I just want to show you that I am sorry for what I did the last time"
"Just leave I want nothing to do with you, can't you get it"
"I am not taking no for an answer and if you don't accept I will walk in there and talk to your husband"
"You must be crazy"
"Watch me" I said as I attempted to enter the gate
"Fine dinner it is and after that dinner you should leave me alone, I don't want you getting me in trouble"
"I will pick you up tomorrow at 7" I giggled
"Okay" she responded before closing her gate.
"Who was at the gate?" Carlos asked when I got back in the house
"Oh no one" I replied as I served his food on the table
"No one? I thought I heard you talk to someone"
"What I mean is it's no one important"
"Are you sure?"
"Carlos, who do you think it was huh?"
"An old boyfriend perhaps"
"Let's not start with your jealousy tantrums please"
"If you say so"
I finished serving the food then I called him to the table and dished up for us. We were quietly eating though I barely touched my food because I was feeling upset, who did that man think he was? What if Carlos had opened the gate, what would he have said?
"What's on your mind?" Carlos asked
"Nothing"
"Demit Nicole I am not a fool, you have barely touched your food and your mind seems to be far from here, who is he?"
"Who is who?" I asked surprised
"The guy you are fucking"
"Gosh Carlos must you always think the worst of me?"
"You give me no choice Nicole you have been pulling away from me lately"
"Maybe it's because of your temper Carlos, you need to control it" I said walking out of the table.
Lately my relationship with Carlos had been shaky, he has become temperamental and a little too violent for my liking, I talked to mum about it but she said he would change but I see no change he keeps getting insecure over nothing.
"Maybe he is sexually frustrated" Nora mentioned the other day after I told her about is behavior
"Babe, we have been together for three years and he will soon put a ring on my finger so why get impatient now?"
"Men will always be men Nicole, give him some"
"No I am not giving him some till we tie the knot"
I changed into my pajamas then got into bed, Carlos walked in a few minutes later.
"I am sorry baby" he said but I just kept quiet, I needed him to understand I would never love another as much as I loved him.
"Say something please" he pleaded when I didn't reply
"Carlos, I love you but this behavior is uncalled for, you need to trust me"
"I am sorry it won't happen again" he said
He got on the bed and wrapped his hands around me as we dozed off.
I woke up the next day and started cleaning the house before going to church, Carlos was long gone, Carlos left at 10 because he was traveling to Kitwe for a business meeting and he would be back on Tuesday.
After church I drove to the mall and bought a few things then got back home. I spent the rest of the day sleeping then woke up in the evening to prepare for dinner.
I had never met a man as persistent and irritating as Mr. K, I hadn't really bother to get his full names so I called him Mr. K since everyone called him that.
I had only accepted to this because I needed to put a stop to his madness, he had to understand I had someone I was very much committed to.
