Just Matt ( Matthew Espinosa )

Chapter Sixty Three

Melissa P.O.V

I returned back home to gather all my things since the house had been sold, I walked past Justin's room and then looked back, I walked over to his cot and stroked the little blanket, I looked around his room to see toys, two cupboards, a sliding door that lead towards the side balcony and the bright blue LED candle that was always lit. I bent down next to the power cord and turned it off, I signed then walked back to the cot, I took Justin's blanket and gave it a tight snuggle then walked towards my parents room. The bed was perfectly made as usual, the dressing tables where clean while alarm clocks sat on them gracefully. I took a photo frame that sat on the large dressing table opposite the bed and reminisced over the memory, inside the picture frame was a photograph of my parents and I at the park when I was about thirteen years old, Ash was only a little puppy, we all smiled as we watched her paw smack herself in the nozzle where a fly had landed seconds ago, beside the photograph was another, my parents on their wedding day, they both looked so happy. I took both photos and moved on to my room. I've had so many memories here! I still remember moving in and seeing Matt from my room, the tree was lively and branches poked over my balcony where I'd climb over to meet Matt in the middle of the night and just hang out. Then matts dad cut it down so it was easier for us to see each other, I walked over towards the balcony and saw Matts dad with the chainsaw, he was cutting down not a branch but the entire tree, I guess they really are going to miss me and my family... And the memories... I took a step back as the chainsaw roared to life, I grabbed a few items from my room and stuffed all my clothes in a bag, I gently placed Justin's blanket which held the two photo frames into the bag and closed my eyes. I'm going to miss my old life, I will never forget my family! You will be with me always!

"Melissa are you alright" Matt asked as I sat on his bedroom floor starring at the ceiling,
"I'm fine" I mumbled still concentrated on the area of blue wall, I heard him get up and sit beside me.
"Dakota and Cameron will be here tomorrow..."
"That's nice" I mumbled,
"Mel..."
"What?" I growled turning my gaze towards him,
"Nothing nothing I'm sorry" he raised his hands as he defended himself,
"I'm sorry Matt" I groaned getting up from the floor, I walked over and sat down beside him on his bed,
"These past couple of days have been hard on me... I'm so grateful that you're here to help me and be with me but I can't put you through this, you've been through so much and you have tours and... and meet and greets and you're just an amazing person that I love so much but... What I'm trying to say is that... I don't want to hold you down, I want to see you succeed, I want to see you be with your fans and smile and laugh",
"But I smile and laugh with you",
"But your fans need you and you need the-"
"You... I need you", he frowned and took my hand,
"Matt don't do this.. Please all I've done is made things hard for you! Look what's happened in the last nine months! We've been kidnapped! Not only that but we've been hostages and why? Because of me! If I hadn't of fallen for you I wouldn't be here! I'd be in my room on my laptop watching some series while ignoring my mum call me down for dinner and Justin cry as dad would run up the stairs to calm him down"
"What are you saying?"
"If I wasn't with you I wouldn't be in this mess! I'd have my family here, alive!" I felt my cheeks burn with furry, Matts eyes changed to a light hazel but the green stood out a lot more, I heard him swallow saliva and look away, I stood up and walked out, I ran downstairs and out of the house, I ran to the back door of my house which I always left open. I ran upstairs and into my room, then opened the sheets and jumped inside and cried. I cried hard and I cried long. I didn't stop crying until the sun disappeared, I slowed down my breathing and played back what had happened earlier that day. I was so wrong to have said what I said. It was just in the moment I don't know what I'm doing, what's going on! I closed my eyes gently and fell asleep.