Nanny Affair

Chapter Twenty One

LOGAN SMITH

"Say it again," he says his voice loud and filled with anger. I start to think that maybe all this was a bad idea but feeling Olivia's hand holding mine I stand my ground. Mother is already in so much shock I don't know whether it's from what I just said or what is gonna happen next but she cant do a thing about it because she listens to her husband like he's the one that made her.
"I knew it was wrong to have you carry this family's name," he says before I can even start to speak. His word are hurtful but I don't care. After all it's not like am gonna be running the company any longer. I can already see the headlines and the interviews that are gonna follow after am forced to make the announcement

"Roger calm down," my mother tries to make him relax but the man is boiling in anger, if he could beat me up he would but am pretty strong now and I cant allow him to do that

"What do you even think you're doing?" he asks in disgust, " You want to get married to a street rat, someone who doesn't even know how this life is and you think she's not doing all this for your money," He says standing up pushing his chair back until it falls shocking mother. Olivia is watching father like a hawk and I can tell that she's angry just by how her face is all red and her eyes are as sharp as my father. She might not like the man but the striking resemblance when they're both angry is very noticeable

"Lisa is not like that and I want someone who will love both me and my daughter. Colette is nothin like that. She's rude and I am quite sure she hates children by the way she treats Ella," I manage to say surprising myself at how calm I sound. I expected my voice to be frail and shaky but it was just as before. Deep and assertive but on the inside I am a trembling mess, I could pee myself at any moment. I was finally dong it and I wouldn't let him win this time

"And how do you think you and that street gold di...

"Her name is Lisa and I've already made up my mind. I am calling off the engagement coz all of this is bullshit. Am not gonna live my whole life faking smiles in front of cameras because of the fucking family name. I wouldn't want to end up like mum," I say turning my gaze towards her. She doesn't even flinch under it, she knows it's true and ending up like her is hurting both me and my child

"Fuck all of this, you can do whatever you want with your company I wasn't the one meant to run it anyway," I say throwing the small towel on my lap on the food I had tried eating and standing up. Olivia holds my hand standing up too and pulling me out. She was angry too and we both needed a breather.

"Where are you going?" she asks when she notices that I am not standing outside for some fresh air like she had thought. Instead I make my way upstairs to Ella's room. I don't bother waiting for her and she doesn't even bother following me because she couldn't catch up. Ella had already fallen asleep since she had had her dinner before all of us so now it was easier to take with me

"Logan where are you going?" I hear mother ask when she sees me walking down the stairs with Ella asleep on my shoulder. I look at her teary eyes, I had said words that hurt her but she deserved it for not standing up for any of her children

"Am going home mum, tell your husband am done with all this," I say. Olivia begs me to at least stay the night but there's no way I could manage to even close my eyes knowing the man is in the same house.

"Logan you just got here, let Ella spend the night," Olivia begs but it falls on deaf ears. I couldn't leave my sweet child with that man, who know what he'll say to her maybe even brainwash her like he did mum

"I am leaving, I'll call you when I get home," I say to Olivia kissing her forehead. I look at my mother and even though I try to form an apology in mind, the anger I had was too much so I just walk out after seconds of looking at her hoping she understands that I am doing this for myself. Ella shuffles on my shoulder from all the noise but I manage to sooth her back to sleep as I walk out. I didn't pack anything, it's not like our clothes could be taken from here so I just start the engine and leave. I had laid Ella on the backseat, covering her with a small blanket Lisa had bought for her

Lisa was the only one in my mind at the moment. I wanted to talk to her and tell her all that happened. I wanted to be next to her, I wanted to feel something other than all this anger that was firing in me but she wasn't answering any of my calls. She's not such a heavy sleeper but I didn't think much of it, the drive was long anyway, I was just gonna call her when I get home

I wanted to scream and shout. I wanted to blast the car speakers with music just to get all this out of my head but my baby would wake up and she' have questions that am not sure I can answer so I just drive in the darkness heading home, somewhere I can breath and get raid of all this feelings. Colette is gonna hear the news soon probably she's already been told and she's gonna cause a ruckus especially after knowing who I chose over her. It is not gonna be a good week or month even, all this is gonna take a while before it is forgotten therefore I have to prepare Lisa and Ella. Ella is still too young to get cuaght up in all this so it's gonna be easier for her, but Lisa is gonna have a terrible time before it all dies down and I hope she's gonna be ready for it when it happens.

I pick up my phone again and try to call her but it goes to voicemail again. What could she be doing at this time that she cant pick up her phone. I try not to think so much about it and focus on the problem. But the sooner she pick up, the better before all of this becomes worse. I turn on the radio putting the volume at a minimal so as not to wake Ella and praying the music helps me concentrate on the road and not on the problem I just caused

"Calm down Logan, it's gonna be okay," I keep saying to myself when the thoughts get too complicated. It's hours and hours of driving and am glad since driving is a way for me to calm down but knowing this will only get worse is not helping at all

I pick up my phone again calling Lisa, I need her, she knows how to calm me down. Just by hearing her voice i'll be able to concentrate, i'll be able to think right

"Please pick up, pick up please," I whisper desperately clinging to the phone on my ear

"Hello," a man's voice answers after a couple of rings and I feel my heart shatter into small pieces. He says hello a couple of more times and after noticing that am not answering he hangs up.

What is going on? Who is that? is Lisa cheating? I did not just throw my life away just to have the woman am fighting for lie to me. These thoughts flood my mind that I don't even notice the tears running down my cheeks

"What?" I whisper in disbelief slowing down and looking at my phone. Her picture on there with her smile as usual

What just happened???