Nanny Affair

Chapter Eighteen

LISA COLMAN

Even with Logan's constant reassurance I cant help but feel scared. He said he was gonna call off the engagement and be with me but I feel awful. I should be happy that he's willing to do this but instead I feel like am going to ruin his life. What if his parents never accept us or what if they force him into something he's not ready for

I came into his home as a nanny and now am making him make decisions that he should have never thought about. I am going to wreck everything even the small relationship between him and his father. He always said that his father have never been on good terms but never the reason. I have had a bad relationship with my father but he's dead now and even though we never managed to fix our relationship, I felt relieved when I was called and heard about his death

I look into the mirror one last time and try to force a smile. I have covered up my eye bags with some make up. I haven't been having enough sleep, mostly thinking about what is gonna happen to us and how Colette is gonna take all this. Am even more scared for Ella, what if she turns on me after things don't go right

I have a short summer dress on and a small bag with my clothes in it. Logan and Ella had left earlier to his parents' house to sort out the issues but for Ella it was just a casual visit to her grandparents house and because she was already home for the holidays they were gonna spend some weeks there

I couldn't go, I don't want to face them and most importantly I don't want to be there when Logan breaks the news. I want us to be together but thinking of what might happen is scary. Staying in this big house alone for all those weeks is gonna be torture to myself am already so worked up so when Logan told me he'll be going to his parents I got the chance to go back home

Belle was excited for it and it would be a bummer if she saw the state am in. She knows what am going through, I tell her everything but she doesn't know that am going through hell just by thinking about it. I put on a fake smile and make my way out to call a cab.

"Here we go Lisa," I mumble to myself as I enter the cab. It took about ten minutes to arrive and I had to wait outside in the hot summer. I love summer but sometimes the sun is just unbearable. It doesn't take long before am dropped of at the building

I pay up to the driver who speaks a lick of English. It was really hard to understand whatever he was saying throughout the entire ride so I just replied with a subtle smile or a nod. Taking the elevator to the our apartment I grew more nervous. Belle reads me like a book, it'll be hard to hide all this from her but I'll try

I knock on the door softly and take a deep breath a fake smile creeping on my face. When the door opens I am met by brown eyes

"Robin," I say almost shocked. This is the last face that I expected. she was in Seattle the last time we talked and that was almost an year ago

"Hey there kiddo," she says pulling me into her strong arms. For a lady she sure does hit the gym a lot

"For the last time, I am only three years younger than you," I say pulling away shock still written all over my face
"What are you doing here?"

I ask as she welcomes me in. Robin has been part of our lives since we were in campus and now she's Belle's girlfriend of four years and they're still so much in love. What do I have to do to get this kind of love. Something that I don't have to feel guilty about or constantly stay in fear because am scared to ruin my life or that of Logan

"Came to see my queen of course," she says so casually handing me a glass of water. I needed that. I take the glass drinking all of the water and taking deep breaths

"Whoa calm down, I should have given you a tequila instead," she says chuckling and I join in. I do need a drink, a hard one that will make me forget my problems at least for a day or two

"I do need one, anyway where's Belle?" I ask looking around

"She went out for some errands and she needed some books for her book. If I quite understood what she meant," She says settling on the couch

"Oh," I say walking to my room. I wash my face getting rid of the make up and change into a pair of sweatpants and a baggy plain black shirt. Robin is still seated on the couch laughing hysterically at the show friends. She always enjoyed watching comedy dramas

"So how was Seattle, and how are your books going?" I ask settling on the couch next to the one she's on

"Seattle's fine but am applying for a transfer back here. It's too far from Belle and I miss her a lot," she says her eyes glistening with excitement. She's so in love with her
"And my book is under publishing, the other one is in hand am still working on some errors and then hopefully when I hand it over it'll be published too," She says looking at me. Wow time really moves fast. Just an year ago, Robin was finding a place to publish her work and now here she is.

Her hair cut short and dyed in jet-black, her brown eyes not holding the tiredness they had before and she's much more muscular than before

"Wow, that's great news. Am still waiting for my license so I can start applying for jobs out here," I say looking at the TV

"Yeah, Belle told me you got yourself a CEO boyfriend," She says a smirk plastered on her face. Oh Belle, sometimes you need to keep some shit to yourself

"No not really," I say looking down trying to hide the blush that is now slowly painting itself on my face

"Oh really, heard the dude left his fiancée for you. Wow Lisa you're a wild one...aren't you?" She says laughing obviously enjoying how she's making me feel

"That is still under for now, and I did not make him leave his fiancée. They're still together," I say trying not to look at her

"So you're the oth " I am saved by Belle screaming out my name from the door. She rushes towards me dropping the bags she had in her hands and hugging me tightly her weight resting on me. She pulls away and kisses my cheek a wide smile on her face. Why is she always so happy??

"Hey Belle," I say excitedly positioning myself well so I can lift her weight of me.

"How are you? you have no idea how excited I am. I even went grocery shopping so Robin can make something for because you know how I am in the kitchen. I didn't think you'd come early. Did Logan drop you off? Have they settled everything yet? Or not? Oh my god we have so much to talk about!!" She blurbs excitedly lifting herself off me and sitting next to Robin who's grinning widely

They share a long passionate kiss which makes me want to just be swallowed alive. I feel like the third...NO.. I am the third wheel

"Hey baby," Robin says pecking her lips and Belle smiles her hands around her girlfriend's neck

"Hey," she says her voice soft as she drags on the e. She looks like a baby wrapped up in Robin's arms. I try to ignore their small talk by looking at my phone only to find Logan's missed calls and a couple of messages

Even though I feel terrible about all this, a smile grows on my face. The fact that he called this many times and even sent me some texts means that he's thinking about and maybe things are not as bad as I am making them be

"Look at that smile," Belle interrupts my thoughts and I quickly lose the smile. "Your darling said he loves yah..or something," she teases and Robin chuckles. I hate when they gang up on me like this

"I didn't disrupt you when you were eating each other's faces off," I say coyly and we all laugh. Their company is great, I love them because they always make everything seem so possible even when I have lost most hope

"Now please excuse me, I have to call someone," I say and stand up. They both roll their eyes and laugh. I lock the door to my room and press on the call button not bothering to read any of the messages

"Hello," I say as soon as he picks up

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