Nanny Affair

Chapter Five

LISA COLMAN

It has been an awkward few days for me, every time Logan walks in I can bare to look at him. I have no idea what it is but every time he's close all I can think off is all the dreams I have had with him fucking the brains out of me. I know that it's such a mess but I cant control my own brain. Every time he's close to me I feel goosebumps forming on my skins and tingles running down my spine

And now today is his birthday and Ella is so excited about it. Am not because I have to spend time with him which is not going to be any good. It's already worse that I think about him when am in the shower, him pinning me-

Not again

"So does your father know that you're planning a party for him?" I ask Ella who's still looking for a watch for her father as a birthday present

"No I want to surprise him," she says. Excitement is written all over her face. I have no idea what to get Logan so instead I buy a bottle of wine which I hope he will appreciate. He does drink wine every time he gets home. Yes, I have been watching him. You cant blame, I have been having a crush on him ever since I was in still in my second year in campus who knew that I'd be babysitting his daughter two years later

"Have you found the perfect one yet or do you want to help me choose," I ask the little girl who's still looking through the glass shelves

"Please help," she says looking at me with her bunny eyes. She looks nothing like her father. She has long brown hair, blue eyes and pretty button nose that she scrunches whenever she's thinking compared to her father who has black hair which fall perfectly to his forehead, green emerald eyes that are always making me freeze and pink lips which I have been wondering how they'd feel on mine

"This one looks perfect," I say looking at a golden watch

"It does, how did I not see it?" she says facepalming herself. I laugh at how adult like she's behaving having to carry her own clutch bag and a pair of sun glasses

"Lets go pay and then we can go prepare a cake for him, there's no birthday without a cake,"

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"Ella what have I told you about your little experiments," I scold her. It is not the first time I have had my apron smeared with sauce or batter mostly she did that as a way of trying to scare me away but I got used to it

"Am sorry," she says pouting. "I just thought it would be fun," she says her face down. I squat to her level and cup her tiny cheeks. She looks at me with watery eyes and am instantly filled with guilt, maybe am being too hard on her

"I know sweetie but I told you not to do this kind of experiments they can be dangerous," I say wiping away the tears that were already running down her cheeks

"Am sorry,"

"Now look we have more work to do and your father will be here in a few hours, do you want him to find a mess here?" she shakes her head no and looks at me

"Come on help me clean up as I put this in the oven," I say standing up. "Good girl, now stop crying and help me help you surprise daddy," I say a smile on my face hoping it will cheer her up

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"We're done, now all we have to do is go take a shower and we wait for your father," I say after setting the table. I didn't have time to make a large meal so I just made some shrimp noodle salad with peanut sauce. It will do for tonight I hope. We get out of the shower just as Logan walks in, Ella insisted on dressing for the party so I had a red skater dress that reached just above my knees

"Happy birthday sir," I say to the man who just walked in

"Oh..." he suddenly stops talking when he looks at me. Heat ignites inside of me and my cheeks flush red. His eyes are digging right through my skin

"You look amazing," he says walking towards me throwing his bag on the floor. Goosebumps are already forming on my skin and the tingling sensation is taking over my body. Him being so close to me is doing things to me. He wraps his arm around me and crushes his lips on mine. It takes me a while to register what exactly is going on and after moments I respond to his kiss. His lips felt like I had imagined, soft. I find myself holding onto his collar as his grip on me tightens as our kiss deepens. I have wanted this to happen for years and now that it's happening I am star struck. The Logan Smith is kissing and it feels good, better than I have ever been kissed. It's like it's my first having someone taste my lips

He pulls away and looks at me as if he has done the worst mistake of his life. There's regret and guilt and anger in his eyes. Is he angry at me? What did I do? Am I such a bad kisser?

"What's wrong?" I ask the grip on his collar loosening. I feel my eyes burning as tears threaten to come out. I feel worthless, I feel like shit right now. What had I done that he had to look at me like am some of trash?

"I shouldn't have, I cant do this," he says his arm leaving my waist and he makes his way to his room. Yeah I definitely feel like shit. The kiss felt so good but it had to be shattered just like that. The way he looked at me, like this is his worst mistake. The pain inside me is as much as the excitement I had a while ago

"Where's daddy?" Ella's voice stops my train of thoughts and I turn to her. I didn't realize that I was already crying until Ella asked about the tears that were running down my cheeks

"It's nothing sweetie, something got into my eye," I lie and carry the sweet girl to the dining table. "Why don't we wait here for your father okay,"

Just thinking about what happened is making my heart ache like never before. Maybe I was expecting him to act different. Maybe I thought he shared the same feelings I did or maybe I thought. That kiss meant nothing to him but why des it mean so much to me? I shouldn't be overthinking things....am a grown up and clearly whatever happened was a mistake for both of us

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