When You Least Expect It - 9-1-1 - Evan "Buck" Buckley

Chapter 11

"Hey, glad to have you back" Annabel's smiling face greeted me as I finally fluttered my eyes open. "We couldn't get ahold of Evan, I left a message hopefully he gets it and is here soon" she patted my head.

"What happened?" I asked groaning as I sat up.

"You passed out on us, don't worry Dr. Harlin has been taking good care of you and he's been running tests so we should know something soon"

"I feel terrible, I'm sorry you guys have been down a nurse" I explained rubbing my eyes.

"It's really not a problem, we've been fine but I should get back to work. If you need anything you know how to get ahold of me" she giggled holding up her phone after kissing the top of my head.

"Thanks, Bel. You're the best" she smiled as she left the room.

Fainting, nausea, always tired. I can't be pregnant, this isn't happening. Suddenly it was hard to catch my breath and everything felt like it was suddenly smaller and I had less space to move.

I sat with my head in my hands, trying to think where it all went wrong when the door opened. I was hoping it was Buck, I wanted nothing more than him in that moment.

I felt disappointed when Dr. Harlin walked in. I didn't know if I was ready to hear what he had to say just yet. The older, graying doctor pulled up a chair and took a deep breath.

"You take blood?" I asked without the courage to look up into his eyes.

"I did" he answered. I could tell he was trying to get me to look at him.

"How far along am I?" I finally choked out.

It was silent for a few seconds before I realized it was too silent for too long. I finally brought my head up to look at him.

"You're not pregnant, Jenna." He said simply. His words had a hint of concern to them and it made me slightly panic.

"I'm...not?" I asked confused.

All signs had pointed to it. I was worried before, now I was terrified.

"No" he said with a shake of his head and a light laugh. "But I am worried about your bloodwork"

"Ok" I said sitting up straighter waiting for him to continue.

"Our preliminary tests came back odd so I decided to run some more. Your CA-125 is what I'm not happy with. It's abnormally high, sometimes this isn't a big deal and sometimes it is. We'll have to run some more tests to find out"

"You think I-" I started before he cut me off.

"I'm not thinking anything yet. Let's get you some more tests and we'll know more" he patted my shoulder. "I'll get your tests set up and your paperwork together. Don't panic, Jenna" he smiled before walking out of the room.

How could I not panic? This was my worst fear becoming a possible reality. I couldn't let this own my life, not until I knew for sure what was going on.

"Baby, are you ok?" Buck asked walking into the room.

He was kind of winded and looked scared as hell.

"I'm fine honey, you didn't have to come" I reached my head up and gave him a kiss.

"Of course I did, I was so worried about you" he gave me a few more quick kisses making me smile.

"I'm fine, my love. I just have to get a few more tests just to count everything else out and I'll be good to go"

He smiled as the door opened and the doctor came back in. Buck grabbed my hand gently.

"Here's your paperwork and your tests are set up, if you want to go get them done now. And I've already got it approved, take the rest of the night off. We should have the results in the morning" he smiled handing over my paperwork.

"Thank you" I smiled taking the papers and turning to Buck as the doctor left.

"They gave me the rest of shift off too to make sure you were taken care of" Buck rubbed my head.

"I'm going to go get these tests done then want to grab something to eat or something?" I looked at him hopeful for a distraction.

"Sounds great" he squeezed my hand a bit.

The tests went by fast and before I knew it I was on our couch with Buck, my head on his chest, his arms around me and my ears listening to the sweet sound of his heart beat.

"Thank you for being there today" I said, my eyes still closed and focusing on the rhythm of his heart.

"There's no way I wouldn't be there, I love you" he kissed the top of my head.

"I love you more" I smiled into his chest.

"So not possible" he mocked making both of us laugh.

He was mine, I was his. Whatever those tests showed wouldn't change that fact, at least not for me. Nothing was going to change the way I felt about Evan Buckley and I could only hope that he felt the same way.

I fell asleep listening to the sound of his heart beating against my ear. Just being with him made everything else irrelevant, nothing mattered but him, me and the moment. If it weren't for him who knows how I would have gotten any sleep. I don't even remember much about getting from the couch to the bed, I only vaguely remember waking up in Bucks arms as he carried me.

The next morning I woke up still tangled up in him. I wanted that to be how I always woke up. I looked at his peaceful face while he slept and once again I couldn't help but think how lucky I was. I placed a small kiss to his forehead before gently untangling myself from him and sliding out of bed.

I found what I needed to start making breakfast as a surprise and had just started putting the pancakes on to cook as Buck walked into the kitchen.

"Pancakes?" I smiled at him.

I loved the way he looked in the mornings. His hair was always slightly messy and the sleepiness in his eyes made him irresistibly adorable to me.

"My beautiful girl's making pancakes? I'm a lucky, lucky guy" he chuckled wrapping his arms around my middle from behind and placing kisses along the side of my neck.

"I love cooking for my adorable, sexy boyfriend" I giggled turning to press my lips to his.

"Adorable and sexy, huh?" He smirked.

"And so much more" I turned back to the pancakes before they burned as he ran his hands along my arms.

I had just finished plating the pancakes when my phone rang.

"Go ahead and eat before they get cold" I explained handing a plate to Buck. "It's the doctor"

I answered the phone as Buck set his plate down and started getting drinks for us.

"Good morning, Jenna. Is there any way you can possibly come in a little early before your shift today so we can speak about your test results?" I heard Dr. Harlin's voice on the other end of the phone.

"Of course" I smiled towards Buck as he set down the drinks on the table.

His smile melted my heart, I loved his smile. I'd do anything to see that smile. But I couldn't help but shake a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach.

"All good?" Buck asked as I hung up the phone and joined him.

"All good" I lied, I had no idea if everything was good but for the immediate moment it was.

There it was again, that smile. Everything was right in the world when that smile was present. I forced a smile of my own before attempting to eat some breakfast hoping the situation wouldn't be brought up again.