Idontwannabemeanymore (Jungkook × BTS)

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As soon as Jungkook passes the front door, he is met with an angry Namjoon.

"Where the fuck were you !?"

"Uh... I went outside-"

"And you couldn't tell any of us !? Jin hyung was dead worried !!" The older scolds.

Jungkook just avoids his piercing stare. Only Jin hyung was worried ? Wow. He ignores the tiny pinch in his heart and clenches his fists. When the hell did he become this oversensitive ?

"I'm sorry." He just sighs.

"Whatever just go to sleep." Namjoon scoffs.

"And your apology was complete bullshit by the way. None of us bought it. Hopefully it will make it for ARMYs and medias though." He adds before walking away.

Jungkook closes his eyes and releases a shaky sigh before going to bed, ignoring the pain in his heart, once again.

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As expected, BTS gets up early the next morning. They all are tired. However, someting was not so expected : Hoseok having a severe headache and a sore throat.

"Uugh..." He whines as he heats some water for his cofee.

Jimin and Yoongi, who are in the kitchen with him, look at him worriedly.

"Are you alright hyung ?" Jimin asks.

"What's wrong ?" Yoongi adds.

"Nah I'm just tired." Hoseok tries to reassure them but his voice crack tells otherwise.

"Hoseok. Are you sure you're not sick or something ? You look pale. If you don't feel well I'll just call Bang PD-nim and tell him-"

"No. That's not necessary. I'll sleep in the car."

Jimin and Yoongi look at each other knowingly then the others fill the room little by little. They all greet each other. Jungkook is missing though. Namjoon sighs with annoyance.

"Aish that fucking brat. I'm sure he's still sleeping. Why did he have to get home late yesterday? I swear to fucking G-"

Jungkook enters the kitchen with an very tired looking face. He sighs and mumbles a good morning with a hoarse voice. The others don't answer his good morning, as usual now. He just takes some banana milk and drinks a little bit. He grimaces as the cold liquid flows through his aching throat but that goes unnoticed by everyone as they are eating and chatting.

Jungkook is feeling unwell. He's dizzy, he has trouble breathing, his head and throat hurt, he feels like falling asleep this instant.

"Oh my good, are you alright ?" He raises his head to look at the direction of the voice with shock.

Maybe one of his hyungs still cares about him after all. And just the thought of this makes him feel better.

"I-" he quickly shuts his mouth as he sees that Jin was actually talking to Hoseok.

Everyone else is looking at Hoseok.

"Y-yeah I just... It's just my head..." The latter says massaging his temples.

"Did you take some medicine ?" Namjoon asks in utter concern.

"I will, don't worry." He says as the others resume their eating.

Jungkook releases a shaky sigh and gathers all of his remaining force to get up from his chair, walk out of the kitchen and go to the bathroom. He gets ready for the day as he ignores his raging headache and sore body. After he is all clean and ready, he takes some pain killer then he heads downstairs where all of his hyungs are waiting for him so they can enter the van.

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As soon as they get to the place of the filming for the next episode of 'BTS RUN', they are greeted by all the filming staff and a dozen of cameras. They fake smiles and good mood as they go get ready for the episode.

Hoseok tells himself that he will just have to hide the fact that he's sick in front of the cameras. It'll only last a day it can't be that hard.

Jungkook tells himself that he will try not to pass out and stay awake. If he faints, it will compromise the whole filming and make his hyungs worr- scratch that. He takes a big breath then screams "welcome to BTS RUN !" Along with the others, with a huge smile, like he was the happiest man in the world just having fun with hyungs.

Which he was not so long ago.

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"And the winner is... THE TEAM SEOKMINJIN !!! The losing team please go take the envelope that contains your punishment !" The MC, aka Suga, says with an amused expression.

Namjoon, Taehyung and Jungkook walk to the table and the oldest takes the envelope. He looks at it and reads the penalty out loud : "the losing team will have to put these dresses and masks on and make a street show, outside." He reads

All the other members laugh loudly to make fun of them.

"Look at Jungkook's face. He really does hate losing." Suga mocks.

Actually, Jungkook's head is just hurting a lot because of all the lights and noise, he feels his vision blur. He shakes his head and tries to make his vision focus.

"Come on guys cheer up ! You got a show to rock !" Jimin says as he and his team cheer for their band mates.

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After the humiliating yet funny penalty, the episode of BTS RUN is over. The members quicky get home because Hoseok is feeling real bad and they are all worried. As they enter the van, Jimin tells Hoseok to lay on his lap and he caresses his burning scalp.

"You should've told us when you felt bad hyung. Why did you hide it from us ?" Taehyung asks.

"We had to finish the episode." Hoseok answers.

"We don't care about the episode, you're way more important." Namjoon sighs.

Jungkook looks at this scene unfolding in front of his exhausted eyes. His his breath is heavy and his mind is blank. The pain is paralyzing his whole body. The last thing he hears before passing out is : "don't worry, we're gonna take care of you Hobi."

A single tear runs down the Maknae's cheek.

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Jungkook wakes up in his empty room, still feeling like crap. He looks at the time and jumps a little bit. He doesn't remember going into his bedroom. Last thing he remembers is passing out in the car on the way to the dorm. He smiles lighty at the thought of one of his hyungs carrying him to his bed. He gets up from his bed and walks to the living room. Maybe they noticed he was in pain and felt pity for him ?

"Oh you finally woke up. The driver had to carry your lazy ass all the way to your bed. For real." Yoongi says.

Jungkook inrernally lets out a humorless chuckle. What the fuck did he expect ?

"Look you're not the only who's tired. We have to clean the dorm and take care of Hoseok because he's sick. So quit being selfish for once." The older rolls his eyes.

Jungkook sighs and goes back into his bedroom. Nothing will ever be okay again it seems. How can they treat him like that ? Doesn't he mean anything to them ? He went from being their youngest brother to being a ghost and a piece of shit at the same time. His heart can't stand it anymore. He bursts in tears and sobs into his pillow. After less than an hour, he ends up falling asleep.