Idontwannabemeanymore (Jungkook × BTS)

Day Six (Yoongi's point of view)

Today, I have a date with Ji-Eun. Even though I don't show it I'm feeling so fucking giddy. What for ? It's not like I was some sort of teenager meeting his crush for the first time. I roll my eyes at my thoughts then get ready to go out. I have to join her at 6:30PM. I get out of my room and climb down the stairs. The others are all in the living room, playing Mario Kart on the TV. As usual, Jungkook is not in the house, lately he's been spending his time outside. When he is actually home, we only see him out of his room early in the morning or late in the night. Anyway, not like one of us cares so let's skip that shit and change the topic.

So IU and I have been secretly seeing each other, safe from all the fucking medias and paparazzis. Our relationship has grown so solid that we decided that it was okay to officialize it, we just don't wanna have to hide anymore. The news spread real fast but meh, everything is fine between us and that's all that matters. She will soon meet the others speaking of which, my bandmates are really happy for both of us. Bang PD-nim is overjoyed because the news made a lot of good publicity for the agency. But I honestly don't give a fuck about that either. I drive to that one café we agreed to meet at and as I enter, I see her slim princess-like silhouette sat at one of the table, patiently waiting for me. I wave at her and her eyes land on me. She smiles and waves at me cutely.

"Hey." As I sit at the table.

"Hi, I missed you." She pouts a little bit.

I blush lightly.

"I missed you too." I admit as I peck her lips.

She holds my hand and we start talking, talking, talking. She's so captivating and smart that I totally forget about the time. When we feel the sexual tension rise higher and higher, we look at each other wordlessly. Ready to pounce on each other.

"Look, let's go in my car then at some hotel..."

"What about the beach ? I feel like being a dangerous woman..." She smirks.

I feel myself harden. I like that side of her. I like savage, dangerous cuties.

"The beach it is then..." I say as I get up quickly and take her hand in mine.

We pay and leave in a hurry. She hops into my car and I drive to Incheon's Eurwangni beach, to spend the best night of my life.

Am I starting to fall for her ?

I hope not...

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It is 2am when I get home, all the lights are down, only the living room is dimly lit. Curious, I walk towards the weak source of light and I see Jungkook writing, reading in a notebook while humming some song I don't know. He seems to have noticed my presence because he looks up and smiles at me. I frown at him in confusion. Why the fuck is he smiling at me ?

"Hello hyung, how are you ?" He asks softly.

My words get stuck in my throat. What in the hell-

"I-I- good." I choke out. What the fuck am I stuttering for though ?

He nods, the sweet smile never leaving his face. It's honestly fucking creepy. Why are my hairs rising ?

"How was your date ?" He asks casually.

Weirdly enough, I don't hear any type of shade or anger in his voice. Has he moved on ? Good for him. Not like he had any choice anyways so... Yeah. I shrug to answer his question.

"Nice." I say as I turn around to leave.

"You know, I am not mad anymore about you and IU..."

I stop in my tracks and turn around.

"Good for you. Even if you were, I wouldn't care. Remember ?" I retort.

"I know... I just wanted to tell you that I wish you and her the best." He says softly.

I look at him weirdly.

"What's up with you ?" I suddenly ask.

"Nothing. I just want to tell you that I know you suffered hyung. You went through so much and now that you are finally happy and accomplished, which you deserve more than anything else, I want you to know that I am happy for you and proud of you." He explains as he looks at me straight in the eyes with... Love.

Suddenly I feel dizzy, I feel like throwing up. My heart clenches violently. I gasp slightly then look at him, trying to contain the emotions arising into me. I remember this day... When he snitched on me. I frown and look at him

"You think it's that easy ? You come to me with your honeyed voice and sweet words. Do you think I forgot the pain I felt the day you betrayed me all because of your selfishness ?!" I yell in anger.

He flinches and looks down. He then looks at me with teary eyes and a big smile full of... Love again uugh !

"I'm sorry if I did anything that hurt you. I would never do something to harm you on purpose." He says. "I'm sorry that you thought I could do so."

"Aaargh stop it ! Stop looking like that, stop talking like that ! Stop looking at me like that !"

Let me hate you...

"I just want you to know that I love you hyung... I love you." He says before walking away.

He leaves me alone in the middle of the living room, looking before me blankly. No words left in my mouth, no thoughts left in my mind. I feel a single tear roll down my cheek, then another, another one, and I am finally fucking crying without fucking knowing why. Why do I feel like a monster suddenly ?