Idontwannabemeanymore (Jungkook × BTS)

Day Two (Taehyung's point of view)

I wake up feeling a body on mine. I smile lightly and caress Jimin's scalp. After some time, I decide to get up and let him sleep. Yesterday we had fun. I smile and proceed to my morning routine. Once it is done, I go downstairs and have some breakfast. Weirdly enough, nobody is up yet. I just shrug and get back in my room. I coo at Jimin who's still sleeping soundly then get dressed. Today, I feel like working out. I want to strengthen up. Whether it is physically or emotionally. I smile as I get out of the dorm. I send a text to Jimin to inform him about my whereabouts then, I put my air pods on while walking to the gym.

I'm getting better gradually, well that is thanks to my hyungs and especially Jimin. Jungkook is slowly getting out of my mind and heart and I can't be happier about that. I enter the gym and start to stretch in a very good mood. I'll definitely get over him and move on with my life.

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After two hours of intensive working out, I take a shower then head to my locker to take my bag. I feel so good, refreshed and happy. Tonight I'm making love to my boyfriend. I can't wait. Speaking of which, I see that he sent me a message an hour ago to tell me that he'll join me at the gym so we can go and have lunch somewhere. I walk out of the gym with a weird feeling like someone is following me. I turn around and see no one. I shrug and get out while answering my boyfriend's texts. Once I'm finally outside the gym, I still feel that presence behind me so I turn around once again and flinch when I see Jungkook, looking at me.

"What the fuck is wrong with you, are you following me ?!" I say as I put a hand on my heart to calm its fast beating. He fucking scared me.

"I-I'm sorry hyung. I didn't mean to, I was at the gym a-and I saw you so I just-"

"Cut the crap what do you want Jungkook ?" I lose patience.

I'm usually very patient but not when it comes to him, just seeing his face brings back disagreeable memories and emotions.

"I- sorry can we talk ?" He asks, looking all scared and apprehensive.

What the hell ?

I don't wanna talk with him. But something is begging me to listen to him. So I just shrug and nod nonchalantly.

"I'm sorry." He says quickly as he looks down.

I look at him and frown. That's it ? 'I'm sorry' then I forgive him and everything is alright ? Hell no, who does he think he is ? It is not gonna happen.

"I know I hurt you a lot. Tae hyung, you were way more than a friend and a hyung to me. You were my bestfriend, my brother a-and way m-"

My eye twitches. What bullshit is he trying to tell me ? I feel anger creep into me.

"Jungkook." I warn.

"You were way more to me. That day I- sorry, I made a huge mistake. I didn't want to hurt you. I just-" Some tears escape his eyes, I roll my eyes.

"I was scared. I was just a coward. I was scared of what people would think, our hyungs, my parents, the agency, the society, the world. I was so scared it was all u-unknown to me a-and I couldn't control myself, I panicked a-and I was ashamed. After that I never dared to approach you, I was scared of those feelings I-"

"There is no excuse for what you did Jungkook. I was as scared as you." I grit my teeth.

"I know, I'm sorry." He sobs as I just stand there and look at him, embarrassed.

Wow, he's turned into a pathetic regretful man.

"Jungkook. Stop it and be quiet, people will see us." I say firmly as I look around us.

I kind of don't want to be seen with him.

"H-hyung, I just hope one day you will find the strength to forgive me. I am so sorry and I'll die sorry for what I did to you. A-and I-" He cuts himself up then looks at me with bloodshot teary eyes.

"I still love you."

I avoid his eyes and close mine as I shake my head. No, I refuse, he didn't just say that. I must be hearing things.

"No, no, no shut up !"

"H-hyung, I never stopped loving you, I-"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP, SHUT UP !" I feel my eyes getting teary.

He can't be saying that to me right now.

"Please GET THE FUCK out of my sight right now. I really hate you ! Why do you have to spoil my happiness all the fucking time ?! I can't fucking believe it ! You like seeing me suffer ! I'm trying to fucking MOVE ON ! YOU HEAR ME ?! I'M TRYING TO GET YOU OUT OF MY MIND ! DON'T YOU THINK YOU'V MADE ENOUGH DAMAGE ?! WHY DON'T YOU LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE ?" I push him away as my tears fall.

He sobs and keeps apologizing. But I'm not having any of that right now. The harm has been fucking done !

"I'm so sorry hyung. I promise I will fix it. I'll make sure you never suffer again by my fault. I-I'm sorry I-I love you so much please forgive me. " He falls on his knees and sobs harder.

I look at him and shake my head.

"I'm sorry Jungkook that's too late."

I look at my phone to see a message from my boyfriend : 'I am here !' I turn around and see that he is pretty far away, walking towards the gym. I smile cause he didn't see me yet. I walk towards him and leave Jungkook. Once he sees me, my baby smiles and waves at me. I chuckle, hug him tight and kiss him. I quickly take a look at where Jungkook is and see him looking at us with wide sad eyes. Good. I look back at my beautiful boyfriend.

"Let's go ?" I say joyfully.

"Hell yeah, I'm so hungry !" He beams.

We walk away but before completely leaving, I turn around. Jungkook is nowhere to be seen. I shrug and keep walking with Jimin.