Idontwannabemeanymore (Jungkook × BTS)

Day Three (Jimin's point of view)

Today, I'm in the mood for nothing. I'm tired and I just feel like staying in my room alone. For some strange reason I don't know why but I don't want to see the others. Except for Taehyung of course, I'll never get tired of my soulmate. I'm thinking about all the crap that happened lately. And suddenly I feel so unhappy. The sweet taste of success turned sour because there is no us anymore. And this pains me a lot. My thoughts then drift to a certain someone. Who used to hold a special spot in my heart along with Taehyung.

What happened to Jungkook ? He used to be so innocent, cute, shy. He then grew up and changed. I miss the old times where there used to be an 'us'. Now we all know all of this is gone and this is tarnishing our relationships. This will soon tarnish our work and later our life. I'm incredibly scared of what might happen in the future. Whatever it is, I feel like I'm going to be broken at the end of the day. I'm so done feeling like that to be honest. I sigh and roll on my bed. What am I going to do today-

Knock, knock, knock...

Who is it ? Must be Taehyung. I smile and roll my eyes.

"Go away, I'm still mad at you for eating my last peanut mochi..." I pout.

"Hyung..." I hear a sweet voice call.

Jungkook ? What is he doing here ?

"What do you want Jungkook ?" I ask cautiously.

"I just want to talk..." He answers.

I sigh and get up to open the door. As said previously, I don't wanna see anyone today. But since it's Jungkook whom I practically don't see anymore, I'll make an exception I guess. I'm still not pleased with his new self but he is still a human being. Anyway, I open the door, he enters and we sit down on my bed. I look at him expectantly.

"Hi hyung, how are you ?" He asks softly.

I try to mask my confusion and tell him that I'm alright. He simply nods and looks down. He then looks at me with a little smile. I'm trying to see past his fake façade. What is he trying to hide ? Why is he suddenly smiling ? I have a bad feeling ? Is he good-intentioned ? I am extremely skeptical and doubtful. Last time I checked, he was a little rude to everyone, very distant, he treated Taehyung like shit on a very crucial night, he basically sank in madness and I don't recognize my Jungkookie anymore. So I wanna know what's up with his weird behavior right now.

"Jimin hyung. You and I used to be close." He states.

"Yes..?" I'll let him guess why we aren't close anymore.

"I'm aware I ruined everything." He adds.

Well, at least he's aware. I just nod, indicating him to keep going with his speech.

"I just came here to... To tell you that you've been the best friend I ever had, in my whole life."

This sentence sends shivers down my spine.

"You're life is not over yet, stop talking like it was the case, it's ridiculous." I blurt out.

He flinches then chuckles.

"O-oh right I'm sorry." He smiles.

I resist the urge to smile and laugh it off with him like before, he needs to understand that to fix the mistakes he made, it will take way more than his cute face and sweet voice. I look at him blankly.

"I want to say thank you for being here for me, for being yourself. I really liked- like the friendship we had. You really were- are my second older brother, the one I'm close to. And one day, when you will grow old, I don't want you to have a bad memory when you think about be..." He says sadly.

"I know Taehyung hyung is your bestfriend. I made him suffer a lot so I made you suffer too. I am really sorry for that and I will try my best to fix my huge mistake. I'll make things right, I promise."

"Jungkook, you left him broken then acted like everything was alright, I doubt you'll fix anything for now, he's really angry at you." I frown. "And concerning me, I really don't know what to think about you anymore. I feel like I don't even know you anymore."

"I know, I'm sorry."

"Not going to lie, this is going to take a lot of time if you want things to be like before." I sigh as I shake my head.

He nods and looks down sadly. I'm sorry but everything he did was way too disappointing for me.

"I understand, hyung. It's alright." He forces a smile.

He stands up and makes his way out of my room, I look at him, silently.

"I love you hyung." He says before finally closing the door, leaving me to process the words that just came out of his mouth.

Okay that's totally unusual.

I like that he's starting to make efforts to make it up for what he did. I decide to push all of that aside, I'll see how it goes in the long term. For now I'll just take my Taehyungie on a date, I want to see him.