Idontwannabemeanymore (Jungkook × BTS)

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Current time (a year after Jungkook's suicide)...

The news of Jungkook's death spread faster than the light on the internet. The whole world was shocked and depressed. A lot of international artists payed tribute to Jungkook, his last solo song entitled "The fall of Icarus" had been #1 for months on the charts all around the world. Some ARMYs committed suicide after hearing about the young idol's death, which made the case more and more talked about. His book, also entitled "The Fall of Icarus" is now a best seller.

How are BTS ? Well they are not anymore. Of course, the group disbanded and they all went to do their military service. They also have a psychological support because they are obviously not over the maknae's suicide. They are aware that nothing will ever be the same, they all feel themselves sinking deeper and deeper. They will never get over it.

Taehyung and Jimin broke up. Their health problems and their sadness made their relationship turn toxic. Taehyung has become an alcoholic. Drinking in the morning, in the afternoon and in the night non stop. His family is trying hard to make him stop because they're afraid it'll end up killing him. However he doesn't care. Drinking his problems, guilt and sadness away is the best solution so far to him.

Jimin has fallen into a deep state of depression after the death of his dongsaeng. He'd been self harming a lot in the beginning but now all he ever does is cry and be extremely pessimistic. The happy go lucky and lively Jimim is gone. He's now gloomy and honestly done with life. The only thing that makes him want to stay alive is Jungkook. How ? Well he simply wouldn't want his family to suffer the way he suffered after Jungkook's suicide.

Namjoon is unrecognizable. His appearance is careless, he has very visible circles under his eyes. He's no longer the dynamic BTS rapper. He looks like an old man when's he's barely younger than 30. He's lost all of his interest for music and is now an English teacher in a small Korean folk village. His life is quite healthy but his mind is not. He's been sleep deprived all along because of the incessant nightmares he suffers almost every night. He also suffers insomnia. The nightmares are mostly about Jungkook and his other team mates. The youngest's suicide still haunts him and he tried everything to get it off his mind in vain. He'll have to beat himself for it until his last breath and he likes to think that this is what he deserves.

Hoseok has been diagnosed with severe bipolarity. His state is worsening everyday but he's still alive and he is trying to get better despite the fact that he's down most of the time. Since his state had been judged socially dangerous, he spent months in a psychiatric hospital. He's now able to get out without being accompanied and see his family. Of course he still thinks about what used to be his life when he was happy... With BTS.

Yoongi is a drug addict. It began with simple cigarettes. Then it was joints, then cocaine powder, then pills and finally needles. Now it's all of them. His health is slowly fading away but it's the only way he can forget about the horrible event that took place a year prior. He's not with IU anymore. After Jungkook's death he just lost it and told her to piss off. He told everyone and everyhing to piss off. He's been doing his shit all alone. It's just his way to cope with the pain.

Seokjin is anorexic. He used to love food. But now food is his ennemi. Why ? Well it started when food would remind him of Jungkook. He would remember that the latter looked like a bunny whenever he saw carrots, he would remember that the younger loved pizzas when he would see pizzas, when he saw meat it would remind him of how Jungkook was overjoyed whenever BTS did barbecues. He gradually stopped eating because of that and became skinnier and skinnier. His family and close friends are there for him so he tries to fight his illness.

"And this is how we reached the bottom." Namjoon ends up saying to the counselor sitting in front of the six of them.

The counselor sighs as he takes his glasses off and looks at the notes he took from what the crying young men told him.

"I see..." He says thoughtfully. "I know a place you can go to, that may help you get better."

He writes the address on a piece of paper then hands it to Namjoon who takes it and reads it.

"I suggest you to go there right now. The owners of this place are the most qualified to help you, trust me." He smiles.

So that's what BTS do. They thank the counselor, get out of his office and drive to the said address. They see a nice building on which 'Moseong Boho' is written.

"Moseong Boho..? What is that ?" Jimin asks with confusion.

"I don't know let's get in." Hoseok sighs.

They walk in and immediately, the sweet and warm atmosphere makes them want to cry. It just feels like their hearts are being caressed. Like their moms are holding them tight.

"Hello and welcome in Moseong Boho. What can I do for you ?" A soft voice welcomes.

They abruptly turn their heads towards the voice, which is way too familiar. It can't be...

"M-mrs. Jeon ?" Yoongi asks with a shaky voice.

The middle aged woman looks at them fondly then nods. Right now, all the ex members of BTS want to do is cry on her feet. The woman opens her arms.

"Come here." She says.

They immediately comply and hold the woman tight while apologizing thoroughly.

"Shhh... It's in the past. The motto of this association is : The past doesn't matter, grow old and happy, love each other. Jungkookie wouldn't want you to be in that state. Come on now. Go in the dining room and meet everyone, the chefs are making dinner." She smiles softly.

The young men follow the woman and thank her, extremely grateful.

Jungkook's family are the owners of this association named "Moseong Boho". Each year, thousands of people who are hopeless come to this association to seek for help. Moseong Boho provides countless services to help : counseling, social assistance, mutual aid group sessions, buffets, all type of events that unite people etc... It is very popular in South Korea, even some people from around the world travel to go there.

As everyone is eating and chatting with the Jeon family and other people, Taehyung excuses himself from the room and goes to the balcony. It seems like the rain of earlier came to an end. The young man looks at the grey cloudy sky with a sad smile.

"Jungkookie... Baby.. You will always be the only one in my heart. I can't live without you. I will help your mother in the association and I will be better for you. I know you wouldn't want me to live unhealthy even though I deserve it. I will do anything to make you proud until the day I join you forever. How does that sound ?" He asks with teary eyes.

Surprisingly, sun rays break through the thick layer of clouds little by little and soon, the sun can be seen, shining brightly, like a smile.

Taehyung cries and smiles at the sight. He knows that Jungkook is answering him.

"I'll see you in another life and we'll love each other unconditionally. I promise I'll fight for our love and make myself worthy of you." He cries.

A rainbow appears just above his head. Taehyung's heart flutters and with that, he leaves the balcony after directing a last glance full of love and nostalgia to the now clear blue sky.

"Please love all the seven of us without leaving any member behind" - V alias Kim Taehyung.

The end.