Idontwannabemeanymore (Jungkook × BTS)

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Today BTS has to perform their two main songs for the Mnet Asian Music Awards (MAMAs). Each year, this well known ceremony welcomes thousands of people from different fandoms along with numerous medias of the Korean music industry. As any other ceremony it is important and taken very seriously by BTS and BigHit. Every performance has to be perfect from A to Z, the group's reputation is at stake. This is why the members are doing some last minute rehearsals under the very sharp and focused watch of their choreographer. J-Hope is helping the members the best he can, trying to motivate them, show them how to perfect their moves.

"AHRG FUCK !" Yoongi yells in frustration as he just missed some step.

"Come on hyung you can do it. Look at me : one, two, three, four, five, six, seven and eight. Let's do that again." J-Hope reassures him.

They keep rehearsing together. Jungkook is falling behind a little bit. His body is tired, as expected after the panic attack and sleepless night. His mind is also tired.

"Jungkook ! What the hell are you doing for God's sake ?!" The choreographer yells in frustration. "Take a break I'm gonna take you something to eat and drink."

Once the choreographer leaves, all the members are left in the room, frustrated and panting.

"Hah, Golden Maknae my ass."

"He sure does shine more than us."

"Can't even manage to remember a choreography. Fucking pathetic."

"And he has the nerves to act all cocky and superior, fuck outta here."

"At this point, whether you are in the group or not makes no difference."

"Fucking useless."

'I know all of this you don't need to remind me.' Jungkook thinks without saying anything in return.

Jungkook tries his best to block those words out and keep rehearsing to get the whole dance right. This way, he won't be that much of a burden to his hyungs. He knows he is useless, he knows he is weighing his hyungs down but he just can't help being tired. Just as he can't help being in the group. He can't do anything to change that... Or... Maybe he can do something about the latter.

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"Before introducing the next category, let's watch the performance of... BANGTAN SONYEONDAN !!!" The MCs cheer as the spotlights gradually fade.

Before going on stage, the members gather for the group's famous cheer. They join their hands, Taehyung uneasily putting his hand above Jungkook's.

"Bang !"

"TAN !"

With that, they step on the stage elevator and wait for it to rise so they can go at their respective spots on stage. ARMYs' screams and cheers can be heard all over the wide place, making most of the members smile as their hearts flutter. In spite of all the hard events lately, something hasn't changed at all : their love for ARMYs. And it will never change. Jungkook tightly closes his eyes and tries to focus in spite of his growing headache. He will fight to be absolutely perfect tonight. in order not to let his hyungs down but also to make ARMYs and his family proud. He quickly takes a look at the public and he notices some signs amongst the ocean of Army bombs. On these signs some lovely and warm messages are written. But other messages are written on some other signs and they may be directed to him... Who knows ?

'Jungkook out of BTS.'

'No more Jungcocky'

'NO ARROGANCE IN BTS'