Idontwannabemeanymore (Jungkook × BTS)

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Namjoon is quite anxious right now as he is laying on his bed and reading what are the news about BTS on the internet. Cypher part. 6 has come out and he can't wait to see what people think about his verse, he worked very hard on it and he did everything he could to fix the mistakes of his first text. He looks at some articles saying that the awaited rap song made sensation all over the world. It even was praised by some rappers in the USA. All smiles, Namjoon goes on YouTube and decides to look at the comments.

Jungkook's Slut
'Oh my f*cking God King Jungkook carried the whole fucking song what is there that he can't do !!?!'

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BTSpavedthemilkyWAY
I can't believe Jungkook wrote and RAPPED this ! At this point he should definitely be part of the rap line 🤩😭
💬128 👍6,8k 👎

NamjinsChild7
Brooo you've gotta be kidding me ! I know the rap line slayed as usual but Jungkook got me JUNGSHOOK ! 😱😱😱
💬77 👍3,5k 👎

Meowngii The Swegg
Everybody be talking about Jungkook ! Guys stop it, I can't like all these comments ! 🤯🤯🤯
💬104 👍4,7k 👎

BtsOnCrack
RM : I-
Jungkook : Imma end this man's whole career.
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Vmin_BTCHZZZ
The comment section be like :
90% : OMGG JUNGKOOKIE OWNED THAT SHIT
8% : Jungkook : Imma end this man's whole career
2% : the others.
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MrsJung_fightMe
Why is no one talking about how good Suga and J-Hope's verses are ?
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Joontitties
BITCHES WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT RM'S VERSE !!
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Namjoon sighs and quits YouTube to go on Twitter. As expected 'BTS' and 'CYPHER 6' are trending however 'Jungkook' is trending too. In the first place among the Top Tweets.
He decides to press on 'BTS' first. He smiles as ARMYs are expressing their love and pride for the group. There are also information articles about their comeback and the records they broke once again. Celebrities are praising their new album or hinting a possible collaboration.

Namjoon then goes back in the trending menu and he decides to press on 'CYPHER 6'. As expected all people talk about is Jungkook. Jungkook. Jungkook. Fucking Jungkook. Motherfucking Jungkook all over again. Namjoon tries his best to let his inner good leader and hyung in possession of him. But his hurt ego is way more powerful right now. So powerful that he ate the good and honest Namjoon. Namjoon balls his fist as anger runs in his veins slowly and painfully, like a flow of lava running down an erupting volcano. Who is he angry at ? Jungkook for constantly stealing the show ? For being better than he will ever be on every level ? ARMYs for being biased ? For loving his dongsaeng more than him ? Himself for not being good enough ?

Definitely. Yes, definitely.

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"Guys ! Dinner's ready !!" Seokjin yells from the kitchen.

All soon come into the kitchen. Except Namjoon and Jungkook. Seokjin sighs and sits down with an annoyed expression.

"Enjoy your meal." He says flatly.

The others thank him uneasily and proceed to eat in silence. Surprisingly, Namjoon ends up showing up.

"Sorry Jin hyung, I was in the bathroom." He says silently.

All notice his puffy red eyes and shaky voice.

"Hey Namjoon what's wrong ?" Jin asks.

The latter just shakes his head as an answer, indicating that he doesn't want to talk about it and looks down, poking his food with his chopsticks.

"Hyung.. You cried. Tell us what happened. Come on you can't be doing that when you told me not to hide anything from you weeks ago." Taehyung points out.

"I feel like I'm not good enough." Namjoon finally breaks down.

All the members get off their seats and go to him to embrace him in a big warm hug.

"What do you mean hyung ? You are the best leader one could have. If we did hold on until today it is thanks to you !" Hoseok exclaims.

"You are by far the most hardworking person I know. No cap." Yoongi adds.

"You're a literal boss ! You manage to represent us internationally, to motivate us, to prevent us from falling apart, to be an excellent artist, to be a caring hyung all at once. Are you even human at this point ?" Jimin asks.

"Exactly ! You're our Golden Leader." Jin finally says with a proud smile.

"Thank you so much guys. I love you so much. I don't know what I would do without you." Namjoon says as he dries his tears.

"We love you too and thank you for being with us." The others say.

Jungkook is hiding behind the wall, next to the dinning room's door. He was about to enter the dining room to eat because he was hungry. But after hearing all that drama he's not so hungry anymore. He is now eavesdropping, RM wailing about not being good enough and the others comforting him like he was some sort of fucking baby. Where the fuck were they when Jungkook was feeling like crap ? Busy going to some bestie dates, busy writing doing their own things, busy fucking his crush. At this point he isn't even sad or angry. He is mad at his hyungs. His useless hyungs that only care about themselves.

He rolls his eyes and storms back in his bedroom, ignoring the sweet words and emotional scene. He's not feeling any sympathy for RM. The latter's been giving him the cold shoulder too lately.

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Jungkook sits on his desk. In front of his computer. He blankly stares at the black screen for at least 10 minutes before silently taking his copy book out of his bag and writing something down with a feverish inspiration.

Feeling like a stranger in my own world

The whole world in my hands yet still insecure

I don't know if I will grow old

But the call of the blue sky sounds so pure...

Please, take the pain away

Take the crown and all the gold

Take the glitter and all the cold

I don't want any of that anymore

I just want to get back to what we call 'before'.

He sighs and closes his copy book. He ran out of inspiration. He decides to call it a day and go to sleep without eating. Who needs food anyways ? Definitely not the Golden Maknae.