losing you. || markhyuck

1. d.h.

"-okay so you already know everything, but for the protocol I've got to summarise everything once again. First of all food is important. I'm well aware of your job and the duties but following my orders, you gotta stop with starving, dieting, whatever. It's really important for your health to get enough vitamins and nutrients. Secondly, you have to take care of yourself, the best thing would be if youd stop doing any sort of sport or working out. I'm sure you can't skip your practices, but that should be the most you do. Resting is important, at least 8 hours sleep a day. And lastly the most important thing, take your meds! Do not forget or skip! ...Well, I guess that's it for today. See you next week again, stay healthy!"

And I just walk out once again.

"Goodbye mister lee." The entrance woman says and I just nod as an answer, because I only want to get away from here.

While I go outside and put my hood over my head, I throw the fucking white plastic bag into the trash.

I don't need this shit.

Suddenly someone taps me on my shoulder and when I turn around I look exactly at Johnny's chest. I raise the glance to his face and an angry glare welcomes me, our eyes meet and he points at a bag.

I'm screwed.

"Is this what I think it is?"

"I-i don't know what you're talking about... why are you here by the way?"

"Stop trying to change the topic. I came exactly because of this. Why are you doing that?"

"You don't understand..." I mumble slightly embarrassed.

I mean he is right, but that doesn't change anything.

"Do you keep avoiding him?" He's really good at finding exactly the worst and most uncomfortable topics.

"We broke up."

No actually I did.

"YOU DID WHAT"

"you understood me."

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU"

I now become angry too "STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO ITS NOT YOUR BUSINESS"

he comes towards me and pulls me in a tight hug. "I know and I'm sorry. It's all your decision, I'm just so worried about you."

I try to smile and hug back.

While we stand like this in the busy street, stressed out people walk next to us and come across, but we stay still.

Then we leave towards his café as usual and he starts rambling about his favourite topic: ten.

Since they're engaged, the only thing he's talking about currently is wedding plans.

"And I really found some awesome locations, you know ten asked me to do some research, and I can show you, you would be the first..."

I begin to zone out again and walk quietly next to him. As we reach the café I can already spot that all of the tables are full, it seems to be popular these days.

The few workers are really overwhelmed and I feel sorry for them. Johnny sends me an excusing glance and points at them.

"I'm sorry, I know I promised you to hang out today again, but you see they need my help..."

"don't worry. I can help too if you want, I dont have anything better to do anyways."

He hesitates, but as he looks back at the café situation, he finally agrees. "Okay. But if it's too much, stop immediately, you know what your doctor says. Go to jungwoo and he will show you around."

I know I have to work as a waiter, because I failed so bad with the coffee making the last time, he won't ever let me do this again.

Jungwoo appears right in front of me and I'm immediately swamped with his presence, as he starts to call me pet names and hugs me. As he is explaining the job to me, I also say hello to the other worker, doyoung.

"Can I do something for you- oh hey jeno!"
Jeno is Johnny's little brother and due to this always spending his time around here. He also goes to the same school as my little brothers so he was spending time at my house once I visited there.

But I refuse having a conversation with him now, because I don't want to disappoint johnny, so I ask further, take orders and deliver drinks and cakes.

Suddenly I remember something and start to cough uncontrollably.

The letter.

I found the envelope on top of my bed today and didn't think much of it, but when I opened it, I revealed a heartbreaking text from mark and I felt worse than before.

I've been pondering about it and came to the final conclusion I had to answer something.

But what?

"Doyoung?"

"Yes, hyuck what's up?"

"How can you reject someone who confesses to you, so they won't bother?"

"Ehm, I'm not sure what you mean..."

"imagine you get a confession letter, but you don't like the person and they annoy you, so you just want them to stop, what would you do?"

"Well I guess I would reply harshly." He frowns "but I don't think this would happen anyways."

"So if they write i love you, you'd answer what?" I smile innocently and he looks at me like I'm crazy

"probably something like, stop it or don't or get some help. But are you really sure you want to do that? The poor person and their feelings!"

"Oh I think they will be fine. Thanks a lot. See you later."

No obviously he won't.

It hurts to do this, but it's actually better for him.

Anytime he will understand and thank me.

As i finish the last letter of don't, my sight begins to become blurry, so I pack it back in the envelope and stuff it into my backpack, to give it to him later.

It starts to become darker outside and the sun is setting so johnny starts to bring all the tables and chairs inside and clean the floor.

He suggests me to wait for him, but I have a sudden idea, so i excuse me and walk into the night.

I go straight to the building I hate and love the most at the same time and walk into the entrance hall where I search for a certain person to talk to.

Eventually I find them and start to explain my concern.