losing you. || markhyuck

5. l.m.

I stopped watching him, it just makes me feel bad, confused and really concerned at the same time, why anyone would do this to themselves.

Probably I have started to move on, sometimes I do talk again and I can see the relieve in my members faces so I feel stupid to have acted like that, they really had to be worried.

Currently I'm also trying to decrease my alcohol consum but it's hard.

The only thing that helps me with that is eating, so I'm heading to the kitchen to munch on my fifth apple for today, because I have to eat vegetables and fruits to stay fit and slim, idols can't be fat.

Suddenly I hear a voice, donghyucks voice.

"No why?"

He seems to be on a call with someone and certainly not happy.

I decide to overhear, maybe I can find out something interesting.

"This shit doesn't change anything anyways."

That actually sounds bad, I hope it's about his relationship.

Even if it's mean, I really dont care.

"Yes maybe I do!...yes I know, I'm sorry. Me too. Bye"

damn the ending doesn't sound good for me.

Aish it sounds like a 'I love you, yeah me too' good bye.

All of a sudden he storms out of the room and glares at me.

"Did you want something?" He hisses.

"n-no I was on the way to the kitchen."

"Well then go ahead." He just harshly growls and slams the door.

Damn.

I finally want to know what exactly is going on.

And I will.

Because according to taeil, the other group will have practice later, I've got enough time to sneak into the room and hopefully get some essential informations.

So I do exactly that and wow, ten and donghyuck are really chaotic and messy.

The only problem is, I don't even know what to search and what I am looking for. So I work myself slowly through some things, pick up some clothes, read a note.

Nothing special or interesting at all.

Until something catches my eyes, I come across the trashbin and there are some suspicious packages inside.

Looks like...medical stuff or something, but before I can read anything or take a closer look, someone raises their voice and catches my attention.

"What the heck do you think are you doing?"

Fuck I am dead meat.

"Ehm I just...."

"You just what? Searching through other peoples stuff? Go the fuck out of here before I forget myself."

Was this really the boy I love so much?

He sounds so different now.

I finally look at him and am shocked to see his current state: dark circles under his eyes, topped with eyebags and messy hair.

Because he wears just an average tshirt I notice his arms are basically just bones and skin.

While checking him out in the worst way possible, he starts pushing me out and I just hear the quick click of the lock through the silence.