losing you. || markhyuck

6. d.h.

Sweating I wake up in my bed. I had a very scary nightmare, I can't completely remember, I'm just sure it's about mark, he appears in my recent ones frequently.

Normally I would try to sleep again, but I have to use the toilet now, so I walk to the bathroom.

When I enter the room again, yangyang stands in front of me, really distraught.

"D-donghyuck."

Confused I glance at him, what's his problem?

"Y-you..." he whimpers and a tear drops on his cheek.

I'm still not getting his point and stay there with a questioning face.

He then points next to him, I follow his finger and shit.

Well I can understand him now.

The white sheets on top of my bed are covered with a red liquid.

Blood.

Like automatic I raise my hand and touch my face and as I look at my fingers, the sticky red substance is there too.

Suddenly I feel dizzy and yangyang is still standing there, totally shocked and haggard.

I run out of the room, back into the bathroom and behold something atrocious.

My whole face is bloody and I look like a zombie.

But I can't see any cuts or something so i extrapolate I got nosebleed.

That's not good.

That's in fact really damn fucking bad.

I clean myself up, slightly disgusted and strip my shirt down to wash it later.

I head back to the room, hoping yangyang is not having a breakdown now, but he isn't alone anymore.

Kun stands at his side, talking to him slow.

I'm really embarrassed yangyang had to see this, but also glad kun handles this situation for me.

"Hyuck just had a nosebleed while sleeping, no big deal, maybe he hit himself or something, right donghyuck?" He kinda hisses at me, expecting a good agree.

"Yes sure, sorry to scare you, I had this some years ago too. Everything is fine just gonna change the sheets now..."

awkwardly I walk towards the bed and try to avoid the glares.

"I'll help him. You can already go, no need to wait for me." Kun added and now I realize why they are awake, because of their schedule of course.

"You have to control this in any way. We can't allow other people noticing." He snapps at me and is obvious right.

"But what can I do about it?" My voice breaks and a single tear flows down. My dizziness doesnt fade, so I sit down on the bloodstained bed. "It won't go away." I sob and he comes near.

"I know. And I didn't mean to be so harsh." I'm amazed how he manages to stay this calm, but I suspect he isn't at all.

Just trying to be strong in front of me.

And I appreciate it.

So I try to be extra careful the next days, to avoid another incident like this and also take some more medics for the first time in length, everything to not disappoint kun.

Slowly it's getting physical better, I don't feel that weak anymore and can do stuff normally, so my mood raises as well.

That's a sign for me recovering, and I begin going to the recording studio again, I'm not really sure about doing sport in this extent again, therefore I'm just doing some not completely exhausting stuff for two to three hours daily.

Kun has also noticed I'm getting well again, and seems really relieved about it, he even invited me to a restaurant and payed for everything.

Johnny insists that this is all on his credits, as he forced me to take the medicine and for no discussion I always agree to him.

Maybe I can go back to the group, back to mark anytime.

That's one thing I wish for now.