losing you. || markhyuck

3.

I'm lying on my bed, wrapped in warm and snug blankets and don't ever want to leave this place, as someone knocks at my door.

I don't answer and get slight déjà vu feelings, because last time this happened, someone died a few hours later.

A special someone.

But this time the door isn't locked so the person doesn't have to break it down.

The person that comes in is kun and I'm not sure how to feel about it, so I don't welcome him, probably hoping he would think I'm asleep.

But seems like i can't fool him, he is sitting down on my bed, next to me. "Hey." I hum something and awkward silence falls over us.

Then I can't take it anymore and raise my voice. "What are you doing here?"

"Right." He picks something up and passes it to me, it's a small plastic box and as I look inside, theres a cd. Baffled I glance at it, because I have no idea why he would give me a cd and why it would be relevant in any way.

"He...told me to give it to you. Apparently it's what he's been working on for so long."

I hold it careful, fearing to break this fragile and precious thing. Slowly reaching for the cd player in the corner of my room and put it in, again cautiously.

I'm not sure what to expect, a song, a voicemail or anything else. I press the play button and wait anxious.

Should've stayed, were there signs, I ignored?
Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore?
We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep
There are things that we can have, but can't keep

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

The reminders pull the floor from your feet
In the kitchen, one more chair than you need oh
And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair
Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it, isn't there

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

Well I do

Damn.

That was the most beautiful thing I've ever heard.

And those lyrics are really perfect.

I don't even notice kun still being in my room, while I play the song once more, but I guess he's equally moved. "When...did he do this?"

He pats my shoulder and I answer myself mentally, in the recording studio of course, "he spent his whole downtime with writing and recording. He told me his last wish would be to finish this and give it to you. He couldn't."

He gulps and brushes a tear away "I did. I mixed the rest together and now I'm passing it to you. He really loved you, you know?"

I chuckle lightly "Yeah. I know. I do too."

He breaks the silence once more and asks me if I wanted to go out, first i hesitate, I'm not in the mood to meet other people, but according to him, that's the best way and first step to move on for not falling into nothing, so I agree finally.

We walk along a big road and don't talk, but this time it's more comfortable, because we both are reflecting and sorting our thoughts.

I guess other people think we're drug addicts or something, with our zombie like appearance. I think we're heading to Johnny's café, but I follow him quiet.

We reach the destination and it's the café, however we're not going inside as I thought, but we pick up johnny and another guy I don't know really good and eat out in a nice restaurant in another district.

As we have a table, we decide to ask yuta if he'd like to come as well and I get flashback moments regarding the old times. The other accepts the offer and appears a bit later.

I have to admit that kuns idea was actually pretty good, because I'm really having a good time here.

Johnny is telling us about his final wedding plans and how he will invite us, kun adds funny stories about his members and I as well about mine, while it's hilarious to watch yutas less good attempts to flirt with the other dude, sicheng, who doesn't seem too happy with the current situation.

I figured out that he's also part of way 2 go and came after the practice to the café, where kun called him to stay, that we can pick them up.

Also I feel a bit embarrassed because of my earlier hatred against kun, because he wasn't obviously at any fault, and I blamed him for everything.

And he's also suffering too, so I might should comfort him as well, because right now it's just the opposite way.

I think we can get close again, like in the old days, with our little gang.

He always has this older brother and reassuring figure when were together so I hope we can spend more time together.