losing you. || markhyuck

5. d.h. x l.m.

I can't wait to get out of the car and follow Johnny's wide steps.

He skips the entrance and goes directly towards the staircase, he must already know the way.

I notice how ten grabs his hand and feel lonely immediately, also thinking how i had the same with the person I'm visiting now.

Taeyong walks in a short distance behind me and jaehyun appears from the back, arriving at the same time as us.

Henceforth I'm the only single person here.

We stop at the fifth floor and go through an automatic glassdoor into a wide hallway.

I scrunch my nose because of the gross smell of disinfection stuff and sick people.

Johnny heads fast forward, not even spending a glance at us, just sometimes greeting a nurse or doctor whilst the way.

Then, at the end of the hallway, he pulls a stop in front of a door. "We're here. Does anyone want to go first?"

Everybody just looks at him in disbelief and he sighs and opens the door himself. One after one follows him and finally we're inside.

But not a chance to see donghyuck, kun is covering him with his body and johnny is standing in front of the bed as well.

"Hey." Kun begins, and I notice how terrible he looks "I don't know if johnny already told you, but donghyuck is not good. We don't know if he's awake or not, so he's probably not speaking. Just want to prepare you."

He looks sadly at the wall behind us and nods then. "alright. But please try not to be loud."

He moves away and johnny automatic too and I'm able to see further into the now available space.

A bare hospitalbed, a heart frequency monitor and lots of cables, that's all I can behold.

I take one step forward.

And another one.

And I spot the pure horror.

It's donghyuck yeah, but not my donghyuck.

He is pale, his usual bronzed face now white.

Also his head is bald and his eyes closed.

As I look particularly I notice his cheeks are sunken and cheekbones are more dominant, he looks famished.

I choke and suppress a yell of pain.

What happened to my precious donghyuck?

I can't even see him breathing and moving, why isn't he moving?

WHY ISN'T HE FUCKING MOVING!?

WHO DID THIS TO HIM?

I breathe heavier, trying not to collapse and my brain hurts.

That can't be real right?

That's just a nightmare my stupid mind imagines.

Suddenly I hear sobs and someone lays his hand in my shoulder.

Oh.

Those are my sobs and tears.

No.

This can't be donghyuck.

No.

NO.

FUCKING NO.

A burning pain in my upper body appears.

Right on my chest.

On my heart.

Donghyuck is lying there lifeless and the heart frequency monitor is beeping.