losing you. || markhyuck

1.

it's donghyuck, sitting in a foreign room, in front of a white wall with a poster of a rock band.

I don't know from when the video is, but he doesn't look healthy there as well.

His head is nearly bald, and his face serious.

He looks straight to the camera, then noticing something and he picks a beanie up from next to him and covers his baldness.

"Alright." His voice sounds dry and raspy "I guess it has happened now?"

He chuckles lightly "are you all here? Did you get him here as well?"

That's probably a reference on kun.

"first of all I'm sorry. Yeah I know I kept it from you, but it was better that way. To my band members."

He gulps and tries to smile, "thank you for everything. You made my life a better one. I can't imagine something more great than living with you. I've never regretted my decision."

I look around, taeyong is silently sobbing, while jaehyun tries to comfort and embrace him, also with tears glittering on his face.

Taeil is constantly holding a tissue to wipe of any tears and ten is staring into empty space, also with watered eyes.

"And to all the way 2 go members, you all were so good friends and I really enjoyed the time staying with you. I wish you all the best."

They seem to be the strangers sitting there, next to Qian kun, also sobbing with the rest of us. I think I slightly recognize some of their faces from some pictures or articles.

Donghyuck goes on, even quieter than before, maybe holding himself back from crying.

"Taeyong, you were the best leader I could've imagined and also a great friend, please stay like this. "

latter is covering his face with both hands and shaking

"jaehyun, you've always been like an older brother for me."

He is nodding and mouthing some words

"taeil, I could joke with nobody like you. I hope you'll stay happy."

A stranger is hugging him and giving him new tissues, probably that's his never introduced boyfriend.

"Oh ten." He takes a break and breathes heavily, like to calm himself down "you were the best roommate I could've imagined and you also had my back. Stay happy with johnny."

Both are lying cuddling on a couch, comforting each other.

"Now to my best friend."

Did he really skip me?

"Johnny. Well I'm staying at your apartment right now."

He starts to laugh but ends up in coughing badly so needs a few seconds.

"Damn I can't imagine a life without you. I owe you so much and I'm sorry I can't pay it back. What would I do without your constant helping, caring and visiting? I'm so sorry I caused you all this trouble and pain. You're one of the best people I've ever met. Ten can call himself lucky for being engaged with such an amazing person."

He smiles sadly and shivers lightly

"another important person for me. Kun."

I'm not sure if I want to hear this.

"I can't even describe how fucking precious and amazing you are. If anyone would ask me what platonic love means, I would call you first. You don't question things, you support me first. When I came to you, needing a place to stay, you said yes without asking. When i told you i was sick, you held back your emotions for me. You deserve the best."

He wipes some tears of the edges of his eyes.

"Wow. I didn't plan to cry now. Anyways now comes the hardest part. Mark lee. You wouldn't even believe me if I'd tell you how much I love you. And I hurt you all over again and again. I'm so fucking sorry. I know that doesn't make anything better."

He's ignoring the tears flowing down

"and you deserve better, so much better than me. You see why I broke up? I didn't want you to go through that pain. But I guess that didn't work out right."

"You're such an idiot." I answer him in a whisper

"if you just would've moved on.... you remember when we first met?"

"One cappuccino for me please."

oh my god, I'm so excited, only a few more hours until my first practice as a trainee. I really hope I won't disgrace myself.

"Here you.....fuck."

"are you fucking dumb? Aish, I'm all full of coffee now."

The brown liquid is dripping from my skin and I'm really annoyed because I have no time to change clothes.

"I-I'm really sorry sir. I can get you a new one?"

"No thanks."

And I leave this shitty place.

I'm currently on a phone call with yuta, heading my way to the practice as I bump against a stranger, urging me to let my phone drop.

"Watch your way! Wait." I scan his features, he's the stupid waiter that spilled coffee all over me "again? Really? You're actually dumb."

I roll my eyes, pick up my phone, not waiting for an answer and go on. After a few minutes I take a glimpse over my shoulder and he's still there.

Slightly anxious I start to walk faster and
glance back again and he's there. "Are you following or stalking me?"

"Dude you're being delusional. You're just taking my way."

He sasses back and passing me.

He's actually taking the same way and when he stops I notice we have the same destination.

Inside the building our ways are parting up and I can finally go to the practice.

"So you all are training together for now on. You can introduce yourself now."

No way. The coffee idiot is a trainee too?

And also training with me?

That'll be a great time if I have to be in charge of braincells.

"That was funny right? You really hated me back then." He chuckles at the memory  and I sadly smile back. "I found you already cute back then."