My Somewhat Terrible Mother

8/18/2020 | 8/19/2020

8/18/2020:
9:16 pm:

Ok so now we're back to keeping my phone outside the bathroom when I shower? Literally I thought everything went back to normal.

Basically for a run down, when I got my phone taken away around July 11/12, I got it back a few days later except with restrictions. Not having it while I shower, and not being able to have it when I go to bed are two of them. And I abided to it (mainly the shower one). I'm just a little irritated bc I thought we went back to the way it was before July 12th. But I guess not? Jfc. It's not that bad.

8/19/2020:
7:05 pm:

So my mom just had a "talk" with me about how she wants to continue to take my phone away at night. Which makes no fucking sense. I've been doing good having it like normal. I use it for my alarms. And yes, I'm saying it again, Alexa alarms aren't as accurate as my iPhone alarms. So I'm pissed off. Idk how I'm gonna correctly wake up for school, online and in-person, if I don't have my phone. I've already explained this to her before and she doesn't listen for shit. I'm over it. I'm done. I've been done. I've been over it. I don't wanna do this fucking bullshit anymore. I hate her with a passion. I can't wait to move out and say "fuck you" and cut off all contact with her.

Imma have to charge my iPod and make sure I keep it hidden. I've been doing a good job of that so far. I'm just glad my mom has taught me everything about how to not be a mom. So I know what not to do, which in turn let's me know what to do.

7:10 pm:

I honestly just want my own apartment with my boyfriend so we both can be happy and I can be away from my mom: the current source of my depression.

9:13 pm:

I think I'm fucked.

10:27 pm:

Well so far I'm not fucked but I'm anxious as shit.

11:30 pm:

I'm 95% sure I'm not fucked lmao.