Your Love is Unkind

Roomies

He had fluffy hair and a big smile. Not just one of those plastered smiles you would see on people, attempting to be friendly. His smile was more genuine. It felt like I had always know him even though it was our first time meeting, he was happy to see me. But also it might have been the fact that I looked foolish with no shirt on.

We awkwardly walked towards each other, he lowers his head in an attempt to hide his grin but his eyes continued fixed on me. And it hits me, he was didn't think I looked foolish at all. And for the first time in a long time, I felt desirable.

I wanted to greet him but the walk down the hall now seemed a little shameful and I slid right past him and continue my route. I looked back and sure enough he was looking back too. And even though I didn't feel an initial attraction for him, I was excited someone noticed me.

After what seemed to be the longest walk to my room. I lightly tap at the door and I can hear objects falling as Byungchan's footsteps get closer. He unlocks the door and only slightly opens it.

"Before you come in and before you say anything, I promise it will look better when I'm done", he whines a little.

Hesitant, I proceed with caution; The room is filled with more of Byungchan's belongings. And I get a sense that he's not just visiting anymore. My guess is that Byungchan is here to stay.

And just as I predicted, he shyly smiles at me. I can tell the words are hard to say for him. So I just nod to reassure him, "You don't even have to ask, you can stay". Again and like always, Byungchan's eyes well up.

"Stop", I shout, protesting the emotional moment.

"Wait, why don't you have a shirt on", He finally notices. The smirk on my face might have given everything away. "Hold on, you didn't sleep here", He concludes.

"It's nothing, just-", I try to think of the right words to describe it. But all that comes to mind is "it's just nothing". And in a sense I wasn't completely wrong, I couldn't let my heart get carried away thinking last night meant something.