Your Love is Unkind

Past Ghost

As I stand there stiff in his arms, the strange fluffy haired boy from earlier begins to chuckle. Drunk slurs begin to slip from his mouth as he pulls himself off my body.
"I didn't think you'd remember me 'Jun" , He find the wall behind him and slumps onto it, his face droopy and tears form in his eyes.

I feel guilty that I don't remember his face. Byungchan just so happens to be passing, clinging off one of his guest; Thank God he recognizes the stranger. Byungchan's facial expression changes as he notices that the mystery guy is sad.

He takes a hold of his face, cups his cheeks in his hands and begins to quietly console him. I creep closer to them, overheating Byungchan's whispers. "Don't start please, I told you this would happen if you mixed liquor and Sejun", he rolls his eyes a little. And it dawn on me, I know exactly who this is.

I hadn't seen him since we were 15 and he was still an awkward teenager. He and Byungchan were cousins and we would only see each other at birthday parties. I knew he had a crush on me then but, I was infatuated with Heojun, his older brother.

The last time we attended Byungchan's birthday party, Heochan had gathered the courage to let me know how he felt. And even though I didn't feel
the same for him, I couldn't bring myself to break his heart. I was Heochan's first real kiss during a game of spin the bottle that night. And his second kiss right before we parted ways.

He texted me once in a while, but I would always have an excuse for not having time for him. After a while the sweet text from him stopped coming. And the worst part was that I felt relieved. Heochan deserves love, just not from someone as broken as I was. Heochan would try to find the way to fix me and I just wanted to remain broken. Someone would have to love me as broken as I was.