Peter Pan: The Unspoken Truth

Entry #43

September 22, 1920
11:11 PM
Wendy Darling

Dear Journal,

It has been hours since the noises stopped from the other side of the room.

A low agonizing silence radiating through my body, making me nausea overtaking my entire body.

Sa pagkakatanda ko, halos dalawang oras na akong nakamukmok lang sa isang sulok at umiiyak sa buong gabi. Dinadamdam lahat ng sakit sa kaibuturan ng akong puso habang naririnig ang mga hiyaw ng aking mga kapatid.

Kagaya ng sinabi ng anino ay nasa gilid ko lang siya at nakatingin lang sa akin habang umiiyak ako.

I don't know when I stopped crying—all I know was that I stopped sobbing and choking in my tears and just went staring in the vastness of my room.

Nanatiling tahimik lang ako at wala sa sariling nakatunganga nalang, na para bang naubos na lahat ng luha ko dahil sa kakaiyak.

"Are they dead?" I asked coldly, without looking over to my side where the boy was.

Alam kong nakatingin siya sa akin ngayon habang iniisip ang dapat isagot sa tanong ko. Nababalot ng katahimikan at pawang mga tunog ng mga insekto sa labas ng bahay lang naririnig namin.

It took a while until he started to move his lips and create a sound.

"Stand, we will be going somewhere today," tipid na wika niya sa akin.

A coat of fear covered my body as he said that.

Where are we going? What's going to happen tonight?

My mind was a land mine just exploding different anxious thoughts as he pulled me up into a standing position and guiding me in another room just adjacent to the room where I was in.

"Tink, dress her up," he said to his little friend.

Bahagyang napasimangot ang maliit na babae dahil sa sinabing 'yon ng lalaki ngunit mabilis niya naman akong hinablot para lumapit sa kanya.

She kept talking to me but I can only hear tiny bells ringing, but I can sense her uneasiness and annoyance towards me as she started to comb my hair with so much force.

"Hey," I said, complaining after she yanked my tangled hair in such a force that I thought my hair was about to fall out of my scalp.

She blubbered a little bit but eventually stopped when she saw Peter Pan going inside the room where we were.

Sunundan ko ng tingin ang lalaki na siyang nakatitig sa mga mata ko.

"Where are we going? Where are my brothers?" tanong ko sa maliit na babae nang umalis na si Peter sa loob ng k'warto.

Parang nakalimutan ko naman hindi niya kayang magsalita kaya panay tunog ng maliliit na kampana lang ang natanggap kong tugon dito.

Hindi naglaon ay hinala na ako ng babae para isuot ang isang bestidang yari sa dahon, na may mga palamuting bulaklak.

Tinulungan niya akong hubarin ang madumi kong damit at sa isang iglap lang ay lumutang ang naturang damit pataas para hulmang masuot ko ng madali.

She polished my look by blowing gold dust on my face which I wasn't sure what help it did to make me look decent.

She then pushed me outside the room revealing to me Peter Pan sitting with his legs crossed in the living room area.

He stood up after seeing me and looked like he was inspecting the entirety of my soul.

"Let's go," he said, shaking his head after a couple of seconds.

Sumunod lang ako sa kanyang lukiran na parang asong sumusunod sa amo nito.

Ginabayan niya ako palabas at gamit sa isang kumpas lang ay umulan sa ibabaw ng ulo namin ang mga gintong alikabok.

"Look," he said, pointing at my feet.

I looked at where he was pointing and almost lost balance when I realized I was floating in thin air again.

I panicked for a second making me cling to his right arm.

Nagtama ang aming mga mata habang mahigpit akong nakakapit sa bisig niya.

"Think of happy thoughts," he exclaimed, making me close my eyes.

Before I know it, we were zooming through the night sky, like we were birds and shooting stars—but I was the lost star under this stunning yet hideous night sky.

There was a sudden jolt of feelings in my chest as I opened my eyes to invite the moon's light into my vision—my brothers are dead and I will be joining them soon.

Why must I suffer alone without them with me? I feel dead.

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A/N: I am so sorry for being inactive for the past few days. I was busy with online class and the whole adjusting period was torture. So, hopefully I could cope up soon and eventually manage my time so I could update more. Anyways, I hope you guys are healthy and safe at the moment. Thank you for reading!