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Just wanted to reiterate how much I appreciate you guys. I almost have 1k reads!!! I'm so excited :)

 I almost have 1k reads!!! I'm so excited :)

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Wednesday, October 7th

After leaving the dance studio, I feel completely drained. My leotard is soaked in sweat and my body is incredibly warm. Harry asked if he could accompany me to the studio, but I told him I didn't want him to see my routine until the recital, which he eagerly agreed to go to.

After I came home yesterday morning from spending the night at Harry's, I spent an hour fighting off Mackenzie's questions about Harry-most of them involving him in bed. Even though her questions were invasive and ridiculous, it's hard not to love how direct and open she is, she is really... something.

Harry's interview airs today, it's being uploaded to YouTube, and Mack said she wanted to watch it with me, so I am heading home to do so. A part of me is nervous, like he is going to say something that I won't like, and a part of me feels bad for watching it in the first place. I mean, it's not like Harry gets to watch interviews of me talking about myself; it seems unfair that I get to learn more about him this way and he is unable to reciprocate.

The drive home is quiet, I play the radio softly so I can just focus on my thoughts. I'm worried Harry and I are getting too serious, I really am. If I think back to everything that's happened in the past month, it freaks me out, honestly. He's coaxed me out of a panic attack, and I've done the same for him, he's hiring lawyers for my best friend so we can help her put her attacker behind bars... I've met his bandmates, I've met his ex-manager, I've met his designers and even got to offer my opinions...

It feels surreal, but it feels right. So, I am completely conflicted on how to feel. A part of me thinks this relationship is a terrible idea, I know I am going to be totally heartbroken when he goes, but I also don't think I could end it now, I'm too consumed by him.

When I pull into my parking lot, I let out a sigh and decide to think about this later. Right now, I am going to have fun hanging out with my best friend and there's no time for me to be moping around.

As I open the door to the apartment, I hear Mack's bubbly voice booming from the living room. "Luna, get your perfect ass in here! I was getting impatient and almost started watching this without you!"

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