YOUR HEART KNOWS IT

PART 16

I dialed Daphne to come to the office immediately. I'm pretty sure she knows the reason why. I watch her argue with herself outside maybe practicing her excuses before she made her way to my desk.

"What was that?" I said.

"What?"

"You know exactly what I mean" I looked at her directly in the eye making sure she gets that I'm actually pissed off

"Sorry?" She said in a low voice.

"Not forgiven," I bluntly said

"But why? Flute is a nice guy"

"So?"

"He probably just wanted to know you better"

"Oh so now you are admitting you did allow him to enter the Kitchen without even asking me first"

"He wasn't actually gonna roam around the kitchen coincidentally your office is located within the kitchen" I stayed silent not because I do not have an answer to that but I don't want to make this more of a big deal and I hate long conversations that don't lead anywhere.

"What does he want?" She must have felt awkward that she tries to lighten up the mood.

"None of your business," I said in a stern voice.

"Ouch, you are not gonna make this a big deal between us are you?"

"No I'm not but I'm still mad at you"

"Come on. It's not like he's going to ask you to marry him. Just think of it as a friendly date"

"But we're not friends Dee why don't you go with him then you are 'friends' right?" I said as I leaned back on my chair

"Uhhhh- That's different. Well I think it's time for you to add some on your list"

"No thanks. You guys are enough"

"But honey it never hurts to add one"

"I said NO"

"Rachel"

"What?!" I don't know if I said it too loud because when I looked at Daphne her eyes are welling up.

"Oh Dee I'm sorry I didn't mean to say it so loud"

"No, it's okay," she said as she tries to stop her tears.

"Are you sure? it looks like you are about to cry"

"No, I'm not," she said but cried anyway.

"Dee I'm sorry I'm not really angry at you I'm a little pissed off but not angry," I said as I pulled her into a hug

"Yes I understand but it's not that"

"Okay???" Now I'm feeling nervous. What did I do? Did I say something? I mean I'm supposed to be the one who's mad right but why is she crying. Dee never cried for simple things.

"It's the crying spells," she said in between sobs. Now I'm totally confused.

"Rachel I'm pregnant"

"Okay"

"Wait what?!" My shock can be totally eminent from my face.

"I'm pregnant Rachel"

"Yes I heard you," I said and fell into silence.

My foot rammed at the pedal as I make a sudden turn. I was on my way back to the restaurant when I got a sudden call from the hospital and I'm so nervous that I almost hit the traffic barricade placed near the ongoing excavations on the side of the road. What do you think happened? I asked myself.

Three weeks ago Dee found out she was two months pregnant and choose to announce it at their dinner party. I was ecstatic of the news and so was David, Cynthia, and most especially Justin. She waited for the other guests to leave before telling the surprise to her soon to be husband as we were cozying up at their living room. Both of them were over the moon if only you could have seen their faces at that time. Who would not be? That night she was in a jovial mood and I was so happy for her that at last she was blessed to be a mother, after everything that she's been through the only thing that is missing for her life to be complete as she said, is a child. A child she can raise on her own and one day call her 'Mama'.

But a week after that she always complained of sudden pain in her shoulder and a crampy feeling in her pelvic region. I told her to consult a doctor in an instant but she said it might be a common thing for first-time moms. I insisted on a maternity leave instead because I heard that the first trimester of pregnancy is often the hardest. But now what is this feeling? Why was she frantically crying over the phone earlier? Where the hell is Justin?!

I arrived at the hospital feeling anxious. I opened the door to Dee's room but she wasn't there. I run to the nurse station and asked where she might be and they told me she was currently in the operating room.

"Operating Room. Why?" I asked

"Apparently the patient suffered from an ectopic pregnancy it ruptured and caused internal bleeding to the mother"

"Ecto-- What is it again?"

"Ectopic pregnancy meaning the egg grew outside of the uterus of a woman. In her case, there was a complication so they had to perform surgery right away. I wonder why she has not consulted with an OB-GYN immediately after finding out she was pregnant. Good thing someone was with her at their house and brought her here the bleeding could have lead to death " the nurse said, Joanah her nameplate reads.

"Which means?"

"The fetus is no way to survive. I'm sorry" an hour has passed and the Doctor came out of the Operating Room. I stood up from the waiting area to talk to him.

"The surgery went well the patient is now at the recovery room, I'm sorry but there's no other way that we could have done," the Doctor said. I could not remember if I said thank you but I nodded and went back to the seat I left earlier.

I didn't know what to feel at that time, and I had no idea how to console Dee. It sure as hell hurts to be in her position.

Maybe forty minutes after Dee was brought back to her room. She was still a little groggy from the anesthesia but as soon as she saw me she broke down into tears. I let her cry until she drifted back to sleep again. I stayed with her all night till the next morning waiting, waiting for Justin.

Where the hell is that man? Dee needs her right now but I have not seen him show up since yesterday. How do I comfort Dee? How do I bring solace to someone who just lost a child? When all she ever hoped for is the feeling of becoming a mother.