YOUR HEART KNOWS IT

PART 50: Daphne Part 2

The monsoon does not seem to stop as it has been four nights since the rain started.
I've been sitting here for hours reckoning what am I supposed to do.

Justin has been calling and texting me endlessly and I know for sure he's outside, I saw his car parked in front of the gate since midnight but I left him be. Nothings gonna be able to change my mind now not even his mom who keeps on calling me to give his son another chance. No! I said but the other half of me is telling me to go and open the door, it's raining and I'm sure he has not eaten anything yet. No! I said to myself again, he's old enough to take care of himself. He should have seen this coming. No woman will make a fool of themselves and take a man back after everything that he has done. The hell with him!

I heard the gate being opened but I pretended not to hear anything. A few minutes have passed and he started banging on the door.

"Daphne!"
"Daphne, baby... I'm sorry" he shouted.
" I'm sorry" he keeps on screaming and God help me I wanted to open the door so badly I keep on crying the whole time. My phone keeps on beeping and I understand that my friends are concerned about my well-being but I just want to be alone right now thankfully for Rachel she knows better than anyone else about solitude no offense to David and Cynthia but damn! Arghhh!!! I'm going crazy. I love him, I do but it's just so hard for me.

Mhaegan's shriek got me up from my seat and I hurriedly went to check. The day has depressingly gone by that I think it's almost six in the morning just in time for our maid's daily routine. I was wondering what made her scream I arrived downstairs but she wasn't inside the house. When I finally opened the front door I was perplexed that Justin was still there all curled up on the floor trembling.

"Justin," I said, but he wasn't answering.
"Justin wake up" but still no answer.
"Stop acting, get up, and get out of here!" Our maid was giving me the stare but I didn't care. This is just one of his acts and I won't fall for it again.

We stayed there not more than five minutes but feels like an hour with Mhaegan's constant questions of what we should do about him. Just go back inside! I tried to tell myself but my conscience is eating me. I look closely at the man who hasn't changed his attire since our last conversation and something caught my attention that I got down on my knees to nudge him but as I got closer I knew he wasn't acting all along.

"Help me here," I said to Mhaegan and put one arm each over our shoulders, and brought him inside the house. We lay him on the sofa my hands holding his still shaking hands. It's a good thing my company knows what she needs to do and bring while I started to help Justin with his clothes. His garments are soaked head to toe from sweat but most probably from the rain that has been pouring overnight. I was on the verge of crying, feeling remorseful thinking this is all my fault.

Few hours have passed since the incident and I can't help but blame myself, I made a cup of coffee and sat down beside him peacefully sleeping on our sofa. Gladly his temperature has subsided I was going to call an Ambulance had it been the same as earlier.

Was it too harsh of me? Would it have been life-threatening if Mhaegan was not there to discover him? Would I have opened the door otherwise? You stupid fool! Now it's your fault?!!

"Daphne," a familiar voice said. It would be a cliche if I ran into his arms again like the last time. No! I told myself.
" You're awake" I subtly said and place the mug carefully on top of the center table.
"I'm sorry," he said weakly but I did not respond.
"Please forgive me, I can't live without you"
"You should rest" I was about to storm out of the room knowing that just one more word from him and I might go running in his arms again. Yes, I tried to back out but he was already hugging me tightly from the waist. Now forget everything that I said because I concede I am a fool when it comes to love.
"It's okay," I said. "It's okay" and started crying. He stood up and put me into a tight embrace. I hugged him back crying loudly on his shoulders saying it's all my fault over and over again.
"Shhhh, don't cry no it's not. I love you will you marry me?"

"What??" He was staring directly at me and it's making me crazy that I'm still helpless in front of that face. I looked away. However, his right hand immediately reached for my face making me stare at those brown eyes.

"Marry me"

"But--" He suddenly kissed my lips and I was more stunned that I didn't refrain myself from kissing him back.

"Justin I-- " I pushed him back with all my might but I can't help but moan when his hands started traveling giving a tingling sensation on my body.

"No, wait!" Believe me, I tried to stop him but I got caught up in the moment. Call it Deja Vu I melted in his words and forgot everything that day. Perhaps it was my fault, everything he did, everything that caused fiasco in this relationship was actually because of me.

"I love you and I want to spend my life with you," he said in between kisses. "Marry me. Please say yes. Again"

"Yes," I said catching my breath and maybe that prompt him to carry me bridal style to our room and here I thought he was sick.