Insecurity

Chapter 19

Ella's POV:

"Everyone move away! Give her some space!" My mom yelled.

Everyone backed up. Suddenly, someone grabbed me and held me bridal style. I looked up to see Lucas. I'm surprised he can even hold me.

He held me to the car. He then put me in the backseat, getting in also. I laid down and put my head on his legs. He stroked my hair as my mom steered us out of the driveway.

The ride there took thirty minutes. Half the time, I was screaming. It was so painful. Soon we were there.

I waddled into the hospital, holding Lucas's hand. I sat down while Lucas checked me in. Soon a wheelchair was brought to me. I sat in it and soon we were off to my room.

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I crawled into my bed and covered myself with my blanket. Soon a doctor came in.
"Hello, Ms. Daniels. Im Dr. Harris. I'm your doctor today! I'm going to see how much you have dilated." He said.

I nodded in reply.
"You're 5 centimeters dilated. That's very good!" He replied.

I suddenly grabbed his coat and pulled him to me. We were face to face.
"Drugs! Now!" I ordered.
"Yes ma'am. We'll get right on that." He implied.

A little while later, a nurse walked in and gave me two epidural shots in the back. I grit my teeth through the pain. It wasn't close to what labor pains felt like.

Soon the lower half of my body went numb. I couldn't feel anything. I looked at the screen. My contractions were going everywhere, and I didn't feel a thing.

The doctor came in each hour to see where I was. 6 centimeters, 6.5. This was taking forever. Finally it was time.
"Okay. You're at ten centimeters. It's time to push." He said.

All the pain came rushing back. I grasped the sheets on my bed. Okay. Time to push. My legs were spread out as the doctor sat in the middle of it all.

I pushed.

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10.

I breathed. I then pushed again.

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10

This went on for awhile. Until Dr. Harris saw the head. I smiled. This was all worth it. I can do this. I pushed the hardest I've ever pushed before. I then felt relief.

I heard a cry.
"It's a boy." Dr. Harris said.

They cut his umbilical cord off and wrapped him up in a blanket. The nurse put him in my arms. He was so beautiful.

I put my finger to his tiny hand as he grasped it.
"I'm your mommy." I said with glee.
"Can I hold him?" Lucas asked.
"Okay... Don't drop him!" I panicked.
"I got him. I got him." His eyes were full of love.
"Time for the next one." Dr. Harris said.
"Do I have to?" I asked in whiny voice.
"Yes. You have to." The doctor replied.

The pain came again. This was worse. I pushed. I pushed again. The doctor had a look of worry on his face.
"Stop. The baby is breeched. She's coming out by the butt. This is very dangerous so we will need to do a c-section." He said.

I started panicking. What will happen? Am I going to die? Many questions were going through my head. I never asked them though. I just nodded.

I trusted this doctor. He delivered one baby. He can deliver another.
"Okay. We'll get you a head cap, sir. The nurses will wheel you into the operation room in a few minutes." He said.

I nodded again. Soon enough the nurses came in. They wheeled me to the operation room. Lucas was holding my hand the whole way.

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This big blue sheet was in front of me so I couldn't see the birth. Lucas was beside me, stroking my hair. He told me what was happening.

They gave me a shot so I was numb again. My eyes shifted from the blue sheet to Lucas. That's all I looked at. Lucas kept the conversation going. Trying to keep my mind off of things.
"Oh! Oh! She's here!" He was filled with joy.

I heard my baby's cry. I was crying tears of joy once I heard it. Lucas kissed my lips.
"She's perfect in every way. Beautiful." He talked.

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I sat on my bed with Lucas at my side. My two babies were in my arms. Avril yawned which made both of us laugh.

I decided for them to have Lucas's last name. They are his children. He is the one. Lucas then asked me a very special question.
"Ella? Will you marry me?" He asked.
"I-I-I would love to." I replied.
He gave me a passionate kiss that lasted for awhile. I truly love him.

I then looked back at my children. Logan looked like his father. Blond fuzz covered his head. Blue eyes shined the room. He weighed 6 pounds and 7 ounces.

Then there was Avril. She had my eyes. Other than that she didn't look like neither of us. I started thinking about it. Everything came rushing back.

What if Avril is not Lucas's daughter? What if she's Dylan's?