SPIKING THE PAIN (Varsity Series #1) (PUBLISHED)

17

"You still have care for me."

Napapitlag si Meg dahil sa sinabi ko. Napatayo siya mula sa pagkakaupo nang magmulat ako ng mata. Sinisipat niya kasi ang aking mukha kanina at inaayos ang aking buhok.

The guard is not here anymore; he's the one who carries me to here. We are inside her four corner pink room. I am lying on her bed that has a pink blanket as well. It's noticeable that she likes pink.

"What the hell, Trishtan?"

Now she's mad. Of course, I was just acting when I collapsed. I am desperate for her attention and that's the only way I think of having her.

And it's a success but the thing I will face now is her madness. Bumangon ako sa kama at saka itinuon ang dalawang kamay sa kama para makaayos ng tayo.

"I want to be with you, Meg, please let me stay here. I can't go home now."

But she shakes her head. "No, you will go home now or I'll call the guard?"

I pouted. "Ganiyan ka na ba talaga?"

She snorted. "What the hell, Trishtan? What do you want me to do?"

"What I want you to do, Meg?" I bit my lower lip. "I want you to come back to me. That's all I want you to do because that's what will make me happy."

"I can't do that, Trishtan! You are wasting my time, you know? Get out of here!"

The moment she shouted made my heart terribly beats fast. The agonizing voice of her seemed like hammering my heart a million times.

I am hurt. I am hurt. Yes, I am fucking hurt.

She won't come back to me. I feel unwanted.

Her mouth kept on babbling words that has swords in it. I can't take it. . . especially it's from the girl I want to love to the extent of my whole life.

My lips trembled. "Will you still come back to me?"

Nangilid ang luha ko. I don't know what I will do if ever she answered no.

I looked at her. Our eyes met and I can see the discomfort in her eyes. She's unsure, she's in doubt, and like me, she doesn't know what to do.

Dumagundong ang mundo ko nang marahan siyang umiling. I was waiting for her to answer and my heart is beating in nervousness.

"No," she answered and then averted her gaze. I feel like my heart was stabbed.

The moment she opened her mouth, I know that "no" will be the answer.

My mouth opened but no words came out. I'm out of words; I am out of sentences. I am out of my life anymore.

"No, Trishtan," she repeated. "I don't know if I'll still come back to you."

Little by little, my heartbeat slowed down. At least, there's still a chance for her to come back to me, and that's enough for now.

A one percent hope is still the hope of her coming back to me.

"I'm okay now, Meg. Marinig ko pa lang na babalikan mo pa rin ako ay masaya na ako." I smiled weakly. "At least, I still have hope to hold on, and I still have you to lean on."

Tears ran down in my face which I immediately wiped. Nag-iwas siya ng tingin. Her sigh was heard in the room; she's full again.

"Now, go home, Trishtan."

Ako naman ang bumuntong-hininga. I nodded. "Okay, I trust your words, Meg. I will expect you tomorrow."

Muli akong naglabas ng malalim na buntong-hininga. Itinuon ko ang dalawa kong kamay at saka dahan-dahang tumayo.

But the moment I stood up, that's when my knees collapsed. Argh! I am so tired and I haven't eaten anything. Damn this weak body!

Napaluhod ako at sa sementadong sahig. Narinig ko ang mabilis na pagpunta ni Meg sa puwesto ko.

"Trish!" Now she called me in her usual. Her caring voice seems to be a harmony in my ears.

Naramdaman ko ang paghawak niya sa braso ko at tila sinisipat ang kalagayan ko. Ang mainit niyang kamay ay nagpapaalala sa aking nag-aalala siya sa kalagayan ko.

My heart felt happiness.

"What happened? Don't tell me it's an act again?" Doubt could be heard. She doesn't trust me anymore, I guess. Damn it! Of course, I just lied earlier.

Umiling ako. "No, Meg," I almost whispered. "Hindi pa ako kumakain simula kagabi."

"What the hell, Trish? Don't tell me you attended your training without eating anything?" Her voice raised.

I nodded. "Wala akong ganang kumain, Meg. Hindi rin ako makapagluto," I answered full of honesty.

"Uuwi na lang ako, Meg. Itutulog ko na lang 'to. I was tired because of training."

She snorted. "What the hell, Trishtan? Are you out of your mind? No! You will not go home. You will stay here and eat. Saka ka umuwi kapag nakapagpahinga at nagkalaman na ang tiyan mo."

I heaved a deep sigh. I am not acting, I am tired for real. Volleyball training will never be easy. Approach, jump, and receive in a monotonous way is very tiring.

"Mahiga ka na diyan sa kama ko. I will ask the maids to prepare you food."

Hinawakan niya ako sa magkabilang kamay at saka inalalayan akong makahiga sa kama niya.

I looked at her. I am sure my eyes will shut at any moment. "Can you cook for me instead?"

I still have the guts to request. She just shakes her head. "Fine. Just stay here and don't do something but rest. I'll be back once I am done cooking."

I nodded. "Thank you, Meg. Thank you that you still care for me even though pain was the only thing I gave you."

She stared at me blankly. No emotion could be seen in her eyes.

"Don't thank me, Trishtan. I should be thanking you because you taught me that I shouldn't give my all when it comes to love."

She then turned her back and went to the door. She never gave me a look until she vanished in my sight.

I am happy to have her. I am the luckiest man on earth to have her on my side. Even though she already broke up with me, she still cares for me and that's priceless.

I promise to solve the problem I have created. I promise to give her what she deserves and that's not pain. She deserves love. Yes, I am giving her the love but I want to love her fully without hiding any issues or problems.

I should be strong to handle that problem of mine.