Allie - The teenage years of Alexander Horten

September 6-12, 2015

September 6, 2015
Sunday
Dear Diary

Everyone walked around the house as if they were zombies. We said nothing to each other as we got ready for church. We could not believe that Aunty was arrested for attempted murder. It was even on the news. I am sure we all had the same question on our minds. Who was aunty trying to murder?

Maybe this was a sign. Maybe aunty's arrest was to show me that God created me a boy and everything that aunty said was false! I know I was happy and at peace in Greece when I was a girl but since I came back, I have only been confused. Being a sissy does not make you popular. It just makes you look like a freak and an outcast.

While mom was giving me the tablet, I told her that I wanted my hair cut. Mom promised that we can when we visited the doctor. This was September 17. I hoped that there would be no shots.

The choir was the same as usual. I was being teased. This time it was about my aunt being arrested. People sure found out quickly. They were asking did she murder me when I was a boy and did I reincarnate as a sissy?

Bella was waiting for me outside the church, but I did not notice. I tried to speak to Annie. She totally ignored me.

September 7, 2015
Tuesday
Dear Diary

I woke up today but wanted to go back to sleep. I still wet the bed and was reminded about this when Sarah looked in the door and informed me that I still wore diapers in bed. She asked me what would the school say if she told them. She already told Bella. Sarah had the potential to inform the whole school.

I jumped out of bed and pushed her as hard as I could. I warned her not to tell a soul. Sarah was shocked that I used violence and she shouted that she hated me. That hurt! She got her revenge at breakfast when she said she noticed I was wearing the boy's uniform and said the girls one suited me better.

I know Sarah liked me dressed as a girl, but I decided that I wanted friends. I wanted Annie to notice me. I wanted to be cool. I had to be the boy that God created.

I was of course teased at school. Bella spoke with me and told me not to worry. She liked me the way that I was. I smiled and responded in a loud voice that next week, no one will tease me, as my hair would be cut.

I hoped everyone would hear this.

September 8, 2015
Tuesday
Dear Diary

Today we got a new teacher. Miss Applewing was a very old woman that had craters as the moon has on her face. She stumped over like the hunchback of Notredame. She was a very stern old woman that gave us a big speech on how she expected the best behavior from us, and she would not expect any diddy daddling or childish behavior. She said her aim was to make us respectable citizens.

The class just stared at this new teacher. I was wondering if she would survive the class because she was so old.

I was the first one to pick on. She asked me if I was a boy or a girl. When I replied that I was a boy, she said that I needed to cut my hair, The world did not need another rock star or hippie. The classmates laughed and Noah explained that I was a sissy.

I ran out of the class as I heard Miss Applewing let out a large sigh.

September 9, 2015
Wednesday
Dear Diary

I wanted to stay in bed and say I was sick. I also wanted to take the wet diaper off me.

I was surprised that Bella came over so quickly. She said that we could walk to school together. Billy laughed at this and least someone wanted to be with me. He asked if we were boyfriend and girlfriend!

Annie was the love of my life. She did not know it yet. Bella was a friend that lived across the street. We share a secret together, She had a bladder problem that meant that she needed a diaper. I needed one when I slept. This was a deep secret we had and I trusted that she would never tell anyone.

Before we went to school. Mom told me to remember my tablet. Bella looked surprised and was shocked. I did not know why she was so shocked at me taking a vitamin pill. Girls could be so strange at times.

On our way to school, Bella asked me why I got those tablets. I told her they were just vitamin pills. Bella did not accept this and said she had the same ones and they were for something else. I smiled and said many tablets are pink and look the same. Bella continued and asked if I got injections. I did not answer that. I did not want to go to the doctor next week and get injections.

Noah shoved me against the wall at school and said, "You may be getting a haircut but that does not mean that you are cool. You will always be a sissy and a wimp. Accept and do not try and be something you never will be."

I would prove him wrong.

September 10, 2015
Thursday
Dear Diary

Nothing much happened at school today, Bella invited me over to her house after school.

We sat at the table eating cake that her mom made, It was here that I noticed that her mother was not as quiet as the other times I visited. She was more demanding and more like a strict mother. She would order Bella to do things and remind Bella how a lady should act. This was different than the times that she seemed so nice.

Bella was also different. She was quiet around her mother. She did not speak without permission and did argue when her mom said something. The interesting thing was that her mom was nice to me, but changed her tone when she spoke with Bella.

Bella was told that she was to change her school uniform. When Bella was doing that, her mom continued to speak to me. She told me that she loved Bella, but she needs direction.

"I know Bella told you she wore diapers," she said, " I was surprised at this. The truth is that Bella does not wear them all the time. She wore them as a punishment. I know this sounds strange that a child wears diapers. The thing is that it works. I hope this will not affect your friendship. She is a lovely girl. She does not wear them now."

This made me think. Why did Bella make me think she wore them all the time? Why was her mother so strict.

Bella came out wearing a frilly dress and white tights. I whispered to her that she was very lucky that she could change her own diaper. Bella quickly changed the subject and said we should do our homework

As we did this, I looked around the room. I really wanted to ask Bella who the boy was In all the pictures.

I suggested that we have a sleepover. It could be at my house or her house. Bella went white and said that she did not like sleepovers and she did not like them. I felt like I upset her and went home.

September 11, 2015
Friday
Dear Diary

Sarah and I have not been speaking with each other all week. Every time I look at her, she would look away. I know I had a right to be mad at her, but at the same time, I missed her. We were always close, and supported each other and made each other smile. There was little I could do. Sarah had to apologize.

The Queen made history today as she now sat on the throne for 63 years. I am sure Queen victoria was spinning in her grave and saying that she is not amused. It made me think, would I make a good a good king? I knew that I would banish Noah!

September 12, 2015
Saturday
Dear Diary

Mom and Dad wanted to speak with us today. We sat down as they told us that they spoke with the police and knew more about why Aunty was arrested.

The police have charged aunty with attempted murder. Aunty fooled around with mom's car, so the breaks did not work. This meant that Aunty wanted to murder mom!

I was in shock. Mom was now in tears and I was mad. How can one sister want to kill another sister?

To be continued