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Chapter Nine

JUNGKOOK's POV

Hoseok hyung suddenly teared up when I stepped inside the dorm. He hugged me tightly before letting go.

"You punk! You made me so worried about you! Why'd you had to do that to me, huh?! Be careful next time, okay?" he said to me. I chuckled at him before nodding my head.

He is the softest and soft-hearted in our group. He cries in small things, will worry you even if you're 5 minutes late, and many more. A very caring person, the one he'll date is lucky.

I went up to stairs slowly with Jin hyung beside me. I immediately sat down on my bed before sighing deeply.

"What happened, Jungkook? Tell me." Jin hyung asked before sitting down on the chair on my table.

I'm hesitating to tell him. He knows if I'm lying or not. He knows if I'm hiding something, but I can't just tell him about what happened with Taehyung in the school.

That's why I tried to calm myself, have my expressions and words ready before clearing my throat.

"I'm just tired. You know me, I get tired easily right?" I said in my normal tone of voice, trying to convince him and trying not to avoid his eye contact.

He nodded at me while looking at me a bit suspicious. He smiled at me before standing up.

"Alright. Go take a rest then I'll give you your dinner later, okay?" He uttered before going out of my room, closing my door slowly.

I sighed in relief. I'm really happy that he didn't ask more questions about what happened.

My heart is still beating fast. How's Taehyung doing? I mean, where is he now? I remember those stares at me, those pure eyes.

It made me smile, although I'm just thinking a way on how I will go to class again because of what happened.

"Hey, Jungkook."

I lifted my head and saw Yoongi hyung holding a bouquet before closing the door.

He put it beside me before crossing his arms together.

"Since when you had your admirer?" he asked, while his eyebrows up. The confusion started to show on my face as I look at the flowers. It has a folded letter in it that's why I read it as fast as I can.

Dear Jungkook,

      You know who am I, and I hope you're doing well right now. Take a rest and drink your medicine for you to recover quickly. Have a great day.                                                                                             
                                            - KT

"Who is KT? Is that your girlfriend?" he asked once again, still waiting for me to answer him.

I eventually smiled as I recognized who it is. I never expected him to bring this bouquet to me. I thought he'll not care about what happened.

I pulled the flowers closer to mine before inhaling the scent of it. It's so calming and the color is so bright. Roses.. a very bright red roses.

"Jungkook, I'm asking you," he said again. I chuckled before putting the roses back on the table.

"You don't need to know who he is, okay?" I answered shortly before laying to bed again, smiling while looking to the ceiling.

"He? Don't tell me that you already have your boyfriend?" he continued before shaking his head.

My smile when to a thin line as I looked at him. He looked disappointed. The way he rubbed his forehead because of what I said made me unhappy.

I'm confused about what I'm feeling. Why do I feel like I'm starting to have a light feeling starting that day where I and Taehyung last saw each other? I never dated boys before since all my interest is only for girls, and also because of my fear.

I didn't go into a relationship for a few years now since I'm no longer on to it. I don't feel bitter or jealous of couples, I just wanted to remove that memory from my mind. Ut's not my priority and I still wanted to finish everything so that I can already do what I want.

If ever I turned out to be gay... will they accept me?

"Anyway, I'm going downstairs already. Just take a rest and Jin will bring your dinner here." Yoongi hyung said seriously before going out to my room.

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I peeked in the wall as I saw them eating dinner quietly. No one dared to talk, not even Hoseok hyung. They're just finishing their food, not minding each other.

It made me scared a bit, but I wanted to go talk to them. Well, it feels like they wanted to talk to me as well. I can't stand them being so serious because it makes me uncomfortable.

"Oh, Jungkook! Come and join us in here." I flinched at the sudden voice and saw Namjoon hyung pointing to the chair beside Jimin hyung.

I played with my fingers because of the uncomfortable situation at the dining table. They usually invite me happily, but now, no one looked at me as I walk to the chairs. All their heads are hanging low to their plates.

I sat down beside Jimin hyung. He smiled at me still before continuing to eat his food, not creating a single noise. Only the noise of plates and spoons is heard everywhere.

"Why are you guys... so silent?" I asked them, breaking the silence.

I wandered my eyes everywhere, waiting for their answers, but I heard nothing. Not even a murmur.

Why are they like this?

"We accept whatever you are, Jungkook." I looked straight into Jin hyungs eyes. My eyebrows met in confusion about what he just said.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

He just shook his head, as they smiled at me in sync that made me confused more. Hoseok hyung thumbs-up to me, showing his bright smile again.

We accept whatever you are? Did Yoongi hyung tell them about that bouquet?

I'm still not sure about it. I'm sure that I'm not but I'm somehow confused about what am I.

That bastard just made me confused about me. Looks like I need to find out what am I.