Jungkook's still thinking of a way on how he'll inform Taehyung about the project they'll make. What makes him think is that, why doesn't he just call him right away? No matter how much he wanted to talk to him, he couldn't..because he doesn't know what to say.
Walking back and forth, still thinking of a way on how to. He doesn't understand, he couldn't understand why is he hesitating to just message the older about what he'll do.
"Fuck it up, Jungkook. Just text him, that's it!" he whispered to his mind, throwing himself to the chair. The papers lying with his laptop on, as long as his pens all over the desk, trying to figure out what he should do. It feels like someone cursed him because of his inability to talk and just say something to Taehyung directly.
He rolled his eyes, sighing deeply. Jungkook just casually positioned his shaky thumbs in front of the keyboard as he slowly tapped the letters.
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His guts immediately stopped him from sending it so he quickly removed the text before scratching his nape.
"Why doesn't my mind work properly?" asked himself annoyingly, going back to text him.
"Let's make the project here in my place," he said as he typed in his screen.
"Nah, I'll not send this. What the.."
The younger quickly shook his head, staring away, sliding his phone on top of his desk, his mind went blank.
"Do you even want to fix the problem? Then talk to him."
"How can I talk to him.." he asked himself.
Just when he's about to stand up, his phone started ringing loudly. His phone is flipped over the desk, so he doesn't know who the caller is. He shut his eyes tightly, picking the phone while walking back and forth.
"Hello..?"
"..Jungkook?"
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JUNGKOOK's POV
My heart started pounding quickly as soon as I found out who it is. The guts..the guts he has to call me.
"Can we..tal-"
"Oh yeah, I was about to call you about the project we'll present next week. Can I like..make it? I'll do everything. I can take all the presentation too," I replied, cutting what he'll say furthermore.
Silence filled the surroundings. Awkward silence, to be exact. Nothing is heard, just me and him observing each other through our phones.
"Hello? Are you still there?" I asked, checking on him. He went quiet so fast...
"Uh, yes. Don't you want me to help you? I mean, it's our presentation and I think it's not fair if you'll only do it by yourself." he stated, almost whispering.
I forced a smile, letting my voice calm.
"Yes, it's fine. I can handle myself, it's easy for me. No need to worry about it."
"And-"
"I'm worried about you."
I laughed under my breath, shrugging.
"You don't have to, I can handle myself as I said. You and Samantha are probably having a great time, and I don't want to bother you both."
"I'm not with her and I'll never go closer to her anymore. Just let me fix this."
Sincerity is there. The serious tone he used makes me want to listen and to let him explain everything that is needed to be explained. But, something is stopping me, something and I don't know what is it.
"No matter how much you want to fix it, my trust will never go back again. And we're talking about the presentation we'll do, so forget about it,"
"Wait Jungk-"
Without any hesitation, I brought the phone back to the desk in the same position where I picked it up.
I'm numb, I felt nothing. I don't feel anything but the building pain inside me slowly becomes unbearable.
"Why can't you just let him talk?" I spoke loudly, laying back on the bed while looking at the ceiling. I know, this will be the only time I'll stay like this. It's not my personality, I can't just stay like this forever.
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"You dumbass, why would you do that?!" Hye's piercing voice on the other lines echoed around my ears painfully.
I ruffled my hair aggressively before leaning in the headboard of my bed. It's really hard to do it, something is still stopping me.
"I don't know how to calm down!" Frustration gushes out of my mouth, recalling what I just did earlier. That was a very bad idea.
"I don't understand you. You go apologize now, " she demanded, exhaling afterward. Maybe she's right, I should apologize. There's no reason to give him an attitude like that, anyway. Or maybe he deserved it.
"Just... give me time to think. For sure, I'll soon give up and talk to him."
"Do it immediately, okay?"
I ended the call before turning off my phone, seeing my mind flying away.
Biting the inside of my lip, I tried to think again of a way. I'm losing hope right now. It doesn't feel exciting and happy anymore, it turned gray and pale after everything happened.
I can't lose him, and I can't lose everything just because of being stubborn to Hye. I don't know what to do for being this dumb and deaf to everything she advises me to do.
A few minutes later, I started yawning. My eyelids are getting heavier and heavier every second but I decided to let it open for a minute before picking my phone up once again.
I let out a sigh. I don't have any choice, I need to do it.
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