S U R R E N D E R

chapter sixty eight

Eyes wide open, her phone laying in her stomach while Lisa looked at the ceiling smiling. Lisa stayed on her back thinking again and again how her life had changed so much out of nowhere. She was trying to understand how she can possibly keep falling in love with Jennie, the woman she had the priviledge to call her wife now. Human emotions work so strangely sometimes that she doesn't even know how to describe the things she was feeling sometimes. Looking next to her she could see Jennie sleeping so peacefully so happily that she was almost scared of ever waking her up. You know that feeling that you get when you see someone and you know that you are meant to be with them? That feeling of suffocation and desperation when you are away from them? That is exactly what Lisa was feeling or maybe scared of feeling again.

Turning to her side she just stayed there for a while, noticing all the small details of Jennie's face while she slept, somehow she looked even more beautiful with her face relaxed like that. Lisa couldn't stop herself from thinking of the first time she ever got to watch Jennie sleep, the day that she knew she was in trouble, when she started realizing that thingsd inside her were different than what she anticipated and wanted them to be in real life. Looking at her she knew she wanted to wake her up and maybe tell her what she had on her mind, she was scared though that it was too early on to be talking about what she had in mind. It was her doctor that woke he up so early on in the morning, she was glad that Jennie didn't hear anything because she would definitely worry a lot. That was the last thing Lisa wanted, she'd tell her some time soon, she just didn't know when exactly.

"You're staring again," Jennie said and kept her eyes closed, Lisa laughing a little before she could pull her wife into her arms, Jennie's face finding its place in the crook of Lisa's neck where it stayed for the remaining time they had to spend in bed. "I can't help it," Lisa's voice came out muffled since her lips were flushed against Jennie's forehead, her eyes closing as she took a deep breath. "Maybe you should stop being a pervert" Jennie joked and poked Lisa's side instantly feeling Lisa pulling back a little and tensing up. She knew she had majorly fucked up since Lisa had a big issue with how skinny she had gotten, so skinny that she could feel her ribs touch her shirt one by one when she would change clothes. "Lisa," Jennie spoke up after a while, not saying anything about what happened so she wouldn't feed her wife's insecurities any more. "Sometimes I forget that you are mine for life. Sometimes I forget that I get to spend the rest of my life with you." Jennie said and turned to her side as well, now facing Lisa completely while her hand started trailing up and down her wife's neck.

"Don't... You know the neck thing kills me" Lisa sighed and threw her head back to give Jennie more room to work with. "I am sorry" Lisa said while Jennie straddled her hips, her hands pressing down on Lisa's bare chest. "What? Why?" Jennie asked and turned serious just for a minute, her eyes looking straight into her wife's eyes and nowhere else around them. "This, I have not been able to do this for you for quite some time" Lisa sighed and pointed at the two of them, Jennie laughing a little as she layed down on Lisa, chest touching chest and becoming one instantly. "You're stupid, like really stupid babe. I do this because it's my thing, you know." Jennie said and tilter her head to the side, her nose touching Lisa's as her lips grazed hers. Taking a deep breath Lisa let her arms wrap around Jennie's upper body, the woman's legs squeezing on each side of Lisa's waist.

"I am sure when you regain your strength you'll fuck the shit out of me," Jennie said and her teeth bit down onto Lisa's bottom lip, sucking on the sensitive skin. "Aren't we supposed to surprise the girls today?" Lisa asked, her whole body tensing up when Jennie's teeth started grazing the skin of her neck. Having come back from Italy a day earlier they really wanted to surprise them by randomly knocking at their door, if Jennie kept this up though they wouldn't even be able to get out of bed. "Jen, are you even listening?" Lisa spoke up again and her grasp on Jennie got tighter, her nails sinking into the woman's skin, leaving scratches here and there. "Hmmm, can you shut up though? It's really annoying," Jennie said and pushed herself again so she could see the look on Lisa's face right after she finished her sentence. "How about you make noises? I like that option a lot," the woman added after a while, her left knee sneaking between Lisa's thighs, staying there for a minute and pressing down causing Lisa's back to arch off the bed, a groan coming out of her mouth at the same time.