Help Me Survive

VIII: Who Is She?

Chapter 8

Patapos na ang lunch break no'ng pabalik na ako sa room. I've got no choice but to wait for school to be over. Sana naman ando'n pa rin siya hanggang mamaya.

Habang nakikinig sa klase, palihim akong bumubulong na sana ando'n pa nga si Chaos with my fingers crossed na para bang gagana 'yon.

The last class finally ended. I immediately picked up my things and swiftly went out of the classroom.

Peace said na sa abandoned building across the garden at the back ko lang daw siya matatagpuan. Sana nga 'di pa siya umaalis do'n.

Dahil tago naman 'yong garden na 'yon, malaya akong nakakatakbo without anyone noticing my lost of poise.

Hinihingal na ako bago pa makarating sa ground floor ng building kaya mas minabuti ko nalang na maglakad.

The biggest question here is, saan ko siya matatagpuan sa building na 'to? This is huge. Matatagalan ako sa paghahanap. And of I can't find him on time the I won't have any chance to speak to him again.

Bahala na nga 'to. Basta na lang akong pumasok papunta sa second floor. I don't know but my insticts are telling me na makikita ko siya rito.

Hindi nga ako nagkakamali. At the far end of the hallway, nakita ko si Chaos na naka-upo habang yumuyuko at hawak-hawak ang ulo niya.

To be honest, I feel like I saw another part of him. I always saw him with a strong facade. Samahan pa ng badboy aura niya. Like this is his weak side showing in front of me.

Hindi niya siguro napansin ang presensiya ko. Kaya naman lumapit ako sa kaniya at dahan-dahang tumabi. I felt him flinch at my sudden arrival.

"Kanina ka pa?" He asked me.

"Nope. Just 3 minutes ago," I said while trying to face him.

"So I will go straight to the point. I'm here to ask you some things. Actually I met someone kanina who could give me the answers but he said I should ask you instead."

Without further ado, he smiled a little and said, "So you met Peace. How's he? Pasok ba sa type mo?"

Is this guy trying to divert the topic? But I don't mind. He can divert the topic anytime but I'll still make sure that I'll get my answers.

"Yup, he fits perfectly in my standards. Instead of talking about him why don't you try to give me the answers now? In that way we'll finish faster. The sooner I get the answers, the better," I said without blinking. Trying to make him see how eager I am.

Iniwas niya ang tingin niya sa akin at piniling tumingin nalang sa harap.

"Fine shoot your questions. I don't want to tell a whole story from the beginning." Raising his hand, as if accepting defeat.

"Okay. First, I want to know how you knew me."

"I believe Peace already told you the answers. What his answers were, are also mine. We're twins right? So yeah," sabi niya habang nakatingin pa rin sa harap.

"Next, why did you approach me?" Again I asked trying to squeeze answers from him.

"I approached you because I pity you. No not pity na kawawa ka talagang tingnan, it's just that naaawa ako kasi alam kong ayaw mong tanggapin 'yong pinapagawa nila but then you can't say no to them."

Okay that was heavy. Naalala ko na naman 'yon. What he said is right. I really can't say no.

"Why did you introduced yourself to me then?" Urging him to tell everything I want to know.

"Because I don't want to watch you in the shadows. I want you to know me. I want to get close to you. Damn ayaw ko magpaka-stalker nalang lagi ang dating. Kaya nagpakilala ako. Alam ko ksing hindi mo ako kilala kahit anong sikat ko kasi nga wala kang pakialam sa paligid."

I was left dumbfounded. I never expected that. Just wow, all this time may nanonood pala sa kilos ko? It gave me creeps but I don't know bigla nalang napalitan 'yon ng something na 'di ko mapangalanan.

Is it anxiety? But no, it's more extreme. Nervousness? Hindi rin. Basta something I can't explain.

Instead of minding it, I decided to shoot my last question. A question that I never knew could change some of my outlooks in life.

"May babaeng sinabi si Peace na parang katulad ko raw. I asked him but he said it's not his story to tell. So I want to know Chaos, who is she?"