naruto oneshots

fake smile

pairing: mentions of kakairu
type: angst
setting: various
era: shippuden

summary: after laughter comes tears.

a/n: contains spoilers
tw: use of the f-slur

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drip.

drip.

drip.

kakashi's tears hit the tile floor of his bathroom.

rin.

obito.

minato.

his entire team is dead.

suicide.

suffocation.

chidori.

those are his three least-favorite causes of death.

"but you don't seem sad!"

"you have people that care for you, though."

"just try not to think about it."

those are things people have told kakashi.

pitter.

patter.

pitter.

those are the sounds of iruka stepping up the stairs after a long day of teaching.

friend-killer.

mistake.

faggot.

those are names he has been called in his thirty years of life.

life's

a

bitch.

sometimes kakashi wants to die. sometimes he wants to end the pain and finally see his father. the white fang of the leaf.

in.

out.

repeat.

those are iruka's breathing instructions as he grabs a wash cloth from the cabinet.

"i

love

you."

those are the words he whispers into kakashi's ear as he helps him stand up.

dazed.

exhausted.

desperate.

those are adjectives to describe kakashi's current state. iruka kisses kakashi's forehead.

they've been asleep for nine hours.

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