Turning Point (A.I.)

chapter 13- downfall

i had hoped when i had my mental break down at that this wouldn't continue as we got back to the cabin. parents were coming tomorrow and my mother could read me easier than anyone else in this world. my mom is my best friend and she helped with my past which was all i could ask for.

now i feel like i am trapped during every second of the day. everywhere i go, i feel like somebody is going to come crashing down on me, telling i couldn't do it. i don't know what i couldn't do, but with the voice telling me i can't, i wouldn't. the hospital visit just about ruined myself for the time being.

although, things have been better with ashton which was good for that part of my mental health. his mother and little sister, ashley, are also coming tomorrow, but i'm unsure of what we actually are. we've gone a couple dates and both openly admitted to that fact of liking each other, but no one has made an effort to become something more. maybe he has just stopped liking me since i'm such a difficult person to get along with.

<ashton's pov>

i don't i have ever liked someone this much. brin was just so perfect in so many ways and it makes my kness weak everytime i think about her. i'm so scared to think of us to be something more because of this long distance and how they are always bound to end ion failure. long distance relationships have never worked out in anyone's favor so it wouldn't work out in ours. to put things into a better perspective, brin and i are toxic to each other. we argue so much, but i just can't just get over her. she will always be engraved into my head no matter what she does in her lifetime. she is the most perfect person to me even if she doesn't think so.

"ashton? are you almost ready for bed? i'm super tired, but i want my cuddle bunny." i hear brin ask from outside the bathroom.

i open the door to come face to face with her and don't hesitate to pull her in for a kiss. we had both brushed our teeth so it was quite the minty kiss, but nonetheless, fantastic.

"come on, let's go lay down." i pull her hand to lay down and pull her closer to me.

"you know, ashton, i'm glad that we're not fighting anymore. it was really stressful making bitchy comments to you since i like you so much." she giggles towards the end.

"i'm happy too. i'm also very happy to meet your family tomorrow. i'm sure they are just as great as you are. maybe even better since they raised you!" i joke around with her and she just shakes her head slightly.

"i love them and i hope you love them too. they're better than me, trust me." she smiles at the thought of her parents. "i love them and my little brother more than anything in this world, they keep my world spinning." she blushes a little.

"it's cute that you depend so much on your family. speaking of family, i've seen the way you handle some of those kids and i can already tell that you're going to be a great mother." i mention and watch her cute little cheeks turn a pretty pink color. (THAT COULD ALSO BE VERY SEXUAL WHOOPS)

"oh, well, i'm tired. and also thank you, no one has ever said that to me." she yawns before turnign over quickly. and that's when i'm left to my own thoughts.

*next morning*

i awake out of my slumber after hearing brin's alarm that she never wakes up to. it was always me almost every morning, but i guess she really needed the sleep. i like watching her sleep and yes that sounds very creepy, but she's looks so serine. she looks like she's in the happiest place in the world when she sleep. there's always a little drool on the pillow which i didn't mind, but it was just so adorable. my feelings for brin are through the roof, but the distance scares me. that's why i wouldn't commit to the relationship when we both like each other so much.