Turning Point (A.I.)

chapter 18- well here we go again

when i as younger i thought my life was going to be amazing and i would never have to experience sadness. i always thought that nothing would be able to drag me down and i would be the most enjoyable person to be around. i've now realized that i must have been crazy to think that since i'm so sad now. learning was supposed to be fun and being able to socialize would be the best part of it. well, since i don't have any friends that go to my school, socializing is the worst part of it. school isn't fun and it makes me so depressed. i miss ashton and all i want to be able to do is be back into his arms. life isn't fun when you want to die.

i've thought about taking my life, but i'll miss too many things and people. also, the fact that i might have a child growing inside of me right now, scares the living shit out of me. i've decided that i will take a test if i don't have mother nature pay me a visit a day before i meet ashton. he's the father if my suspicions are true and he needs to know. as for my parents, i'm only going to tell my mother in the beginning. my mother is my best friend and i'm going to need her the most if all else fails. but, for now, everything just needs to go smoothly until i see ashton again.

*1 week later*

i meet ashton tomorrow and guess who still hasn't gotten her period? you guessed right, me. and that's how i find myself in the local
drugstore, trying to find out what brand of pregnancy tests to buy.

my mother doesn't know yet and i know she won't be happy, but this is the time where i really need her. in a rush, i pick a box and go pay for it. i drive back home without losing my shit which surprised me. no one was home at the moment therefore it was the perfect time to take the tests.

i run to my bathroom connected to my room and unwrap the box. i take out all five tests and read the instructions carefully. doing exactly what it says, i wait for the ten minutes to be up. these next ten minutes are the minutes that could be leading up to changing my life for worse or for better. i watch as my timer slowly counts down until i'm watching the last few seconds disappear on my phone. the ringer goes off which means it's time.

i look over the paper one more time to make sure i'm going to do this right. one line means i'm not pregnant and two means that i am. i open my bathroom door and walk over to my counter before picking up all of the tests at once. i take one more deep breath and look at the ten lines staring back at me.

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i cried for the longest time. i'll have a baby before i even graduate high school and it's with a guy i've barely known for two and a half months. sure, we both have younger siblings, but that doesn't mean that we're equipped to have a child of our own in a mere eight months.

i hear my family open our front door and call for me. i run to my bathroom and hide everything before heading downstairs.

"hey," i say softly. my eyes are beat red so they'll ought to know something is wrong.

"hi, darling. we just wanted to say we're back and having some roast chicken for dinner." I reply with a small okay before running back upstairs.

i see ashton on sunday and today happens to be a friday. i lay on my bed and think of all the possible outcomes that ashton could do. he could be completely okay with it, he could never speak to me again, or make me 'get rid of' the baby which i personally would never do. i got myself into this mess and i'll get myself out of it somehow.

"hey, can i come in?" my mother asks from outside of my door.

"yeah." i answer back and it only takes her seconds to sit with me on the bed.

"what's going on? you seem extra stressed, is school okay? are people still treating you badly?" she asks, concerned.

"it's not that," i mumble quietly.

"what is it, baby? you always know you can talk to me and i'll never be mad."

"i- just come here." i attempt to say before giving up and leading her to the bathroom.

i take the tests out of the hidden place i put them and place them in her hands. she stares for a moment and i watch as a small tear goes down her face. my mind automatically thinks of the worst option.

"if you want me to move out, just let me know and i'll find somewhere to go. this wasn't planned at all and yes, it was with that ashton kid who is now going to have one also." i explain in between sobs.

"no, sweetie, obviously this wasn't planned. i'm not angry, just rather surprised. i always wanted to be a grandmother, just never thought this early. trust me, we'll get this all figured out, you don't have to worry." my mother explains softly.

she took that surprisingly well.

"what about dad and christian? mom, i'm so scared. i don't know if i can tell them." i sob more.

"i'll help you tell them, we'll get this figured out. and you'll have to tell ashton too." she reassures.

with that said, she helps me put myself back together and head downstairs. i sit my father and brother down and with my mother's help we tell them together. my brother was fine, my dad was scared his little girl was growing up too quickly.

my family was easily the most amazing support system ever. as for ashton? i'm not to sure yet.

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ITS ACTUALLY BEEN A WEEK SINCE I LAST UPDATED AND IM REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF
anyway, I've got the rest of this story planned out and it's a little different than I first intended, but it's all good and I like this idea more anyway...
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until next time