Accidentally Assisting

Chapter 37 - Confession Time

And I do so. Jisoo and I have dinner and walk around the beach, reminiscing on old times. I try to be in the present and enjoy this moment with an old friend, but it's hard, it's just so incredibly hard when my mind keeps wandering back to Jungkook and his hurtful behavior. Admittedly, sometimes I do forget to see Jungkook as an authority figure because we're close and he usually doesn't talk to me like his employee anymore. These days, our conversations revolve just as much around private things as they do around work. Maybe this is the reason why I feel so offended by his treatment. I had simply forgotten that Jungkook is my boss and therefore allowed to order me around.

But deep down, I'm aware this is not the issue at hand here. This not what truly bothers me. What truly bothers me is that I've got absolutely no clue where I stand with Jungkook and I don't believe that he does either. Until he's figured it out, I'm doomed to this circle of the unknown I'm currently stuck in.

As we walk down the beach, around us the happy screams of some kids running around, Jisoo raises an eyebrow at me, not oblivious to the fact that I'm absentminded. "You've been oddly quiet tonight. Am I boring you, Rose-ah?"

I awkwardly laugh at this, feeling guilty as my messed-up situation is not Jisoo's fault. "Of course not, Jisoo-ah. Life's just been a bit... complicated lately."

"Problems at work?"

I had promised myself not to mention too much about work to Jisoo since I'm not supposed to share any confidential BigHit information anyway, but suddenly, I just blurt: "Problems with Jungkook."

He softly chuckles at this. "I see. Is he a tough boss?"

"No, it's not about that... he's alright as a boss, it's about him as a person. Jisoo-ah, tell me, why can't boys ever express their feelings? This is 2019, I'm not going to laugh at them for being vulnerable, you know."

"I know. And I'm sure Jungkook knows that too. But being emotionally vulnerable is terrifying, Rose-ah. Even with someone you trust. Just give him some time."

Can I still give him time? This is the question I've been asking myself for weeks now. However, I don't voice it out loud, because Jisoo wouldn't know an answer for it either.

Following Jinyoung's plan, I don't return to the venue and go to the hotel right away. Once I've arrived, I prepare Jungkook's schedule for tomorrow and send it to him so there's no need for him to talk to me anymore tonight. I really don't think I could handle it. Luckily enough, he's probably still so mad at me that he won't attempt contacting me either. At least that's my hope.

After a while, someone knocks on my door, and I get up from my bed with a pit in my stomach hoping it won't be Jungkook. Instead, Hoseok stands in front of me, offering me his radiating smile.

"Hey, Rosie. May I come in?"

Surprised, I blink. Hoseok is probably one of the members I've spent the least time with, mainly because he's one of the busiest. From working on his own songs to thinking of the choreographies for BTS's songs, J-Hope never catches a break, and I'm not sure of much the fans are aware of that.

"Yes, sure. Everything okay?", I ask him. This is such a pleasant change from Jungkook who would've just waltzed into my room without asking.

Hobi nods before sitting down on the floor in front of the TV. "Yeah. Jiminie told me about your discussion with Jungkook earlier. I'm sorry, Rose. We tried telling him he was being too harsh on you, but...."

I sigh. "It's okay, oppa. Jungkook oppa's behavior is something I have to deal with. But thank you for helping."

"Speaking of helping... is there something you could help me do?"