Don't leave me (Jungkook)

1. The Very start

How should I explain this in words? How do I say it started? What do I mean? Why didn’t I let go? It has been over five whole years. We went our own way, we lived in two different worlds.

No one thought it would be so difficult to be with you. You always stick to those around you, the exact opposite of me. You and I were like a minus and a plus. Good individually, difficult as a whole.

We took the chance felt this would heal and never end. We knew what would happen, we saw our consequences, but we still wanted to live. We wanted to create chaos and trouble.

Get in trouble, as long as it was just the two of us. No one could control us, we were free, but now everything has turned upside down. Because of a human, Jeon Jungkook.

Life was no better or worse for me than others my age. I struggled at school, got no support from home. Dad had spent all the money he earned on alcohol and snuff.

That money should be able to support me and my mother, but there are terrible people in this world and he is one of them.

I do not remember the last time he was a real father to me or when he was a good husband to my mother. I grew up in a tough neighbourhood and became part of the useless community.

School I did not go to was not bad, it was just too perfect. I do not know what my mother did then, but she earned enough money to support me and her without my father helping.

The state did not care, they saw us just as the people who were arrogant and rich did. We were looked down upon by the rest of the family on the mother's side, just because she made a mistake. She was lost in his false love and his burning heart, but he was nothing but rubbish.

I never liked anything related to love because it was something I never got. Mom and Dad did not care about me. The people at school were with me for nonsense and it felt like no one was real. It was the same days, school, home, music and there was not much to explore to put it that way.

Part of me liked how it was, life was like the calm waves when the sunset goes down. I could not handle all the problems, I was not ready to grow up. I wanted to be a child forever, but no one can be.

School time actually went in DAs. I promise I tried to keep up at the beginning of the year, but then it just went too fast and I could not run.

I simply gave up, but for mom I could try to work a little harder. So that I can support her when she grows older and has to give up.

It was a normal day, or so I thought. I sat there quietly in the history class, trying to keep up because history was something I remembered. Victoria sat next to me and chatted in a set.

Didn't pay much attention to what she said, but there was something about her boyfriend. I think they had broken up with each other, but I did not give a shit about what she said.

The teachers came forward, but it was not just her who was up there. A completely ordinary is not the right words, but someone who got my eyes.