Loving Obsidian

Ch. 29 Lyanna

A / N: Back on my regular update schedule .. I really hate when the days throw me off and I get off track.

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Hanging up the phone was the hardest thing that I had to do. I could hear the pain and despair from Abel, Callen and Elias. I grimaced at myself, trying to assure myself that breaking ties from all of them was the right thing to do. It may cause them some pain now, but it would prevent them from feeling it ten times worse later. Yet, still the guilt weighed heavily on me and it was a feeling that I no longer wanted to have.

Waiting a few miles, I threw the phone out the window of the car as I drove south. I knew that Abel would try to have the call traced, it was just his nature to protect me. Even denouncing him as my Alpha was not going to stop him, not to mention I had no doubt that Elias was not going to let go that easy either. I knew that our bond was not completely broken, because he had not and would not accept it, but at least when he found a new mate he would be able to be with her guilt free.

That is the reason as to why I was heading southwest as I called them. It would take just long enough for them to realize that I was not heading in the direction I was leading them, so by the time he knew where I was truly going he would not be able to catch me. And hopefully they would never find out where I was going. I would be a ghost, something I had mastered in the last couple of years. I knew how not to be seen until I wanted to be.

Reversing my direction, I headed toward the Rogue Camp Alyssa had told me about. Not only had she provided me with the location, but she had also given me the run down on all the ins and outs of their operation. Only after swearing her to secrecy about what she had told me I sent her to Haven Woods to warn them of the imminent attack, because if I failed I wanted to make sure they were prepared.

The longer I drove the more time it gave me to reflect on everything, never before had I felt this utterly alone in the world. Sure, I thought I had been alone before, but now there was an even larger gaping hole inside of me, that was once filled by my family and pack. As I said the words breaking my ties to Silver Moon I had not realized exactly what it would be like to be a rogue. If my feelings were any indication of how other rogues felt I could completely understand the reason that they were so angry and lashed out as they tended to do.

Wolves were by nature pack animals, so when you took away the pack the very core being was compromised. This is something that I thought I had felt over the years being rejected by my mate and also pushed away by my pack as I slowly unraveled. But now, now I understood that what I had felt all those years was nothing compared to the truth of what a rogue really felt.

"It was the right choice." Sid tried to comfort me.

"I know, we made the right decision. This has to end." We were both resolved to solve not only the issues that plagued us, but also bringing an end to the Mercenary dreams that Frankie had. Even though he was dead, no doubt one of his faithful followers had taken up his mantel and the tyranny that they were bound to bring needed to be ended. And who better to do that then a wolf that had nothing else to truly live for.

"Yes, it does. We will end this." She paused and then continued, "You know Elias still wants us?"

"That is not enough Sid. Wanting someone and being able to love them is different." I snapped at her. I knew she was speaking the truth, but it was not something I wanted to think about and something that we could not afford to dwell on.

"No, not with a mate it isn't."

"Why do you need to argue? We already decided that this is what we need to do!" I was getting frustrated with Sid at this point.