Loving Obsidian

Ch. 17 Lyanna

A / N: Sorry, slacking again. Meant to post this yesterday. OOPS! Anyway another will be up tomorrow.

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As I bounded away from where I left Him behind, strange emotions that I had not allowed myself to feel for a long time cycled through me, rolling over and over like the waves breaking on the beach. These were feelings I did not want, because with them came the pain and misery of my past. Every stride I took another wave would hit me, it was unrelenting and unforgiving in its harshness and unwillingness to cease.

I could feel the resolve in me falter, the human side of me, the one that craved companionship, love, and true connection taking over all logical reason that I had. It had me wanting to turn back, to run to him as I heard him letting out a howl of pain, sorrow, and rejection. It was a horrific sound, one that I knew all to well myself, but after what Jared had done and what he had taken from us there was no way we would survive another mate, I could not live through the pain that came with loving someone again. Instead we sated our needs with meaningless connections that never lasted past a night or two, if there was never any real emotions attached then it could not hurt.

Trying to focus on the reality of everything instead of the emotion of it, I was granted a momentary reprieve as I distracted my mind, "Sid, I know I am a broken record here, but a second chance mate? How does that happen?"

"I have no answer for that one."

"Ugh... and you are supposed to be the smart wise one."

It felt like we ran for hours, circling and re-circling our tracks, my body and mind screaming in weakness and pain. However, we had made it near impossible for any one to track us. He couldn't follow, we needed a clean break. Mr. Chocolate needed to find another mate, a chosen mate that would be better for him than I could ever be. Someone that would bring light and love to his pack, another she-wolf that could love him, that could be what he needed.

My thoughts floated to his face, remembering him in a stolen candid moment with his family. The strong angled lines of his jaw, that softened just at the edges letting you know he was both strong and gentle. The kindness in his green eyes promising love, but at the same time showing he was not to be trifled with. The strength of his toned arms, imagining the way they would feel wrapped around me. Shaking my head, the ears of my wolf flopped side to side.

"Sid! I need you to quit with the thoughts!"

"That is all you...well, not entirely, but you know he might be different. He could..."

"Absolutely not! No chances, there are some things that we can do and others we cant. Since when do we not agree Sid? What has he already done to us?"

"What about the car?" Sid questioned, changing the topic to our getaway.

"What about it? It's probably been towed or stolen. And don't think I don't see what you did there with the change of topic."

"No don't say that, you know how much I love that car." Sid was whining at me, pressing her desire to go check to see if the car was still there. Still ignoring my other comments.

"Fine." I relented, "Let's go see if it is there."

Turning back our direction toward the north, we trekked our way to where we had left the car. By some miracle it was still there, shocking me. "You got lucky Sid." I had been sure that someone would either tow it or try to steal it especially as I had left the door wide open and the key fob inside. Without wasting any time, I shifted back to human form not caring that I was naked as I jumped into the car. "Now, to see if it will start. The door has been wide open for a while now."