Shawn PoV
I've gone into deep, deep, deep depression ever since we've came home.
Knowing nothing was one huge nightmare. it really has happened.
I've had so much support from all the guys and my fans about it, but nothing is working. I feel worthless. I'm officially nothing.
Alex has been coming over A LOT. It just shows me how lucky nash is to call her his.
Yeah, I'm kinda still not over the whole Alex and Nash thing. It felt like she was made to be with me. Obviously not .
I walk downstairs to grab an Arizona. Basically the only thing I've been putting into my system. I've gone really thin. No body fat on me what so ever.
I start to feel an itch on my wrist. The temptation was huge. Without thinking I run upstairs to my moms bag. Her razor blades are in there.
I pick one up as I stare at it with teary eyes. I twirl the blade around my fingers thinking through all the good times I've had. Thinking through them all, none of them are equal to all the bad things that's happened in my life.
I soon place the blade on my wrist. Not doing anything. I walk into my bathroom which is connected to my room and I lock the door. Tears running down my face at how stupid I felt. Yet it wasn't stupidity it was the feeling of being worthless.
Before I know it I see blood running down my wrist dripping on the bathroom floor.
I feel more tears trickling down my cheeks. Why?
The next thing I knew was that the room was black.
Alex POV
I've been to Shawn's a lot recently, I feel so bad for him. I was meant to be hanging with Nash today. But I canceled so i can stay with Shawn.
I knock on the front door and Mrs Mendes soon answers the door.
"Ah alex! Good to see you sweetie!"
"You too" I say with a smile
"Shawn's in his room, go on up!" She says with a friendly smile
"Thank you" I say sweetly before walking upstairs to Shawn's room.
"Shawn?" I speak as I push the door open
No sign of him. Thats strange
Maybe he's in the bathroom?
I knock on the door
"Shawn?" I question.
Nothing.
I put my ear to the door and I hear breathing. He's in there.
I turn the doorknob to try and enter. And of course it was locked.
I kept trying to open it and still nothing.
I walk over to his drawers and grab a screw driver. I'm going to get this handle off.
I grab the screw driver and I begin to undo the bolts.
Soon all the screws were off the door and I could FINALLY open it.
As I open the door tears start to form in my eyes. Before I knew it I burst out crying.
"SHAWN!!" I shout between the tears
No,no no! This can't be happening!!!
I stand there still as a statue looking at shawn, motionless on the bathroom floor. Blood everywhere. Shawn's wrist cut.
Soon Shawn's mom runs up and all I can hear is screaming
"SHAWN MY BABY!!!" She shouts in tears
She immediately gets her phone out and dials 911.
"YES, MY SON! HE'S UNCONSCIOUS" She shouts with tears filling her eyes
"HE'S COVERED IN BLOOD HE CUT!" she shouts
I stand there. Standing looking at my best friend. Covered in his own blood. He tried to take his life.
I get on my knees and cry as I hold his hand
"I'm so sorry shawn" I whisper in between tears.
Soon I hear an ambulance pull up outside Shawn's house.
Then I hear fumbling up the stairs.
"IN HERE!" I shout
Soon paramedics fill the bathroom putting shawn onto a stretcher.
Within minutes shawn is on the stretcher and away to the ambulance. I follow down the stairs out to the ambulance.
"I'm coming!" I shout ad I jump in with shawn and his mom
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After 5 hours in the hospital. Shawn is now considered to be in a 'stable' state.
I stare at him in his hospital bed. Motionless. The only thing moving is his chest peacefully moving up and down.
I move my chair closer to shawn so I can hold his hand.
"I love you shawn, like really. Not as a friend, not even a best friend. But so much more. I love you Shawn mendes" I say with a tear falling down my cheek.
"I love you too Alex Smith"
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