Love Me If You Dare

36 - Redemption

Dev's pov

Next day morning

" I never wanted her to die....   I never wished to see her die.... I don't like anyone losing their life in front of me again. Oh god! What I have done ? "

Why ? With what I am going to explain this ? How I am going to make my mind understand about what I did ? Nothing can be undone. I was in my senses still I shut my both eyes and ears in front of her tears and pleadings. Even at the end when she said she did everything I felt like  I won this game, I am the winner but reality is ..... the moment she took the blame on herself out of fear towards me I became a looser. The real looser of this game.

None of the reasons can be justified for my barbaric act towards her now, at this moment. My anger issues are not even an excuse here . I almost killed her, tortured her and abused her until I became satisfied. Why ? Was it all because I lost mere a project ? I don't think so. I was letting out my anger on her which I was vanquishing inside for all these time unfortunately she became the scapegoat.

Then? Still the question why it has to be Lakshmi is remaining.

She lied to me. She hides many things from me. May be, because of her bad luck I get to know about them way to before. I wanted to believe them as truths but it won't be like that and I don't understand why she lies ? Whatever it is can't she tell the truth right looking into my eyes ?

" Lakshmi is taking medicines regularly for a long term. Last time something like this happened was few months back. " I turned my attention to Govind who was talking to Kiren about Lakshmi. Most critical stage has passed. She came out from danger but still in ICU for observation. Kiren called me and Govind to talk about Lakshmi, that's how we are here together.

"Does this happens when patient is emotional ? Like anger or sadness.... What triggers her most? " Kiren asked

" Sadness, she gets emotional very fast. She couldn't control herself sometimes.... " Govind replied. I was silently sitting beside him hearing everything about Lakshmi which were new to me also.

" Whether it turned to depression sometimes ? Does she have any such history ? " I frowned my eyebrows hearing such a question from Kiren. Why she should have depression ?

" Once she had ...... Few months back... " Govind replied in a weak tone and looked at me for a second. I didn't understand that look.

" She was a in a relationship with guy. Due to some reason they broke up. After that she was very sad and always crying locking her up inside the room. I thought she will be fine after some days. But one night coming back from a get together party among their friend circle Lakshmi seemed to be very disturbed. That night she came back to home crying badly. I understood something was wrong, so like always I gave her some time to relax first and then went to talk to her but....... " Govind's sound shakes while narrating it and I saw he got disturbed without completing what happened to her.

" What happened then ? " Kiren leaned forward from his chair to know further and asked. I was also curious because that incident was the day Yuvi and Lakshmi had an ugly fight in a party. I got informed about it but since it was Yuvi such fights with girls are normal. So I ignored it. Thinking about it, I can't believe that was Lakshmi back then.

" She tried to commit suicide. I was late to find her in tub bathed in a pool of blood. I still can't believe that my daughter does such stupidity because of a breakup. " Govind swiped his tears and said. He still fears about that night, his eyes says that.

" What you felt ? Lakshmi did that on because of a sudden anger or she intended to die... "

" Kiren .... " I interrupted Kiren for asking such a absurd question.