Do-Over (A Jayy Von Monroe FanFic; BoTDF)

Chapter 20; "Aus, Talk To Me."

I rolled over, out of my face-down position on a pillow in Dahvie's room.

"What do I do Dahv?" I begged. No one had gotten to me like this in a long time.

"What do you mean Aussie?"

"You know damn well what I mean," I said in frustration. I wasn't in the mood for this.

"Okay, Okay. Chill. But what can you do now? You waited and waited, if you wanted her, you should've said something a long time ago."

"I know, but..." I sighed. "It never seemed right to say anything. I was never sure if they were on or off and by the time I knew, she was with some other guy. And it's not like I had time, after Jason they flew to each other like magnets... Besides," I said with another long exhale. "I couldn't stand in the way of this guy's dying wish. That kind of would've been a dick move ya know?"

"I know. But still, what options do you have now? That is, besides move on?"

"And how the hell do you propose I do that Dahvie?"

"You just do." He muttered softly. "It hurts and you hate it, but you do."

"So very helpful," I said, pressing my face back into the pillow.

"Well I'm sorry. Truly I am Aussie, but I just don't know how to help you right now."

I sighed and got up. "I'm sorry. I know I'm frustrating. It's just I'm confused. This is weird for me, I've liked people, but it's been a while, a long while, and I forgot how much it sucked."

Dahvie nodded calmly. "Yeah I know it does. Ya just gotta push through, okay?'

"I'll try. Thanks Dahv."

"No problem."

I gave him a hug and headed downstairs to grab a snack. 'Already almost six? Fuck...'

Jayy and Hunter stayed in his room for most of the day, probably due to her knees, so Jayy's voice was an unexpected sound behind me as I made myself a sandwich.

"Hey Aus."

"Hey," I forced myself to respond calmly. "Want one?"

"Sure," he said, looking down. "Mind makin' one for Hunter too?"

"No problem." I pulled out more bread and started two more.

"Uh, Aussie?"

"Yeah?" I asked, semi-distracted.

"Can we... Can we talk?"

I swallowed. 'Uh oh.' "Sure. What about?" I tried to keep my nerves out of my voice.

Jayy's POV

I could feel my voice straining as my throat tried to clench. I was pushing it all trying not to cry now. 'Just when I have her back.'

Still, I forced my way through it. "About Hunter... Well, do you... Do you actually like her? I mean I was joking earlier, but... you got pretty defensive and it made me... wonder."

Aussie stiffened and audibly swallowed. "Um..." He shook his head after a second. "Look why's it matter? You have her."

"I need to know."

"Why?" he asked irritably. "Who cares?"

"I just need to."

"Jayy."

"Aus, talk to me. Please."

"Alright, Alright fine. I like her okay? But it doesn't matter. I would never try for her, you love her too much. I've seen you without her and it's not a pretty sight. So relax, okay? It's just a crush."

I went over and put my arms around him. "I'm sorry," I said softly. "I didn't mean to tease you about it. I know how much it hurts and I know that teasing makes it worse. I just needed to know that you weren't gonna..."

"Never," he assured, looking me in the eyes, dead serious.

"Thank you. But that said, now that I know, I can lay off."

"Thank God," Aussie breathed softly.

"And, more importantly, if you need to talk, you can talk to me okay? Even Hunter, she'd understand and I know she'd be okay talking to you about it if you wanted. But if you don't want me to tell her, I won't."

He looked up nervously. "If you wouldn't mind, I'd prefer to do that myself. Like I said, I won't try anything, you can be there if you want to make sure, but I'd rather tell her."

"Understandably."

"So then... You're not mad?"

"No, not at all. I just... I needed to make sure."

"Alright." We hugged and Aussie handed me two sandwiches on top of each other. "There are two plates there, I just figured it'd be easier to carry with them like that."

I nodded. "Smart man. Lemme know if you wanna talk. And feel free to tell her whenever, just tell me when to leave. I trust you."

"I appreciate that. I'll let you know man."

"Okay."